it has been a while
but I have come to a very sobering realization about myself. I am a fuck up. point blank period, this is what I am. I have never really lived up to my potential in anything I've ever done. Ever since I can remember I have been mediocre and I was ok with that. My problem? I have never really given a shit about anything, or anyone to be honest. I mean I have my moments of compassion or whatever but in the grand scheme of things I just really don't give a fuck. I can barely give a shit about myself, let alone anybody else.
If I have learned anything its that I'm going to coast through life and just not really amount to anything. My parents will be disappointed in my, I'm pretty sure they are already. 6 years to get a bachelors degree?are you serious with that shit? I still have 1 class to take. so technically it's going to take me 7 years. 7 fucking years to get a bachelors degree in culinary arts management. What a bullshit ass fucking waste of time. I don't even want to be a chef. This goes back to the fact that I just don't care enough. Even if I did, cooking is not my passion, I know that 100%
fucking shit I hate everybody and everything right now. I don't care I don't care I don't care. I feel fucking lost, what am I doing?what am I going to do? fuck fuck fuck
I don't want to work for bj's the rest of my life. FUCK
If I have learned anything its that I'm going to coast through life and just not really amount to anything. My parents will be disappointed in my, I'm pretty sure they are already. 6 years to get a bachelors degree?are you serious with that shit? I still have 1 class to take. so technically it's going to take me 7 years. 7 fucking years to get a bachelors degree in culinary arts management. What a bullshit ass fucking waste of time. I don't even want to be a chef. This goes back to the fact that I just don't care enough. Even if I did, cooking is not my passion, I know that 100%
fucking shit I hate everybody and everything right now. I don't care I don't care I don't care. I feel fucking lost, what am I doing?what am I going to do? fuck fuck fuck
I don't want to work for bj's the rest of my life. FUCK