Will I ever....??
...just reach that point where I stop and say, "I just can't do this anymore."? Or will I go on forever and ever and ever living like this? I mean, I could...I'm rather used to it. I'm used to living a kind of two lives deal. I'm used to making people laugh all the time....telling stories and being the...whatever...the me everyone thinks of. *shrug* I'm quite used to not telling people what's going on....what I REALLY care about....what I really want....what I really want to do... I'm pretty used to just going along...saying, "Dododododo..." and doing a little dance and...so on.... Will I ever forget what I really care about? What I'm always thinking of? What I really wanna do? Will I ever give up? Will I get tired of living like this? In such a way that I can't even .....explain.... Will I ever find the words? Will I ever just ......shut up?..... Will I ever come to the day ....... Will I ever ...... Will I ever just feel so alone that I can't take it anymore?.... Will I ever be able to tell anyone the truth...the truths...of me....? Will I ever ....*shrug*.... just not care? I dunno...I'm 23...how long will this go on? Forever? ...... This.....waiting.....this.... this. This not making sense.... I just keep hanging on...I just keep praying and my prayers would be junk if not for my heart.... my actions are junk....but my heart is ....not. I won't let any negativity keep me from praying....I wont....stop. I am a fool. *shrug*... Well, kinda.... I'm just getting tired of living between these kinda two lives.... I don't wanna think about it anymore.... not right now. It's a strange time of...day...I need to sleep. I'm an usher ...today.
1. No being sick. No being....*shrug*.
2. Henny, you're a darling.
3. My neck itches....I can handle it.
4. Nobody knows....
5. I am......tired.....
6. Sometimes short things are great...like a short stack of pancakes...wait..I hate pancakes. They make me ill.
7. Pink is a nice color. I had a nice night at work. The movies I watched with my dad on Sunday night were nice.
8. But, above all nice things is...
9.
1. No being sick. No being....*shrug*.
2. Henny, you're a darling.
3. My neck itches....I can handle it.
4. Nobody knows....
5. I am......tired.....
6. Sometimes short things are great...like a short stack of pancakes...wait..I hate pancakes. They make me ill.
7. Pink is a nice color. I had a nice night at work. The movies I watched with my dad on Sunday night were nice.
8. But, above all nice things is...
9.