So tired

[8weeksnotme]

I am so tired. I am tired of the ups and downs. I am tired of sleeping. I am tired of being awake. I am tired of never knowing who I will be from day to day. I am tired of the pills. I am tired of being dependent on the pills. I am tired of the pills not working. I am tired of being so anxious that I am quivering. I am tired of knowing what I should do and what I want to do and doing neither. I am tired of always waiting for the other shoe to drop. I am tired of not being happy. I am tired of not being who I used to be.

I am tired of all of this. I am just so damned tired.