I Need a Place to Hide Away
I am exhausted. I'm not sure of how to delicately go about handling my relationship with Kyle. I know the outcome, but getting there will be the hard part. I have distanced myself from him to enable my survival but it is hard to keep up this psuedo-relationship just to get me by for now when I know the end is coming. It is also hard to keep my emotions and my thoughts straight. I know my priorities and right now he's just not fitting into the empty spaces in the puzzle. I so desperately need to be whole; he isn't the answer.
Why can't this just be easy? I cry about the stupidest things when it comes to him, but if I know that this isn't going to last, why do I let it get to me? Probably because I'm not heartless...And probably because part of me still wants to believe him and be with him. But I am exhausted, I am thoroughly beaten down, and it's pathetic to let this rub off and affect my life when this burden is not my to own.
Yesterday.
Why can't this just be easy? I cry about the stupidest things when it comes to him, but if I know that this isn't going to last, why do I let it get to me? Probably because I'm not heartless...And probably because part of me still wants to believe him and be with him. But I am exhausted, I am thoroughly beaten down, and it's pathetic to let this rub off and affect my life when this burden is not my to own.
Yesterday.