hmmmm......

[8oschick]

the last couple of days have been interesting
i've realized a lot about myself
but most of all
i realized how much i've missed
wen you think about it
one year of your life isn't a lot
it's like a millisecond of the bigger picture
but in that one year
i missed sooooo much
inside jokes
good times
smiles
laughter
tears
stories
adventures
music
everything
at the time i thought my life was good
i thought i was happy
it was just a fa sad
i wasn't enjoying a friendship
i was tolerating it
and i didn't even realize it!
in that year i lost so much
and not even for a good reason
i wish i could have been there
i wish i could have experienced it
so wen someone says
"do u remember that time wen..."
i could remember that time wen
but i cant
u cant change the past
and i hate regret but...i regret it
i regret every moment of it
because i haven't grown or learned anything
at least wen u have a mishap in life u can grow from it
but this one had absolutely no good outcome what so ever
just bad memories and even worse bad habits
it really upsets me
and i wish i could take it all back
i wish i could relive
i know its not healthy to think that way
because there is absolutely nothing i can do about it
but that's the way i feel...

o well
end of rant lol