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Really only one person will understand this. so valerie. here goes.
Words could never describe how you made me feel for as long as I knew you... nor can they describe how I've felt since you've left me. As many times as I say how much I love you, it never loses it's meaning in my heart.
Though I knew your beliefs and my agreeing doubts... my faith is now strong enough to know I will see you again someday. Your words, our conversations, the memories we shared, are all so precious to me. I will never forget... though my reminding bracelet is lost, I have so much more than a maroon band could offer.
I know I hide everything too personal I feel... but this time, more then 365 days later, I'm letting this all out for just this one day. I can't hold this in again.
so much would I love to go back in time and freeze it, at our best moments, to avoid such a disastrous ending to a wonderfully built and growing relationship...
And once we finally think we have everything figured out,
the world crashes in it's turn and forces us to start over.
How ridiculous for us to ever think we've concluded a solution to every situation,
to really believe we'll always know how to handle ourselves.
We come up with temporary ways to keep satisfied at that hurtful moment,
but this cycle never ends, no, we slide from top to bottom then we turn and climb again.
so heres to old times.