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Okay, time for something not all sad and sappy!
Last night started out really really rough, but I talked to Paul, and then I talked to him again, because I was being an asshat, and that helped a lot. It really made me feel better.
I did a round in Bailey with one of their mentors. It was very fun. He's a fifth year from New York, so he certainly has some different perspectives about living and working in Brody like I do, but he was very nice and it was good to get out of Rather for a bit.
Then I came back and did a round with my mentors. Despite all of us being a tab bit gloomy/out of it, it was fun. My staff really can cheer each other up a lot, and it reminded me of why I have so much energy for this semester as far as my staff is concerned. It's because they ROCK!
Came back from a round and was about to go to bed, but decided to check my computer first. That proceeded into my having a conversation that lasted until about 3:30 or 4am. It was really really amazing. I very much needed it, and just well, wow!
After that was done, and I was preparing to tell my friend I couldn't help him with his girl problems this late, I got another random IM.... from the reason I hate January. He said he wanted to varify the rumor of my break up, and apologized. Then he decided to tell me that he loved me, he's always loved me, and he still loves me. Apparently I'm one of only two women in his life that he's ever loved. He told me that he was scared of losing me, which is why what happened happened, and then proceeded to ask me to come see him on MLK day! Odd to say, but I think it did provide a bit more closure to the situation. I would have thought that having someone like him tell me that would have totally ruined everything, but I guess it just reminded me of how sad and desperate he is, and made me realize that I'm totally worth it- even he's trying to win me. Some people are totally deranged.
I had to share this with someone, because rather than upsetting me like one would think, I actually laughed. I think I laughed because I didn't know people could be so stupid. So I called Tommy, since I was sure I wouldn't wake him, and because I knew he would laugh with me. So I called... and Moe answered. She was drunk and very cute like Moe is when she's drunk, and she said she loves me still and misses me. She got VERY excited when I said I was coming up to visit them. It was fun, very fun, to talk to her. Then I told Tommy, and he did in fact laugh. Of course he asked me why I was still talking to him, but regardless, he laughed.
Alison also called me tonight to tell me that she still loves me and I should come to Eban's, which I would have would I not have been on duty. However, I am on duty, and not allowed at Eban's.
This totally upped my spirit, and I feel totally great again. The road may be rocky, but I'm going to make it home eventually. God it feels good to finally say and believe that.
Today I'll walk with my head high, because I can, and because I deserve to... and because it makes me feel damn good!
Have a great day everyone, because we ALL deserve it!
SK
Last night started out really really rough, but I talked to Paul, and then I talked to him again, because I was being an asshat, and that helped a lot. It really made me feel better.
I did a round in Bailey with one of their mentors. It was very fun. He's a fifth year from New York, so he certainly has some different perspectives about living and working in Brody like I do, but he was very nice and it was good to get out of Rather for a bit.
Then I came back and did a round with my mentors. Despite all of us being a tab bit gloomy/out of it, it was fun. My staff really can cheer each other up a lot, and it reminded me of why I have so much energy for this semester as far as my staff is concerned. It's because they ROCK!
Came back from a round and was about to go to bed, but decided to check my computer first. That proceeded into my having a conversation that lasted until about 3:30 or 4am. It was really really amazing. I very much needed it, and just well, wow!
After that was done, and I was preparing to tell my friend I couldn't help him with his girl problems this late, I got another random IM.... from the reason I hate January. He said he wanted to varify the rumor of my break up, and apologized. Then he decided to tell me that he loved me, he's always loved me, and he still loves me. Apparently I'm one of only two women in his life that he's ever loved. He told me that he was scared of losing me, which is why what happened happened, and then proceeded to ask me to come see him on MLK day! Odd to say, but I think it did provide a bit more closure to the situation. I would have thought that having someone like him tell me that would have totally ruined everything, but I guess it just reminded me of how sad and desperate he is, and made me realize that I'm totally worth it- even he's trying to win me. Some people are totally deranged.
I had to share this with someone, because rather than upsetting me like one would think, I actually laughed. I think I laughed because I didn't know people could be so stupid. So I called Tommy, since I was sure I wouldn't wake him, and because I knew he would laugh with me. So I called... and Moe answered. She was drunk and very cute like Moe is when she's drunk, and she said she loves me still and misses me. She got VERY excited when I said I was coming up to visit them. It was fun, very fun, to talk to her. Then I told Tommy, and he did in fact laugh. Of course he asked me why I was still talking to him, but regardless, he laughed.
Alison also called me tonight to tell me that she still loves me and I should come to Eban's, which I would have would I not have been on duty. However, I am on duty, and not allowed at Eban's.
This totally upped my spirit, and I feel totally great again. The road may be rocky, but I'm going to make it home eventually. God it feels good to finally say and believe that.
Today I'll walk with my head high, because I can, and because I deserve to... and because it makes me feel damn good!
Have a great day everyone, because we ALL deserve it!
SK