sad
the title gives it away, im fucking depressed right now. so much shit has come to pass since april. lets get a quick recap:
April 1: last time i see one of only two girls thats ever meant anything to me, also the night my pnemonia gets really bad (still isnt gone all the way either)
April 17: one of the worst days of my life, after waiting a year and a half to find out, i get a response (two weeks late by the way) from the german exchange program telling me that im just not good enough for them
April 29: about the day that my econ teacher tells me she wont let me graduate, as well as my english and german teachers
May 20: after getting turned down 5 times in a row i go to prom lonely and pissed of at my friends, i did enjoy getting really drunk though
May 24: last day of school, also the first date that would be used against me in court if the subject of statitory rape was ever involved
May 26: graduation
July 5-7: days i should be leaving for germany
July 22-25: last time i see the second of only two girls that ever meant anything to me. this is the time that completely crushed all my future goals that i made in april after realizing i need to do something different with my future
sorry i dont mean to bitch, but im fucking tired of things working against me. i got this awesome job that would pay $500 a night, and i find out that im making about $2-8 an hour there, not what i thought. i go to see a really close friend of mine, who has in her possesion more drugs than the nearest pharmacy.
my friends are all leaving and moving on. everyone is going about their business which doesnt include me. the only people who are excluded in this statement are my parents which i dont even want to go in to detail about now. im fine with most of this, i can handle being a loner and fighting my parents. theres just one thing i wish could happen right about now
for some reason, and no im not thinking from my penis, i have the utmost desire to find a girlfriend. not just any kind of girl, you see before i was looking for anyone that crossed my path and i really wasnt mature about it, i just wanted to fuck and move on. now i want someone who i can share my experiences with and really get close to. i want someone consistent, someone who will be there for a while. im not in too much of a hurry but i really need some special attention right now
again this is a bitchy depressing entry but fuck you i havent put anytime into one of these for a while. with that said i hope everyone enjoys because if not then i will come to your house and murder you
April 1: last time i see one of only two girls thats ever meant anything to me, also the night my pnemonia gets really bad (still isnt gone all the way either)
April 17: one of the worst days of my life, after waiting a year and a half to find out, i get a response (two weeks late by the way) from the german exchange program telling me that im just not good enough for them
April 29: about the day that my econ teacher tells me she wont let me graduate, as well as my english and german teachers
May 20: after getting turned down 5 times in a row i go to prom lonely and pissed of at my friends, i did enjoy getting really drunk though
May 24: last day of school, also the first date that would be used against me in court if the subject of statitory rape was ever involved
May 26: graduation
July 5-7: days i should be leaving for germany
July 22-25: last time i see the second of only two girls that ever meant anything to me. this is the time that completely crushed all my future goals that i made in april after realizing i need to do something different with my future
sorry i dont mean to bitch, but im fucking tired of things working against me. i got this awesome job that would pay $500 a night, and i find out that im making about $2-8 an hour there, not what i thought. i go to see a really close friend of mine, who has in her possesion more drugs than the nearest pharmacy.
my friends are all leaving and moving on. everyone is going about their business which doesnt include me. the only people who are excluded in this statement are my parents which i dont even want to go in to detail about now. im fine with most of this, i can handle being a loner and fighting my parents. theres just one thing i wish could happen right about now
for some reason, and no im not thinking from my penis, i have the utmost desire to find a girlfriend. not just any kind of girl, you see before i was looking for anyone that crossed my path and i really wasnt mature about it, i just wanted to fuck and move on. now i want someone who i can share my experiences with and really get close to. i want someone consistent, someone who will be there for a while. im not in too much of a hurry but i really need some special attention right now
again this is a bitchy depressing entry but fuck you i havent put anytime into one of these for a while. with that said i hope everyone enjoys because if not then i will come to your house and murder you