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my mom refuses to talk to me when i'm stressing out. it pisses me off because i stress out because i don't want to fall behind. i don't want ot let myself slip behind & yet everytime i start to freak out her response is "alright, i'll talk to you abou this when you're calm" FUCK YOU FDU GH FUCKKKK YOUUUUU. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HARD IT IS FOR ME & YOU WON'T EVEN TALK TO ME WHEN I NEED TO TALK TO YOU THE MOST. i swear one of these days i'm just going to fucking shoot myself i'm so tired of this. if i don't go to a good college then what do i have? nothing. i'm not going to some shitty community college & i can't fucking stand that looming over me every fucking single day of my fucking life. i swear all i do is stress about my future. i stress & i stress & i stress to the point where i break down & start crying i don't fucking get why my grades are so shitty this year & i can't fucking bring myself to try any harder it stresses me out because the grading system down here is fucked up. so fucked up & my mom won't even talk to me when i'm about to have another one of my nervous breakdowns because she doesn't want to deal with me. what the fyuck kind of move is that? thatnks a lot mom i really appreciate your support. i'm a junior & i think i worry about college a lot more than most seniors do. it's fucking ridiculous. i just want to know that everything's going to turn out okay & not knowing is what's killing me the most.