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ahh. fuck you. it's evident that i'm never going to get over this, or at least not anytime soon. and you know that.. so i don't know why you keep doing this to me. if you don;t care about me like you tell other people, don't call me or tell me you miss me or tell me how good things used to be. it would be so much easier for me if you'd stop calling me out of the blue. evertime you come around something good i have going for me gets fucked up. and i'm really happy that that one good thing is out of state right now and i'm not able to talk to him because i'd probably do something i'm going to regret.
i don't get this, i don't get you. you must think this is some huge joke. i wish you'd just realize how much this is hurting me and how crazy this drives me.
DON'T SAY ANYTHING YOU DON'T MEAN OR INTEND ON FOLLOWING THROUGH WITH.
simple as that.
i really wish we could manage a decent.. something, but we can't. and i'm really sorry that we can't. i really don't think you're doing all of this to hurt me, i think you mean what you say when you're saying it but then you realize that theres a billion other girls that feel the same way about you as i do and you get caught up. you don't know what you want.. i don't care how much you tell you do. and i know it's not 100% your fault, my freinds fucking suck too. if certain people would just be honest with me alot of this would have been alot easier to deal with. but i'm constantly hearing two diffrent stories and it sucks.
but whatever.
i don't get this, i don't get you. you must think this is some huge joke. i wish you'd just realize how much this is hurting me and how crazy this drives me.
DON'T SAY ANYTHING YOU DON'T MEAN OR INTEND ON FOLLOWING THROUGH WITH.
simple as that.
i really wish we could manage a decent.. something, but we can't. and i'm really sorry that we can't. i really don't think you're doing all of this to hurt me, i think you mean what you say when you're saying it but then you realize that theres a billion other girls that feel the same way about you as i do and you get caught up. you don't know what you want.. i don't care how much you tell you do. and i know it's not 100% your fault, my freinds fucking suck too. if certain people would just be honest with me alot of this would have been alot easier to deal with. but i'm constantly hearing two diffrent stories and it sucks.
but whatever.