I Want What I Am
I want to be inspired. I want to be proud and excited of my current situation and what I'm doing, who I'm with, where I live, shop, hang out, visit. . . .
I want to feel content and satisfied, like I'm just where I want to be. I want to feel important, loved, wanted, needed. I want to feel special and admired. I want to inspire while being inspired.
I want to slow down and love life by the moment instead of just waiting and wondering what comes next. I want to feel that what I'm doing is productive and admirable. I want to follow my path, without thinking I made a wrong turn, choice, or decision. I don't want to keep telling myself it *will* be okay--I want to know it's okay now. I want to be able to accomplish the things I get impulses or urges to do--as well as longer-term endeavors--with concentration and enjoyment.
I want to stop looking; I want to find, to buy, to finish, accomplish, succeed, discover--and I want to keep doing it for the rest of my life. I want the constant restlessness quelled and the contentment and excitement to be primary. I want to feel good with myself, by myself, about myself; I want to feel good with others.
I want to feel these things stably, and not keep changing moment to moment. When I hit an up, I want it to last as I continue to live, write, read, dream, inspire, love, enjoy. . . .
I don't want to be a different person. I just want to satisfy myself. I want to trust myself, love myself better, and give myself to love. In turn, I want to get love back--the true, unselfish kind that blossoms from a genuine concern and care for me that stems deeper than personal gain.
I want to love my love, every part of her and I want others to know her and love her too. I want us to inspire and impress together--be free together. I want her to learn from me, as I will from her.
I want to live, love, and be happy.
I want to feel content and satisfied, like I'm just where I want to be. I want to feel important, loved, wanted, needed. I want to feel special and admired. I want to inspire while being inspired.
I want to slow down and love life by the moment instead of just waiting and wondering what comes next. I want to feel that what I'm doing is productive and admirable. I want to follow my path, without thinking I made a wrong turn, choice, or decision. I don't want to keep telling myself it *will* be okay--I want to know it's okay now. I want to be able to accomplish the things I get impulses or urges to do--as well as longer-term endeavors--with concentration and enjoyment.
I want to stop looking; I want to find, to buy, to finish, accomplish, succeed, discover--and I want to keep doing it for the rest of my life. I want the constant restlessness quelled and the contentment and excitement to be primary. I want to feel good with myself, by myself, about myself; I want to feel good with others.
I want to feel these things stably, and not keep changing moment to moment. When I hit an up, I want it to last as I continue to live, write, read, dream, inspire, love, enjoy. . . .
I don't want to be a different person. I just want to satisfy myself. I want to trust myself, love myself better, and give myself to love. In turn, I want to get love back--the true, unselfish kind that blossoms from a genuine concern and care for me that stems deeper than personal gain.
I want to love my love, every part of her and I want others to know her and love her too. I want us to inspire and impress together--be free together. I want her to learn from me, as I will from her.
I want to live, love, and be happy.