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him: "how would you feel about paying rent together?"
me: "like. living together?"
him: "yeah."
...
i'm so terrified. i'm terrified we will crumble if we lived together.
like my last relationship did.
and that ripped me apart when we mutually ended it the first time.
i drank for nine months straight.
gained 30 pounds.
laid in bed on weekends.
and had complete meaningless, drunk sex.
i'm so afraid to live with him. even though i did it for two years on a friend basis.
this is different now. we are together.