Tiger, sometimes your brutal honesty is the most painful thing in the world. I'll tell you honestly, alcoholism is in me. My mom is some 18 years sober, my father died an alcoholic... it's there. But I tell you I know the difference between needing a drink to drown my sorrows or needing a drink just because I can't handle not having one.
Drinking as much as I did, rather drinking at all, the other night was probably the worst thing I could've done for myself, and I knew it. Considering the mood I was in, and condering how shitty I was feeling, it was just a recipe for disaster. But I wanted to because I could, and because I knew I was doing it at home alone and because I knew I could hand my mom my keys and say, "I'm drinking. Hold onto these. I'll be in my room."
So the answer to your question is no. I'm not drinking like that again, because waking up in the morning STILL drunk is possibly one of the worst feelings I've had in my life. And because I scared myself, made a fool of myself to all my friends, and turned into a blithering, sobbing, pathetic shadow of the greatness which is the real me.
Drinking as much as I did, rather drinking at all, the other night was probably the worst thing I could've done for myself, and I knew it. Considering the mood I was in, and condering how shitty I was feeling, it was just a recipe for disaster. But I wanted to because I could, and because I knew I was doing it at home alone and because I knew I could hand my mom my keys and say, "I'm drinking. Hold onto these. I'll be in my room."
So the answer to your question is no. I'm not drinking like that again, because waking up in the morning STILL drunk is possibly one of the worst feelings I've had in my life. And because I scared myself, made a fool of myself to all my friends, and turned into a blithering, sobbing, pathetic shadow of the greatness which is the real me.
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