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Well i'm down 2 lbs from yesterday thank god, if I can lose 2 lbs a day then I'll make my goal and be 104 in six days, holy shit holy shit holy shit i'm pretty sure I can do this and I intend on it, even though I had pizza and mother fucking cookies today,luckily I purged it all, and took 4 diet pills,and I just worked out a little at 3am? yeah I know i'm awkard, and took another one, so hopefully tommorrow even though it is Christmas I'll eat once, fuck hunger pangs, i'll just have to deal with them because I cannot fuck this goal up, if I can get to my goal by next Saturday I can accomplish anything in the world, or atleast anything I want to accomplish, I know the holidays are hard and I know people do gain weight but not me, I can't fucking gain anymore,luckily I am losing and I will meet my goal.
I just have to keep reminding myself how much I truley [sp] want this, not only want it I need to accomplish a goal,I haven't in so fucking long and I just keep making these outrageous goals and never even get close to making it, but this time I will. I have to. I cannnnn fuck fuck fuck fatty.
I wish I didn't have twelve chins, whatever, I'll do this by next Saturday. Just 11 more lbs to go,fuck i CAN do this. Gah I need to fast tommorrow, I don't know,we'll see.