....
it's just so fucking sad
that someone who did that to me
can occupy my thoughts all day long
its all i think about
and everywhere i turn i see his face
i swear i thought i saw him 3 times today
and on the internet all over my facebook
and myspace
all i think about is him
even wen im supposed to be enjoying myself
and it doesnt help that i got my period again
for the second time in the last 2 weeks
it just reminds me of wat happened
wen i think about wat he did i want to kill him
literally
i want to throw a heavy object at his face
bc wen i picture it again
wen i imagine his body pressed against mine
and my arms pressing his body away from me
his im so sorries and omg this has never happened b4 or itll never happen again's
just dont mean a bloody thing
but then i think about his smile
i think about the way he looked at me
and how he would tell me im beautiful
how he accepted my dorkiness and how i loved his nerdiness
how he cared enuff to tell me his vices and complicated past
and how he listened to mine and never judged me
but all that really doesnt matter does it?
bc in the end he knows wat he did
and tho he might say hes sorry
his actions tell a different story
he never fought for me like i was willing to fight for him
and a text of "hope everything is well"
after 2 days of no word
doesnt mean a fucking thing
o and hes already got another girl
yup
a week later
im still cooing over him
and hes completely forgotten about me
im so sick of this shit
im always letting guys get to me
and here it is all over again
i really don't know wat to do
i just want to cry myself to sleep
yeah
i really need a good cry.
nite xo
that someone who did that to me
can occupy my thoughts all day long
its all i think about
and everywhere i turn i see his face
i swear i thought i saw him 3 times today
and on the internet all over my facebook
and myspace
all i think about is him
even wen im supposed to be enjoying myself
and it doesnt help that i got my period again
for the second time in the last 2 weeks
it just reminds me of wat happened
wen i think about wat he did i want to kill him
literally
i want to throw a heavy object at his face
bc wen i picture it again
wen i imagine his body pressed against mine
and my arms pressing his body away from me
his im so sorries and omg this has never happened b4 or itll never happen again's
just dont mean a bloody thing
but then i think about his smile
i think about the way he looked at me
and how he would tell me im beautiful
how he accepted my dorkiness and how i loved his nerdiness
how he cared enuff to tell me his vices and complicated past
and how he listened to mine and never judged me
but all that really doesnt matter does it?
bc in the end he knows wat he did
and tho he might say hes sorry
his actions tell a different story
he never fought for me like i was willing to fight for him
and a text of "hope everything is well"
after 2 days of no word
doesnt mean a fucking thing
o and hes already got another girl
yup
a week later
im still cooing over him
and hes completely forgotten about me
im so sick of this shit
im always letting guys get to me
and here it is all over again
i really don't know wat to do
i just want to cry myself to sleep
yeah
i really need a good cry.
nite xo