Kim, Kel, Court Read This Please
omgosh - so much stuff has been going on ... ever since igot back from Sc.. like my thinkns have changed.. and i don't like it either.. ok i lived in Sc for 9 years thats a freakn long time.. and ya'll don't understand i am like inlove w/ that place.. all my friends are there and thats where i am happy.. well after my week there i didn't wanna come back home and i've like cried every night becuase i miss it..i miss blair .. we lived across the street from each other from when we were 2 years old till i was like in 2nd grade then i moved to a diff. house in Sc.. and we have so many memories that i could just stay at her house forever! but anyway back to what i was saying.. when i am in Sc i forget about everything here and i think i am back home and living there again but thats not whats true and i had such a good time that i forgot alot about whats going on here.. and i hadn't spent time w/ kim kel or court because i was in Sc.. and i can't get myself to realize that i'm not moving back there... like in my head i'm thinkn i'm movin back there when there is only like a 95% chance that we would move back there.. so i have like shut myself up and not wanna go anywhere -- its not like i am depressed or anything its just i got my hopes up so i am like avioding my best friends and idk why.. its hard to explain.. its not that they aren't good enough anymore because i told daniel about this and he was like sorry we aren't good enough for you anymore.. and that is by far not it! -- its just when you live somewhere for so long and move [[ even tho i moved 5 years ago ]] you're still gonna wanna move back.. but HmM.. its really hard to explain.. but yea i have been avoiding my bestfriends because i'm thinkn i am gonna move back when there is no chance i will be able to ..& i just need to face that and go on like i have the past 5 years...... so kim kel & court i am sorry if i've been avoiding ya'll .. i don't mean to...ya'll are my bestfriends and idk what i would do w/o ya'll .. i don't wanna throw something like that away! & to blair i love you and you mean the world to me you are def. my sister and i miss you! -- WiLl. i love ya too and you're the sweetest guy ever! just keep calling me and we'll talk like we have been .. i miss you the most! --