People-watching
Sometimes I sit on a bench with my chin on my hands doing something that I don't usually do. What that is? People-watching. Watching people.
Why do I say that I don't often do that? The reason is simple. We are always caught up in our own lives, that sometimes we forget that there are other people to consider. Sometimes, we get so happy, so elated, and yet we never notice that our happiness was in other people's expense.
Now, I was in a situation..hours ago.. I had no one to talk to, and quite frankly... I didn't want to talk. I sat on the bench that were placed in the corners of the gym I was in, and started looking around. Most of the boys are playing basketball. The boys that I am talking about is divided into a lot of groups. There are the noisy-but-fun-to-be-with guys, there are the athletic-and-fun-to-be-with guys, and lastly, the please-don't-talk-to-me guys.
Since they are divided, they played in different courts too. My eyes drifted to the court where the quiet type of guys were playing. I don't know if my eyes widened in surprise or not, but I was at the least bit not expecting for the guys that I saw to be able to play. At all.
With this, I had my eyes glued to them.
I think that one of the things I love about sitting and just watching people... is the fact that I can judge them without having to voice it out. And not voicing my critiques out would mean that I am not hurting them... I think.
After that thought crossed my mind, I immediately felt guilty. I felt guilty because I know it's wrong to judge people when I don't know the first thing about them. I mean, what would you feel like if I was thinking of "Yeah that guy's blowing up my gaydar." You wouldn't want me to think that, right? You wouldn't want me to care. You would have been so offended and self-conscious!
But I still can't help myself.
I stood by and judged.
But despite all that, I got to know them a little more than I used to do. I got to know that they don't seem to play basketball because it's supposed to be a man's game. They seem to be playing it because they're playing it with their friends. And some part of me wished that I could simply be like them.