so an update worth bitching about:
i went to my grandpas funeral this week. it wasnt fun at all really- its a funeral what do you expect. i was crying when we got to grandma and grandpas house and im hoping knowone noticed my ducking into the bathroom every 5 minutes to keep everyone else from having to bear with it. it was enough for them. sigh~s it was really sad though... i almost cried again when i was given a hug aobut it at school from a teacher- awkward... but i was ok luckily cuz i hate the attention when im crying usually cuz it only makes it worse... it didnt help my mom any im sure to get a call from jaimees mom saying i just was in a car accident at jiamees house! god i cant believe i fucking hit that car!! im so pissed off at my self even though i had no penalties against my licence or insurance cuz we are paying for it w/ out the insurance- its too hard to explain what happend on this its just retarded cuz i didnt even see him there! sigh~ rrrrr... at least it was only his dented door... god i was soo worried and i just am glad it was rite there with jaimee and brad and jaimees mom and stuff cuz i dont know what i would have done if i was by myself! i was crying enough as it was... i have decided i cant cry for anohter lonnnnnnng period of time cuz there has been too much in the last 5 days...