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God it has been a long long time. I don't really know where to start.
First the obvious; I'm happy, summer is coming (I cannot wait), I am busy, I'm in denial about work and have done none, I am starving.
And now
I realised something on Monday, when Roger left. I spend my whole life missing people. Isn't that funny? It's not a bad thing. But I love a lot of people. And I want to see each of them as often as possible, I want them to be my everyday, but it is impossible to have that. I think it is good to miss people. It means you care. And it's funny because sometimes I say I miss you to somebody and I haven't realised before then that they were lacking from my life, but I don't think it means I have missed them being there any less, I was just not conscious of it. And sometimes, I think about people, and I think about what they would say to me if they were there. I do that with Ella all the time. It's funny how some people you miss because you don't see them any more, and some people you miss because you don't see them as much any more. I miss Sean when I don’t see him for ages, but I don't miss him when I do because our relationship is entirely the same as it always has been. I do miss that I don't see him everyday any more though. The friendship where you constantly know everything that is happening in somebody’s life is hard to keep. Anyway I'm bloody rambling as usual. What I wanted to say is that I miss individuals a lot; Lucy, Mai Anh, Ella, Saara actually forget the list that is long but I also miss just everybody. I miss sitting with a group that I know really well, and being part of it. That sounds so different from what I mean. I am part of a group, of maybe two or three groups where it is still like that. But now I can still see the people I'm closest to in a group, but I'm not really a part of one or two groups that I used to be so comfortable in, and that I miss.
None of this is making any sense.
Anyway, skiing was incredible, I can't wait for the photos, and although I've done no work whatsoever I am very happy with the way my Easter has turned out. Enjoy the sunshine, X
It has taken me three days to get this post out, but I think it is worth it : )
And of course, it wouldn't be me without these:
(Some of my favourites from the past threeish months)
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