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Earlier today I was so close to going for my razor. But instead I turned on some Paramore. I mean it really does help. God I hate another post about my cutting, i dont want you guys to think bad of me. I have discussed this more with you all then any of my friends. Everytime I tell a friend they try to help me but then just give up on me. I feel like I have this huge wall built up to keep people away. Right now I am soooooooooooooooooo mad. I have soooooo many scars on my arms and its getting warmer and just like last summer I cant wear sleeves above my elbow. I am getting surgery to get the "hypertrophic scars" removed or at least so they arent so bumpy and red. A hypertrophic scar looks like a keloid, really red and it didnt heal properly, !
Sometimes I just feel like giving up. ='( I dont know, I just know Paramore can pull me through this, I just am starting to lost faith. Im trying so hard not to but lately I have been missing everyone who had died and I cant seem to let go of that. I still cry all the time because of my best friends suicide. Its so hard. Everyone tells me to be strong. I guess I just need some support.
Sometimes I just feel like giving up. ='( I dont know, I just know Paramore can pull me through this, I just am starting to lost faith. Im trying so hard not to but lately I have been missing everyone who had died and I cant seem to let go of that. I still cry all the time because of my best friends suicide. Its so hard. Everyone tells me to be strong. I guess I just need some support.