tis the season.
[i can't even pretend write]
I just want him to be aware.
I want to see how he reacts.
I want to see if he cares.
I want to see if it matters.
I want to see how he feels.
I want him to know that I care.
but I'm so terrified of risking.
my dignity.
my feelings.
my heart.
my thoughts.
my [friendship?].
my embaressment.
tis the season. to put ones self on the line for crushes.
do I follow the trend.
or
do I continue to sit here in silence.
hoping and praying that someday. he will show interest in me.