look, i'm well enough to ramble
hi lj,
thanks for caring, it was good to read your comments, especially from people who I had no idea read this lj *hug*
I'm feeling a bit better now. I listened to Kisschasy's Too B Or Not Too B album, full of angry little Kisschasies on repeat about three times whilst xmas shopping yesterday... We'll see where I take things, but for now I need to summon up the courage to see a psych, which will take a while. The very idea is like fingernails dragging across a blackboard to me. I hate having to tell people what's on my mind. (and yet I have a big rambly blog. go figure). And what can they do if I'm starting a new course and have no idea if that will really help fix things or not? I think waiting is good...
Ha ha, I had the best dream last night. Well, okay, it turned into a nightmare, but still.
I think watching the Panic☆ch dvd that comes with Ray, which I bought in Japan, took over my brain.
A bit weak, only two PVs and a home-vid that one of the members took while shooting the PVs, but then again, the whole album only has seven tracks. Panic, Panic, Panic, what are you doing, you lazy bunnies?
Then again, I am so lazy I'm not learning the 'new' (joined way back in 2005) members' names.
The PVs are so lol, though, they look so home-movie-ish. And everyone's hair was so tame this time round. The songs are pretty good, though.
Oh, right, the point is, I totally had a dream that I was friends with a (non-existent but Panic influenced) VK band ^___^ We were all mucking around while they were filming a PV... then there's a blank... then there were all these people around under marquees and I was wearing some random green maid outfit thing and talking to a little girl and the two members I got on best with (may or may not have been the guitarist and vocalist) caught sight of me and were like "zomgz SO CUTE!!" XD lol. And then I sat down to watch them perform and this guy sitting behind me creeped me out - he was touching my shoulders, which is creepy when it's a stranger and you're dressed up in cute cosplay. I ended up moving to sit near the little girl I'd been talking to, but the guy got offended and grabbed this staple gun out of nowhere and shot me in the knee. Lame. Darn good thing I can't feel pain in dreams, although I did cry out all the same. He totally went to town on my leg and the crowd in general and the band were like "zomgz crazy guy trying to kill our fans/friends/family/PVextras (i have no idea who all those people actually were) with a staple gun!! must save the day!"
And just before the vocalist was about to whisk me away to safety (such a girlie moment, lol) and the guitarist and bassist were about to clock the guy on the head with their instruments... I WOKE UP!! Damn! It was fricking four AM, too.
Anyway, last night we died dyed goldfoil, kai_drum, rogue2387 and Blair's hair blue. twas fun. Painting dreadlocks is an interesting experience.
And today my sister and I made our annual gingerbread men:
with creamy butter icing, because I got the recipe wrong...
AND HAPPY EGGS WTF???
thanks for caring, it was good to read your comments, especially from people who I had no idea read this lj *hug*
I'm feeling a bit better now. I listened to Kisschasy's Too B Or Not Too B album, full of angry little Kisschasies on repeat about three times whilst xmas shopping yesterday... We'll see where I take things, but for now I need to summon up the courage to see a psych, which will take a while. The very idea is like fingernails dragging across a blackboard to me. I hate having to tell people what's on my mind. (and yet I have a big rambly blog. go figure). And what can they do if I'm starting a new course and have no idea if that will really help fix things or not? I think waiting is good...
Ha ha, I had the best dream last night. Well, okay, it turned into a nightmare, but still.
I think watching the Panic☆ch dvd that comes with Ray, which I bought in Japan, took over my brain.
A bit weak, only two PVs and a home-vid that one of the members took while shooting the PVs, but then again, the whole album only has seven tracks. Panic, Panic, Panic, what are you doing, you lazy bunnies?
Then again, I am so lazy I'm not learning the 'new' (joined way back in 2005) members' names.
The PVs are so lol, though, they look so home-movie-ish. And everyone's hair was so tame this time round. The songs are pretty good, though.
Oh, right, the point is, I totally had a dream that I was friends with a (non-existent but Panic influenced) VK band ^___^ We were all mucking around while they were filming a PV... then there's a blank... then there were all these people around under marquees and I was wearing some random green maid outfit thing and talking to a little girl and the two members I got on best with (may or may not have been the guitarist and vocalist) caught sight of me and were like "zomgz SO CUTE!!" XD lol. And then I sat down to watch them perform and this guy sitting behind me creeped me out - he was touching my shoulders, which is creepy when it's a stranger and you're dressed up in cute cosplay. I ended up moving to sit near the little girl I'd been talking to, but the guy got offended and grabbed this staple gun out of nowhere and shot me in the knee. Lame. Darn good thing I can't feel pain in dreams, although I did cry out all the same. He totally went to town on my leg and the crowd in general and the band were like "zomgz crazy guy trying to kill our fans/friends/family/PVextras (i have no idea who all those people actually were) with a staple gun!! must save the day!"
And just before the vocalist was about to whisk me away to safety (such a girlie moment, lol) and the guitarist and bassist were about to clock the guy on the head with their instruments... I WOKE UP!! Damn! It was fricking four AM, too.
Anyway, last night we died dyed goldfoil, kai_drum, rogue2387 and Blair's hair blue. twas fun. Painting dreadlocks is an interesting experience.
And today my sister and I made our annual gingerbread men:
with creamy butter icing, because I got the recipe wrong...
AND HAPPY EGGS WTF???
