Highschool drama will never go away......
I have never done anything but try to be the best friend that i can, i have never lied to any of my friends and i have done my best to not be shady, but i guess that it was a ll just a waste of my fucking time because you found something that you say i have been shady about. This post does not apply to all of my friends by any stretch of the imagination and i know that the few i am talking about know who they are. In all of the time at the condo i sat through countless talks about how well bands were doing which band was doing more, and a whole lot of other bullshit. All the whil i just sat back and listened never once interjecting what significant events where transpiring in my life never "bragging" about a big opportunity presented to me. But, i put up with it all of the fucking time. Now i find out that people have been talking about me behind my back and, so i have heard through the grapevine, talking about all of the "lies that i have told". i want to get all of this cleared up because if those of you to whom this pertains to, we have been out of highschool for 2 years now and this is freshman level drama. First off, the first thing i can think of is my recording stuff, any of you reading this that don't know a few months ago i was beginning to set up a recording studio in the shed behind my moms house, now this soon turned into me wanting to start a record label. Though this did not fall through (appearantly that happens a lot with me, i get excited about something big and then it falls through) it was put on hold, for a few reasons. One: i lost the condo and don't have the money to throw down right now, Two: because the person who was going to be my partner ended up not being partner material for a record label. Three: my dad has still not taken all of his shit out of the shed here i will be making the studio. Another major thing that has fallen through was my internship in NY. and that i think stings the most, and here is why. I have never once been asked to be in a band, countless music evdeavors by countless friends and i have never been asked to play. i sit and listen to friends whine baout how they don't have another guitarist and shit yet they don't ask me. Fuck that and fuck them. So coming to grips with the fact that no one really wants to be in a band with me i decide that i belong behind the pictures, an engineer or something. so i start canvassing record labels with e-mails asking for internships, i'm doing this for months and finally i get a response. and when i don't get it, it is supposed to be a suprise. wl what just because i'm not so self involved i have to talk about my band all of the fucking time, i'm lying because it fell through? sounds pretty fucked up to me. And i don't know why i think that this will help, because it's in an Lj and we know how many problems Lj's have solved... so in closing to those hearing this in direct regards, you have burned this bridge, so YOU have to re-build what you have destroyed, and if you don't value my friendship enough to do so, it is on your concience not mine.... so there you have it... Highschool drama