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i want to just let it be.. but how can i do that? every picture i look at reminds me that things might never be the same, and there is absolutely nothing i can do about it. i'm so scared and i am so broken. why did this even happen? why did things have to change? everything was perfect, i felt so content and secure.. now i feel like i'm back to square one. i feel like i've almost lost him completely. why? everything spiraled so out of control. everything happens for a reason, well what the fuck is the reason.. we were happy, we were in love, we had plans. everything is so fucked now. it seems like my heart is never going to beat the same again. it always hurts and i always have that roller coaster feeling in my stomach, always. i want all of this to go away so bad.