Black Day: Like The Falling Leaves

[91daesmods]

Author: tixing
Title: Like The Falling Leaves (AO3 mirror)
Base fic: One Day Diary by northofthehouse
Rating: NC-17
Focus: OT3
Length: 2.8k
Summary: New chapters, new beginnings.
Tags: Blowjob references, dirty talk(-ish), phone sex 
Notes: [self-deprecating talk]This really fucking sucked to write, and it was really hard, and I know it doesn’t make any sense, but I was trying something new

Comments

WHY

[northofthehouse]

Okay so if I had known you wrote this based on my fic I would have read it so much earlier! (As it is I try to avoid reading angsty fics, especially ot3 because I always want them to work out, and I wouldn't have ever read anything from this round regardless.)

Still I read it and it was wonderful. You took the feelings and kept them throughout like no change over of authorship happened at all. And then there were times when I was like..."did I write this and not realize?!" Because you held so true to my fic (which was a sad and pathetic attempt to hold true to the original) and I felt proud, as a writer, to be part of this fic in some way.

Thank you for being inspired by my work. Thank you for inspiring me by your work. Thank you for making this so heart wrenching and relatable and awful and probing and for making me want so much more.

Why did Yixing and Jongdae break up? Did yixing and Yifan ever get it on? Did Jongdae ever have a "study break" with someone else on the side? Why is Junma so loving? Why can't they just all be happy? (Why can I never listen to the "One Day Diary" song by Yiruma again without feeling a little sadder than I used to?) why isn't there more of this to read?

WHY?!

<3 Yours truly, northofthehouse

RE: WHY

[tixing]

okay first of all HI WHAT'S UP and second of all THIS IS REALLY LATE I'M SORRY I DIDN'T REPLY EARLIER but I was trawling through 91daes again because I JUST DISCOVERED that there is this nifty little feature where you can like posts now YES! and I may or may not have been critically assessing my work but now I've seen your comment oh my god I am so late to reply to it, Jesus help me

Also I feel the same, I almost didn't read anything in Rd3 because angst is a big no for me (I'm delicate, don't look at me), and ahh~ Your comment is so nice and lovely and makes me feel all warm inside like a freshly baked pudding~ or something along the lines of that at least

And oh god, you're more than welcome, I'm so happy you read into Trading Light and Fury so much and just carried it on so smoothly in One Day Diary, man, I am sending you virtual hugs of appreciation and love right now! As soon as the Rd3 claiming was open, I was adamant that I wanted to remix your fic - the idea for Like the Falling Leaves manifested in my mind during Rd2, and even though I hated writing it, in hindsight (lol, like 6 months down the track wow), I'm glad I did. And I'm glad I had the foundation of One Day Diary to build the story upon and bridge the gap between Rd1 and Rd3 *sighs*

BUT I should answer your questions:

Yixing and Jongdae broke up because Jongdae started feeling left out when Yixing and Junmyeon graduated (he's still in his final year, meanwhile they're moving on into their graduate lives), and I guess the two of them just kept getting jealous over the other one spending time with Junmyeon without them (something present in poly relationships, and a good reason why the foundation of communication and trust has to be super strong). It came to a head when they just broke up, and then both of them were too egotistical to just bow down and apologise to each other, so yeah, the threesome tried to become two twosomes and became three onesomes instead.

RE: WHY

[tixing]

"Did Yixing and Yifan ever get it on" DID THEY GET IT ON THAT IS AN EXCELLENT QUESTION (my inner fanxing shipper is showing here) gOD I really love to bits, really that you even asked this god I'm always about mutlishipping, let's be real, like fuck, let's have all the ships and see how many we can cram into the subtext in one fic did I mention how happy I am that you asked this question???? You know what, I imagine, over time, given Yixing would be in the same lab for at least another 3 or 4 years after this fic, and Yifan would be there for another few years, then yeah, they'd probably get together in the end, or at least get it on. An emotinoal bond between the two would form anyway, and maybe, the whole separation thing with the LDR just falling apart, maybe one day Yixing turns around and goes, 'oh my god, I've been single for the past year', you know? But imagine it, Yifan and Yixing being in the lab for hours, late into the night, when no one else is around, and growing close, and stressing together over experiments and papers and studying together, like, shit. Maybe they do get it on eventually. Maybe they don't. I hope they do. It's something I'm quite keen to scream about with you on another platform if you're interested o(≧▽≦)o

Did Jongdae ever have a "study break" with someone else on the side? mAYBE HE DID, again, it's the same thing with Yixing, but like, Obviously Jongdae has Junmyeon all to himself, but wouldn't you resent JM for still trying to keep up with Yixing? The possessiveness would come into play, I feel - idk, I know I left so many questions and open ends when I finished this, and that's something, I think, that made it sadder than it would have been at first. The fact that there's no definite closure is the part that sucks, and it sucked for me as I wrote it, because it just highlighted all the wasted opportunities that the three could have had, the futures, the possibilities, and the could-have-beens. The breaking up part was actually okay, it was just the fact that they all kind of grew out of each other and drifted apart, and only one of them was trying to keep it all together, instead of them being a team.

Why is Junma so loving? I ask this myself as well, all the time jfc. Why can't they just all be happy? yOU KNOW ME TOO, GIRL, ME TOO, but then again, would they really have stayed together? I'm not sure. If Yixing hadn't had moved overseas to do Honours, maybe there would have been a chance. Jealousy is a little shit can be a big factor in all relationships, and unfortunately, suchenlay couldn't deal with it to save themselves, which led to their downfall.

WHY INDEED

We can scream into the ether and write more of this together if you really want tbh bc I just realised I'm still not over this gdi

tixing ♡