#Fic# Unable to respond //Chapter 23//
Title: Unable to respond /chapter 23/
Author: tanakakoki_fan
Pairing: Akame
Rating: PG
Genre: Angst, romance
Disclaimer: I don’t own them!
Warning: still unbetaed!
Summary: Kame is closed in his own world… he can feel he can hear, but can’t respond. Will Jin’s love give him the light to live on?
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Jin didn't know why he felt so hopeful, he was angry at himself. In the break he was rushing to the dressing room but nothing. Of course no Kazuya, learn finally. LIFE IS NOT A FAIRYTALE. He felt desperate, he didn't know how longer he could take it. He felt Kazuya so strongly, he imagined he woke up. Now nothing. He can't feel him like he did, as if the spirit of the young man was no longer present as it was before. He tried to call Yamapi if something had happened but the other didn't pick the phone up. It was hell to Jin. The worry was eating him up and made his inside shiver. Why is this feeling? Kazuya didn't...die right?
[The spring flower which bloomed beautifully
For my eyes it doesn't reflect like that
If you are not here
There is nothing in this world I see
nothing matters]
Jin couldn't suppress a sigh.
Already more than a year had passed without Kame by his side, without him in the band. The everyday life was frozen, for Jin time slowed down in a negative meaning, so for him, it was more than the actual time. It felt more passed.
[So now I'm sitting in the dark
Missing the light that you brought to my life
and it just ain't fair
To reach you I swear]
He was sitting in the dressingroom still, the lights were off as no one else was there. The break was soon over, he knew it but he couldn't care less. He heard the raindrops tap the window lightly and imagined how good it would be if he could cuddle Kame up to him, watching it together. Damn he was so tired. Really tired. How much longer did he have to endure this?
[I’ rather have a rainy day with you
than see the sunshine alone
Or have a hundred days of winter with you here in my arms
I'll be your shelter from the storm
just to have you by my side
If we could meet now
if we could meet now]
"What are you doing here in the dark?" It was Ueda's soft voice but worried voice. He could totally understand the other man. Everyday the situation got even worse. First Kame's accident, then the nurses, then the media and now even the fans...He rested his hand on the shoulder of his friend, conveying him without words yet again how he was not alone.
"Your fight is our fight Jin."
Akanishi looked up and his eyes already adjusted enough to the dark to see Ueda's expression. It again clenched his heart how selfish he behaves all the time. Making others worry, making others feel sorry for him. It was so phatethic. He had to show strongness, he couldn't allow himself to bring even his precious friend's mood down, so he just smiled pulling Ueda into a brief hug.
"Thank you Tacchan."
When he leant away he grabbed the arm of his bandmate, pulling him towards the door, pretending he was cheerful again, though he couldn't mislead Ueda he knew very well.
"the stage is waiting for us~!"
**
"Kame-chan..." Yamapi whispered softly, his voice was wavering a little. They were waiting for Kame to wake up so much, but he had never thought it will happen when he is there alone. How glad Jin would be if he was here now!
The room was silent for a while as both were fighting down their emotions. Kazuya was still acknowledging he was not unable to respond anymore and Pi was trying to recover from the shock fully. If he listened to his heart he would hug his friend so tightly that maybe it would hurt. But he was just so damn happy that the miracle really happened. Just, one thing made him wonder. Was the guy okay? He surely can't go out of the hospital yet, he just woke up. He must be weak still, maybe he couldn't even walk properly but he was dying to grant the boy's wish.
Kazuya looked around, his smile was beautiful, his eyes were shining. He couldn't believe it, he was alive again. Fully. He broke free from the narrow box, from his prison and was able to communicate with the world again. He looked at his hands and started to move his fingers. It's not a dream! The shocked expression on Yamapi's face told it too: he was really back. There were so many things he wanted to tell, how grateful he was, how thankful and happy he was because he and Jin had such true friends. The support they got was incredible and each were a step for him to open his eyes to the world. As if he was climbing a stair, every happening meant a step and now he was on the top of it, waiting for another stair to begin.
Words could have flood out of him, like unstoppable water, but he just repeated one thing. "Please...let's go. I want to see him." The anticipation of soon meeting Jin, it was as if he was meeting someone he was adoring for the first time. He felt like an enthusiastic child. Excited, full of life. How true the saying was. If your mind is healthy and mood is happy, you can face the obstacles of body much more. You don't even notice if something is not totally right. Because his body still remembered the long time he spent in bed motionless and was not in its top form.
It was still a little shock to Yamapi how Kame raised to his feet as if he was just waking up from a night sleep in the morning. However this was not the case and the man was sure the doctors won't just smile and say Kame "Okay you can go right away" so Yamapi knew he has a task to fulfill. A quite hard one. How can he steal out one of the most famous singer in Japan from the hospital unnoticed, this he had to think out in a minute. And even if he managed to do it, if Kame's absence will be noticed the hospital might even call the police. He was torn apart on what to do, but his mind was still numb from the sudden happenings around him.
"What about the doctors...?" He asked as he saw the determination in Kazuya's eyes which were searching for something in the room, his steps unsteady and sometimes he had to catch something to grab a hold on, but he straightened himself quickly. This was Kamenashi Kazuya, never wanted to be seen weak.
"I will take care of it if I can use your phone." The younger smiled and his eyes landed on Pi with a nod, making his decision. "Pi... I would like to... wear your hoodie and cap to cover me a little while going out. I don't want anyone to recognize me." His heart was pounding in his chest and looked at the other man with pleading eyes. He loved it. The fact he can express himself, can make gestures and faces as he likes. He will treasure this ability which every healthy person takes for granted. Now he is richer with the experience how it is when the thing you take for granted disappears in one second. It taught him a lesson. Treasure everything, even little ones, don't take anything for granted because you don't know how fragile world can be.
Pi looked at Kame and the stumbling of the young boy was the only sign of the weakness. He saw how Kazuya was pretending that he is not aware of it. The scene was cute, the cinderella boy preparing like a little child which is waiting for the best happening in his life. The NewS member just smiled and didn't say a word about it either just offered his arm.
"I can walk alone." Kazuya pouted, but when he took another unsure step he peeked at Pi and cleared his throath a little blushed.
"Ehmm... I mean... thank you." He took the offered arm, now dressed in hoodie which was at least one size bigger than the thin singer.
"We have to be careful Kame-chan. I am sure you know if doctors notice you we can't go out." The older noted it and Kazuya just nodded, pulling the hoodie even more into his face. He was aware at the same time that he can't hide that much either because it would be suspicious too. He let his hair which grew past his shoulder already be seen from below the hoodie to pretend he was just some random girl and snuggled to Pi to create the fiasco more.
Pi stiffened a little and was thinking if Jin was here he would win himself a long holiday and occupy Kame's hospital room, but then just smiled. It was part of the play and he knew pretty well what Kame was up to. Not that it wasn't attention drawing, but he hoped everything will be alright.
Yamapi tried to behave natural, even saying hi to some nurses on the way who didn't even suspect "his girlfriend" so clinging on him was Kamenashi Kazuya in reality. As he looked down at the young man he noted himself, Kame really could look like a girl if he wanted to.
They reached the exit and were on the fresh air which made Kame's mood bloom even more. He took a deep breath and looked around, hoodie still protecting him, letting him hide his face. His eyes were shining. The weather was good, though the sun was not shining shining and the wind was somewhat chilly. The young man was thankful to it, the sunshine would surely hurt his eyes still. Otherwise he felt alive again, and as if he was walking out of a prison. How could he endure it? He was surprised at himself. But well, people always endure much more than they can imagine. If they are in the situation what they thought they wouldn't endure, because of some miracle they always stand their grounds. And only in difficulties can they see who the true friend is by their side.
Pi was glad they made it this far, but he slapped himself mentally. Now what? If they catch a taxi he was sure they can't keep Kame's identity in secret. He should have just called Takahashi and as he took a hold on his phone, a car nearby them honked. For a fleeting second the singer thought they are caught, but as he looked into the direction of the sound he saw the kind old man Takahashi smiling at them from the window of his yellow taxi, waving. A stone fell from Pi's heart and urged Kame to get into the car as soon as he could.
As they got in, Pi took a deep breath. "Huh, it is a good coincidence thank you Takahashi-san, you again saved me." How could the old man be always on the right time on the right place? If it wasn't happening with him maybe Yamapi wouldn't even believe this can be possible.
"You know, angels are always on the side of good people. Ever thought about you might be guarded from above?" The soft smile of the wrinkled face made Pi's eyes widen a little, but as he felt Kame fidgeting in his seat excitedly the thread of thoughts got lost and his attention was fully on the younger again. It was a little awkward for Pi. He was actually sitting next to Kame who was lively and fresh again.
"You look at me as if you are seeing a ghost." The younger looked at Pi and chuckled, his eyes still shining. It really was such a good thing he was able to communicate with the world. Takahashi looked into the mirror at the young man and smiled.
"I am glad you are alright Kamenashi-san. I always knew you will be back, you are strong enough."
The K of KAT-TUN smiled back onto the man and looked into the mirror to catch his eyes.
"Thank you very much." He said politely and he was so glad he can talk freely he started to have a little conversation with the man.
"You know, I was hearing everything people saying, feeling everything they were doing, it was as if I was just paralyzed. It really was awful, but at the same time taught me a lot of things too." He sighed, thinking back on the events and it made him want to meet Jin even more.
Words got stuck in Pi as he was listening to the young man. He was always wondering if Kazuya was able to hear them or knew about his surroundings while being in coma. And even when he was playing with the thoughts maybe that was the case, he wouldn't have thought that the younger really heard everything and lived through the happenings as if he was with them. It must have been pretty hard and sometimes maybe scary as well. He got lost in his thoughts and ended up looking at the driver. It didn't even once accrued to him he should warn the old man not to tell Kame was awake or not to run to the media telling everything the idol told him. The man proved himself to be reliable a lot of times already and Pi started to think of a present he will give. Coincidence or not, if he didn't meet the driver the happenings would have taken a dramatic turn and wouldn't end up in a good way.
"Oh!" Kame turned to the NewS leader which got the man out of his thoughts, blinking at Kazuya questioningly.
"Can you give me your phone and tell me the number of the hospital?" The pleading look again made Pi to smile and oblige to the request.
After Kame apologized hundred times in the phone to his doctor and promised he will go back as soon as he settled things he wanted to, the young man handed the phone back to Pi. Of course he was scolded, but his doctor was an understanding person. Kazuya convinced him that if he still felt very bad he wouldn't have been able to get out of the bed. Maybe the shock that the young singer was actually able to accomplish this task made the doctor allow him to go where he wanted. But he made the idol promise he takes special care and really comes back as soon as he could.
Kame's heart was beating in a hectic pace, increasing the pace with every step he was nearer the concert hall. He still was supported with Pi sometimes, but he was stubborn enough to try to walk alone for a while. His body was actually weak, he had to admit, but he didn't care for it even a little. Pi was slightly amused about how persisting Kazuya can be and he imagined how Jin will be totally tamed. This made him smile and he even had to suppress a chuckle. What a picture!
Kazuya was dying to see Jin sing, so he set a plan which made Pi's eyes almost flow out.
"You want what??"
"Please Pi, pretty please!" The pleading puppy eye tactic was on again and it was damn hard to resist. Pi understood Kazuya was energetic and happy, but he came up with plans the NewS leader couldn't really keep up. The reason he once again let out a sigh but nodded his head was because he understood the young man. After such a long time of longing for something it was natural that Kame was impatient. He was not annoying nor bitchy, still composed, but the passion towards what he wanted was flaming inside of him and it was obvious for his surrounding too.
"But please at least make it the way he won't notice you, he would go ballistic and no one can predict what could happen... or better to say... I can, so please..." Pi scratched the back of his head explaining and Kazuya just smiled. He couldn't help it, he wanted to see Jin sing.
The surrounding of the dome was quiet empty, the fans were all inside enjoying the concert which they could hear slightly form outside too. As they approached the gate, Kame still hidden, Yamapi once again questioned himself if it was a good idea or not. Allowing Kame into the audience alone to watch the concert, even just a little of it was so unlike what Kame would ask, but yet again... it was understandable under the circumstances.
"I am sorry but..." The staff at the door started, but her voice died away. There were times when some crazy fans who couldn't get ticket go and make a hysteria to get in during concert and for a fleeting second she didn't recognized the people in front of her. Yamapi she kind of did, though she thought it is just a good cosplay, but when Kame took his hoodie off, the girl gasped. They were real.
"We can enter, can't we?" Kazuya asked with a smile and the girl could just nod, still staring at him with wide eyes. She surely won't get scolded, since it was Kamenashi Kazuya she let enter. Without ticket, but well... he was part of the band and she was shocked so she stepped away from the door.
"Please don't post onto twitter or online this, okay?" Yamapi said warningly and the girl could again just nod. As they stepped in, the rest of the staff members who saw them had the same reaction and of course didn't try to stop them at all. When Kame stood next to the staff member of the arena near the edge of the stage, still covered in hoodie and already had Pi's long coat which looked like cape the boy almost got a heart attack. Kazuya showed him a "shhh" sign and the guy immediately looked away. Was he seeing a ghost or was the real Kamenashi Kazuya standing next to him?
It was the last song, it was obvious. Kazuya was lost in the sensation of warmness watching Jin and his band sing. For such a long time he was not able to see these faces, not able to talk to them, to hang out with them...Now he knew, he will appreciate every little talk with those guys who were so precious to him. His heart beat fast and his eyes watered a little from happiness while looking at Jin, he started to tremble a little from the emotions that was piled inside of him. As if he saw Jin sing the first time, as if he was watching his idol, as if his dream came true. He was here, and as soon as the song ended he can make his way backstage, he can get lost in those deep brown eyes and held by those strong arms he longed for an eternity. Jin looked so handsome, but so tired at the same time it hurt Kazuya's heart. The man was through so much and the young singer hoped he can heal that heart, he can give Jin his happiness back.
The song was about to end when Jin opened his eyes and looked directly at him. Their eyes met and Kame saw how Jin almost stopped singing. Uhh, this was what Yamapi asked him to be careful about. Not to be noticed. How come Jin knew exactly where to look? The bond between them, right? Kame turned away and as much as his unstable legs allowed he hurried back to the corridor where Pi was waiting for him, catching him, preventing him from tripping.
"Is everything alright Kame-chan?" The NewS leader asked worried and Kame just nodded.
"Yes. And now... really take me to him."
***
Jin couldn't take the image out of his head. He swore he saw Kazuya, but of course, coming back to the dressingroom, nothing. The second time that day and it started to irritate him madly. He really just went crazy right? Imagining Kame everywhere. He was grateful it was the last song because he was sure he wouldn't be able to perform more. He needed to get calm. Crazy life with crazy things,waiting for an uncertain thing, only just hoping everyday. Where will this lead? To the mental hospital? But everytime he said okay, nomore, he always could face the next obstacles and not break. He won't break now either. He won't stop and give up hope no matter how hard the road was. He.just.won't.
He was storming backstage and passed everyone by without a word. Not greeting, not nodding nor bowing, he was just going as if no one was there. With a little angry expression. Who was he angry with? Himself. When he walked past Koki the rapper wanted to stop him, but Ueda caught his arm, preventing him from doing so. As soon as their eyes met he shook his head and looked after Jin sadly who was disappearing into the dressingroom.
Soon Maru and Junno reached where they were standing and the oldest sighed. Everyone was more and more desperate day by day and no matter how they tried to deny it, they started to feel exhausted. They were worried for Jin so much, but also for Kazuya. Though they had the faith, they really wanted the day to be there as soon as possible for everyone's sake.
"Everything's gonna be alright." They heard a voice from behind them and Koki sighed. How many times he had heard that phase and he was sure the youngest member was thinking it...if he at least knew what was happening around him.
"Yes, this is what Kame-chan would say if he was here." The rapper said out loud and was looking at the direction of the dressingroom still, deep in thoughts, not realizing the others already turned back in shock. At the chuckle he heard next was his head shot into the direction too all of a sudden, not believing his ears and eyes. He got a little numb, his hand shaky. The others shared the same surprise and feelings as they could just stand there, staring with jaw slightly dropped. Was this reality?
The bandmate, friend they have missed so much, Kamenashi Kazuya was standing at the end of the corridor not so far from them, being as elegant and beautiful as always. His calming aura filled the hearts and the four guys fought with their tears. There was always an unexplainable feeling of care when Kame was around.
As their eyes met God knows how long time passed, memories flooded them, all the happenings what they had been through, all the times they could just see that young man sleeping, caged into his own dreams and mind. Kame's eyes shone happily, with a lot of grateful feelings. It was visible the man was shivering a little from the suppressed emotions. He wanted to burst out in tears of relivement. He can see them again. He will tell them everything, how he heard every little teasing, every word they told him, every encouragement.
"Hey, I brought you a present." Yamapi turned to the corridor too and winked, his heart filled with warmth as he saw the reunion. At last, KAT-TUN was complete again. He was sure this incident, no matter how terrible it was will have good affect to their songs as well. But if Akanishi started to produce one cheesy lovesong after the other he would beat him, he smiled in himself.
Taguchi was the first to recover from shock and he started to run towards Kame with wider smile than ever. "Kazuyaaa~~~!" But he was pulled back and kicked by Koki who smirked. At the same time his eyes were shining with unshed tears. "Me first."
Kame started to giggle. His band never changes. They were back to the teasers in good mood they had been before his accident. But in deep down he knew, this band was always something special with strong bonds towards the other and helping in need. You only know who your friends are in need. And these guys were people he could always count on.
Before anyone would reach him, Yamapi stood in front of him as a guard and smirked. "No, first Jin."
Koki smirked back and signaled the others to run and make Pi out of the way, but of course in a friendly way. "If we let him to Akanishi we won't have a chance ever again to hug him."
"That's true." Pi pretended to ponder on the fact, but then stepped away and let Kame jump into the awaiting arms of his bandmates. He was smiling and held everyone close, laughing when Yamapi stated: "group hug."
When they calmed down somewhat and were able to let go of each other, Kame's heart skipped a beat. The moment has come... he finally meets Jin. All of a sudden he started to be a little nervous and his heart was pounding so fast he thought it will jump out. How should he approach the dressing room? What should he say first?
Koki noticed it and patted his shoulder, smiling then winking. "Let me, I will take the MC part." He cleared his throat and opened the door a little without a knock, seeing the gloomy Akanishi just standing in front of the door.
"Akanishi, there is a fan who wants to see you." Jin heard from the door and it didn't help his mood to get better. He was kind of baffled how his bandmate could even say something like this. Was it a bad joke?
Seeing no reaction Koki opened the door a little wider, but still just peeking in, seeing Jin still staring out of the window, not in the best mood to say the least.
"Akanishi, but there really is a fan who wants to meet you." His voice was serious but pleading and a little hint of teasing. He felt himself evil, but well, he was sure Jin will forget everything else once he sees this "fan".
"Fuck off Koki." Jin pouted a little, sighing in annoyance. What happened with KAT-TUN? They were always respecting his mood lately. No lame jokes, no things which could make him down even more. He knew he was awful with handling humor lately, but he couldn't help it. And this was just... so not funny at all.
"But Akanishi..."
“I said FUCK OFF. I don't care of any fa-„ Jin started but his voice died in his throat as he heard the voice which cut him off. His eyes widened, he was still facing the window and as he was looking onto the glass, it reflected a young man whose beauty even shone like that. He didn't dare to turn around, seconds felt as if they were years, decades.
„Oh, so you say you are not interested in meeting me?” was the sentence of a so familiar voice that rendered him speechless. Kame found his courage and fought down his nervousness. Jin slowly, very slowly turned his head over his shoulder. He knew if this was all an illusion or a dream again, he cant live anymore, he is dead, he couldn't take it.
He gasped as he turned around abruptly, his hands trembling, his heart racing fastly in his chest and throat. His eyes watered up and he thought he even was unconscious for a few seconds because of the overwhelming emotion, happiness.
Finally, there he was, Kazuya who stood in front of him, near the door, his hair was long, pulled back but some strands escaped and framed his face...his beautiful face. Jin was mesmerized, he couldn't move, he opened his mouth to speak but nothing came out, his mind was in a mess, he still couldn't acknowledge the fact of what was happening. Can it be real? He had dreamt so many times about this, isn't this just a feverish illusion of his mind again?
He saw Kazuya smiling at him tenderly, with tender emotions in his deep brown orbs which were shining, dancing happily, glistening because of a the layer of wetness....tears? Jin knew his answers at that second, knew all the things he could never be certain of before. He knew his eyes reflect the same.
How much time passed as they stood there, they didn't know. They didn't care. Everything else faded away, just the two of them existed.
Jin was trembling and he saw the other was having a hard time to control his emotions too.
Then with a sudden move Kazuya broke out of the spell and Jin felt his own body reaching out to welcome the already running Kazuya into his arms.
He held the younger man tight to him and felt the hug is returned. The love of his life who he thought he lost for forever, the man who he fought for so long, but it was worth to keep the faith, it was worth to wait, to not give up.
The nice smell of Kazuya filled his nose and he buried his head into the hair of the other, sobbing, his tears mixing with Kazuya’s soft strands of velvet hair.
„Kazuya...Kazuya...” Jin cried and repeated the name over and over again, embracing the boy so tight that it might be uncomfortable for the younger but he couldn't control himself.
And Kazuya didn't feel uncomfortable. He hugged Jin back as close as he could, letting the warmness filling his everything, making him alive again. This warmness... how he had longed for it. Maybe life is hard, it bring many obstacles you have to face, but it is definitely worth living. And sometimes hardships are needed for opening the eyes of people. For making them realize things, of telling them ’hey, happiness is closer than you think, just look around. Hey isn't it next to you already?’ People walk, live life with their eyes open...but is it really open?
„Jin...”
Kazuya buried his head into Jin’s neck, drinking in the man’s comforting scent, pressing against the chest and he immediately felt how the protective arms tighten around him basking him with safeness. His tears slipped out of his eyes silently, hugging Jin as tight as he could, but didn't say anything for a while. They didn't need words, they felt connected. The feeling of being only a half person, to live your everyday aimlessly even through you have goals, to live a life when you feel something is terribly missing ...it disappeared.
It took some time until they calmed down, until they could loosen the hold, but never letting go. Jin pulled his face away from Kazuya’s hair at the same time Kazuya raised his face. Their eyes met again and danced in a shining dance of undeniable affection and warmness.
„I see... you didn't change, you stayed the crybaby you had always been, Bakanishi.” Kazuya whispered teasingly and heard how Jin gave out a soft laugh more of a chuckle, which didn't sound fake. Jin almost forgot how not faking smile was.
„You haven't changed either... you are still as beautiful as you were, tho your hair is longer.” Well yes, in the hospital it never got cut. Jin brought his palm to Kazuya’s cheek wiping the tears away softly as the other still held Kazuya strongly around the waist. He saw Kazuya leans into the touch, closing his eyes giving out a soft sigh as his lips turned into a smile. Jin tried to memorize every scene. He burned it in his heart. His Kazuya woke up, he is here with him...holding him..and apparently loving him as much as he loves Kazuya.
Those perfect lips...Jin leaned closer. He had been dreaming of this for so long. Can he really close the distance without having the fear of losing Kazuya because of it? Yes... there are no fears anymore...there is no worry anymore... that part of life ended and he can close it, flip the page and start from a new one...a purely new one which will be only written with love and happiness.
„I know I should have told it earlier...much earlier...forgive me...but now I wont hold back anymore... I wont be in denial anymore...it is the thing I am the most certain of...” Jin whispered, touching his forehead onto Kazuya’s one.
„I love you Kazuya. I love you more than anything in the world, more than my own life.” Jin said with a choking voice, he wanted to be determined but the happiness he felt made his voice waver.
„I know Jin....I know everything... I was with you all this time. I love you too.” Kazuya answered, his voice was soft and full with love.
It was the moment neither of them could hold back anymore. There was no reason to.
Kazuya closed his eyes and seconds later soft lips descended on his own, trembling warm lips, touching his with so much emotion it blinded his senses. This was the happiest moment in his life, Kazuya thought. Now he can respond to it, now he can talk, he can express his feelings, he can...show Jin how much he feels the same. Their kiss was tender and slow with the flavour of love and none of them wanted to break it. Kazuya opened his mouth and welcomed Jin's strong wet tongue to battle with his in a loving dance. His hands circled around Jin’s neck, while he felt Jin tightens his arms around his waist.
No need to worry Jin... no one will take me away, no one will break us apart anymore, you did great. You fought your fight proudly and won.
"Wooo~" They heard Yamapi's voice from the door as soon as their kiss ended. It sounded teasing, but none of them minded. Jin felt he is not able to let Kame go out of his embrace, so he just raised his head and looked at Pi. Kame was on the same thread of thoughts, he didn't pull away from Jin's arms, he just rested his head on Jin's chest, looking at the NewS member from that position, arms still holding Jin tightly.
Pi could have cried from happiness. At last, things were as they were supposed to be. Finally after so much struggle, Jin's life got into the right way, the suffering of the man ended.
"I think a new era of KAT-TUN begins, but hey, from now on we have to get used to this?" Koki teased, pointing on the hugging pair. "I surely will be rich with all those paparazzi Akame photos. Priceless." He pushed his joke further and winked.
He was ignored by the pair and grabbed by the hem of his shirt by Nakamaru who pulled him out of the room. Pi was the only one who stayed with them, and as much as he wanted to give them time alone, he knew they had to head back to the hospital soon. Everything just felt so right, seeing Kazuya burying his face into Jin's neck while that was holding him tightly that he felt guilty for breaking the mood, but he had to. Unwillingly he stepped closer and drew the attention to him by speaking.
"Kame-chan, you have to go back to the hospital as you promised." He said lightly, seeing Kame only nod against Jin's skin, still snuggling as if it was the last day on Earth he could do so. As if being scared of separation again. This was a touching scene to Yamapi and a really heartwarming one. He won't need to watch the heartbreaking struggling of his best friend anymore and he was grateful to God for that.
Pi's words sank into Kame and he knew he must fulfill his promise, he can't act childish anymore. Being out of the bed after so long made him feel good but he had to admit, he felt a little tired. But at the same time so good he had never felt in his whole life. So warm, so secure so loved.
Jin looked at Pi, his arms still holding Kame tightly, but he loosened the grip hearing the words. His best friend was right. The most important thing now was to let Kazuya have proper medical care and rest. They will have plenty of time to enjoy each other's closeness from now on and Jin swore himself that he will protect the young man so precious to him for forever. He smiled down at his boyfriend with warm eyes, speaking in a reassuring voice. "I will go with you."
Kame looked up with shining eyes, nodding. It was still so incredibly unbelievable to him that he can respond to Jin.
"I will go after you, I have something to settle first." Yamapi said and signaled to the direction of the door. "Okay lovebirds, time to fly out of this cage."
After Jin and Kame was secure in a minibus of KAT-TUN, windows black, unable to look through and the car left next to row of fans in front of the parking lot who had no idea who was in the car, Yamapi used the backstage exit to go out. Fans were already on the way to the station, not many of them stayed near the dome, so he had a quite easy task to slip out unnoticed and of course in a hoodie. He went to the open parking lot, searching for Takahashi's taxi. He told the man that in case of emergency he should stay there until he comes back, of course he will pay for his service. No matter how hard he searched, the yellow car with the kind old man was nowhere to be seen. The real reason Pi wanted him to stay there was to thank, but it seemed he had to search for a different way. Takahashi surely had a good reason not to wait and Pi accepted it. Everything was settled and alright so there was no need for his service at the moment.
"Hey" Pi heard a voice from behind him. He turned around and saw T-TUN smiling at him.
"It was not fair you wanted to go alone to the hospital after Kame-chan and Jin." Koki smirked and grabbed the arm of the NewS leader, pulling him with the group to the other parking lot where a minibus was already waiting for them.
At the hospital the doctor examined Kame and recommended him to stay a week more, but Kazuya promised he will take care of himself and tried to persuade him to let him go home. First the doctor was hardheaded, he didn't want to allow it, but after Kazuya said he takes all the responsibility and reasoned that the checks made showed he was perfectly healthy he managed to press out a "yes" from the doctor. Jin assured the man that he is going to take care of Kazuya himself and of course there was also his parents. The only condition of the doctor was, if Kame didn't feel well, he comes back and stays for a while.
"And now you want to leave us alone again?" Koki faked a pout as the pair was about to go home from the hospital and T-TUN just arrived with Pi.
"I promise you can spend as much time as you want with Kazu-chan after we are back." Jin tried to get out as soon as possible, he couldn't wait to give Kame's family back their son. His heart raced just thinking about it.
"Watch out, I will take it as a promise Bakanishi." Koki smirked and winked at Kame, who just chuckled at his friend. "As much time as I want." The teasing in his voice was obvious and challenging, but Jin had his head full with the reunion to take it.
***
Kame's heart was beating fast in his chest as they were standing in front of the door of his house. For how long he waited for this, to meet his family with his lover on his side, to have full acceptance and understanding. Will his father really be kind even now that he actually sees them together?
"Ready?" Jin smiled at him and took his hand for a fleeting second, squeezing it.
The doorbell rang in the Kamenashi household and Kazuya was slightly trembling outside, holding Jin's hand tightly, waiting for the door to open. His heartbeat was fast and he knew as soon as he will see his family maybe he won't be able to suppress a few tears. He loved them so much and he caused them so much pain. They heard footsteps which were louder and louder, and the click of the door as they watched it open, holding their breaths.
Yuuya made the door fully open and the baseball ball he was holding in his hand fell onto the ground. The child looked wide eyed on his brother, his trembling lips were unable to speak. The two brothers were looking into each other's eyes for a while, both not able to form words from the happiness. The younger was who broke the spell and jumped into Kazuya's arms crying, holding the man as tightly as he could. Jin felt his heart soar in sky, it was so touching, how much he always wanted to give the family back their lost member. He knew he was not the cause of the accident but deep inside he always felt guilty and responsible of what had happened. Seeing everything in the right way was the best thing in the world.
He stepped into the house and saw Nao approaching them. The way he was standing he was blocking Kazuya and his brother, so the mother saw only him.
"Oh, Jin-kun, what happened?" She asked a little worried and that was when the singer realized the mother haven't noticed Kazuya yet. With a kind smile and eyes slightly wet he stepped away slowly to reveal the hugging brothers behind him.
Nao put her hand in front of her mouth surprised and the pleasant shock made her release her stress all at once, making her crystal clear tears flow down her face. Her son was finally home. She was hoping so much, she was praying so often for this to happen,and finally it became reality, or was this just an illusion? A dream? A hallucination because she wanted to see it that much?
"Kazu...ya..." She said, shaking as a leaf and Jin stepped to her to support her, smiling at her warmly, his heart jumping with joy. Kame let his brother go and run into his mother's arms, caressing her back as she cried. Kazuya was able to suppress his tears and was basking in the warmth of his mother's clinging embrace. They didn't say anything for a while, there was no need for words. The young man remembered the last time they hugged like this. It was so many years ago. He promised himself he will spend more time with his family from now on.
"Tadaima...mother." the singer whispered, still holding the woman he got his life from close and secure, trying to convey every gratefulness he felt and one stubborn teardrop escaped his eyes.
"Welcome home...Kazuya." Nao breathed back, still too shocked to speak normally.
Yuuya stood next to Jin and flung one of his arms around the man, patting his back friendly. Thinking about how much he hated Jin back then... He wouldn't ever imagine that he will be the most grateful to this same man. But it was all a misunderstanding and Yuuya was glad it was cleared and very satisfied with the outcome. His big brother, his star, deserves a caring man as Akanishi, not less.
Jin welcomed the gesture and looked down on the floor at the baseball. He was sure it belonged to Kazuya and that Yuuya was treasuring it as if it was made of gold.
"You know Yuuya, I am still grateful for your help. Thank you." Jin said, bending down to take the ball and gave it to the boy who accepted it with a smile.
"And I have to thank you for keeping your promise bringing big brother back." The youngest Kamenashi smiled, his eyes reflected the feeling he just declared.
"Nao, I can't find my keys." They heard Akihiko's voice from outside along with Kouji's and Yuuichirou's.
"Dad, I am sure it must be in the bag somewhere." the oldest of the brother stated with an impatient tone.
"I am cold, hurry up!" the whining was heard and Kazuya giggled. From inside the key was in the lock so even if they found theirs they couldn't enter.
"Let me." the young singer said with a huge smile and ran to the door, opening it to a scene where his brothers and father were almost buried in the shopping bag, already in competition who will find it first, none of them realizing the door was already opened.
"Opened already~" Kazuya singsonged, waiting for the reaction with racing heartbeat. Opened...Yes, another door opened. First, the door to life, now the door to a loving family.
All three man shot their heads up and Akihiko had to have a good grip on the bag not to let it fall. The world stopped turning as son and father were looking into each other's eyes. Thousands of words in their minds which they wanted to say, but none of them left their mouth. Instead a strong hug, shopping bag long forgotten on the floor as the father held his precious son tightly, trying to acknowledge the situation.
"You...strangle me..." Kazuya said fighting with tears again and chuckled a little.
The two older brothers were watching the scene with jaw dropped, but when they recovered from the surprise with a scream of "Bro!!!" soon Kame was enveloped in a group hug, standing in the middle and trying to breath laughing. So much love he received he felt in heaven. He felt as if fate wanted to compensate for all the time he have lost.
Soon they were already sitting around the dining table eating dinner. There was no need to worry, Kazuya realized as his father welcomed Jin and already treated him as a family member. It was so nice and so hard to believe. The situation which people say: too good to be true. But it was all reality, after all the cruel things they had been through it seemed the ending will be pleasant. Being in coma and having lived through so much pain and concern taught Kame to enjoy life more, the little things, let it be just a talk or a dinner. He enjoyed being free.
"It was a long day, are you okay? Aren't you too tired?" Jin asked worriedly as they headed to Kame's room and the younger tripped, almost falling.
"I am okay Jin." Kazuya reassured his lover, leaning on him, walking while Jin's supporting arms was around his waist from one side. He didn't feel sick, just his body was still very weak. Actually he was sure it was kind of a miracle he could actually get out of the bed, let alone walk this much, but they were surrounded with so many surreal things he didn't really think about it further. The way of God's can't be explained by a plain human and who was he to argue? His trail of thoughts were cut by Jin lifting him up and he shrieked surprised, but then he just circled his arms around Jin's neck, holding him tightly, nuzzling into his shoulder.
"Hey hey, if you will act this cute I am not sure I will be able to just sleep." Jin warned him with a devilish smirk and he pecked the top of Kame's head.
"Ooh~~ I am in danger!" The younger said with naughty eyes, though he was feeling how the tiredness steals his energy more and more.
Jin was not stupid and didn't plan anything adult for the night of course. Kame had to win his strength back first, resting a lot, sleeping a lot and relax. He put the young man down carefully onto the bed and almost melted as Kazuya smiled at him sweetly. He still couldn't really believe this was happening, but who was he to argue, so he crept under the blanket, taking his lover into his arms, enjoying how Kazuya snuggled as close as he could, resting his face in the crook of his neck.
"Do you remember the first time we slept in this bed?" He heard Kame asked chuckling and his breath was tickling Jin.
"Oh yes, you were so cute, snuggling to me in your sleep even that time." the older remembered back. It was so many years ago, when they were still children. Innocent little children, not knowing how cruel the world can be.
"It was you snuggling up to me." Kame looked up smirking, and their eyes met. Yes, this was how things were supposed to be. The affection that reflected in their eyes, the care for each other, the love...was a bond very few people could share in this world.
"Will you promise me, if I close my eyes the darkness won't take me away again?" Kazuya whispered into Jin's ears as he leaned closer, holding the man tighter.
"No matter what darkness awaits I will fight it all. I promise you Kazuya. It can't take you away. And never could." Jin caressed the soft cheek of the young boy with his finger, making Kame relaxed more and a soft sigh left the younger's lips. "I feel so good. Thank you Jin." With closed eyes he smiled, feeling as if he was lying on a cloud enveloped in soft warmness.
"Welcome back Kazuya." the older leant down, giving a long and loving kiss which the younger returned, caressing into Jin's hair, being as happy as never before.
Both of them knew soon they had to face Johnny and the world, but right now nothing else mattered just each other as they fell asleep in the warm embrace, wishing time to stop.
["I wish the same day could go on for forever
let's synchronize our days
the us yesterday who were soaked by rain
will open the door that connects with tomorrow
Always by your side, wherever, deeply
strongly, I felt our hands, holding each other tightly becoming one
I always want to tell you "Thank you"]
*****
A few days later Yamapi dialed the number of the driver. He owned the old man a lot and he knew that this present won't make up for all the good Takahashi did to them, but at least he hoped the man will enjoy the 1 week ticket to the most luxurious spa in Tokyo. With a smile, Pi reached for his phone and dialed the number.
"There is no user on the dialed number." He heard the automate reply and his eyes widened. Maybe he made some mistake, so he tried again getting the same result. Maybe something bad happened to the man? He started to feel worried. No matter who it was, who got that much involved to media often had little "accidents" and Pi totally didn't want the old man to be the next victim of those. He was not the type to just shrug something like this off and leave the matter without any further effort to try. He didn't have to think much on the next step: going to the taxi company and search for the man there.
At his only free day he got he went to the headquarter of the taxi company and went to the information desk at the reception.
"Good afternoon sir, in what can I help you?" A man in his mid forties asked, looking up and Pi was glad it was not a fangirl working there. As he thought the man didn't care who he was, just looked at him waiting for the answer.
"Good afternoon, I am searching for one of your company member. His name is Takahashi Nobuo."
The receptionist looked at him with furrowed eyebrows and then asked back.
"Are you sure in the name?"
Pi blinked and checked the name of the company. Maybe he was at the wrong place? But no, the name was the same so he kept on. "Yes. I am sure. He helped me a lot in these days and I am here to thank him. Please tell me where he is."
"Young man, please use your spare time to make jokes somewhere else, goodbye." The receptionist shook his head and his voice sounded really annoyed. Pi started to lose his patience.
"Look, if you don't tell me where he is, I will go and search him myself." The tone was wavering from irritation. Maybe it would be better if it was a fangirl...or at least a girl.
"You said Takahashi Nobuo? I can tell you where he is. He was my best friend, and is in the cemetery. He died two years ago in a car accident on a rainy day, there is no way you met him, now goodbye."
For a few moment Yamapi was just standing there, unable to move. Was this some kind of a joke? Not a very good one for sure, so he tried to call Takahashi again, with the same result. He decided to get to the end of this and looked the name up in google on his phone. A few links which didn't help much, then his eyes suddenly stopped at one of them which said "fatal taxi accident" and clicked onto it. He was stunned and was just standing there with wide eyes. The man on the photo was the same taxi driver who he was searching for to say thank you.
It was true. The man died in a car crash on a rainy day and he was not the fault. The reports said another car slipped on the road and the taxi driver turned his car the way to sacrifice himself for a man who was with him in the taxi, his grandson.
This was like a lightning struck to the young man and made him open his eyes. What makes people actually think they are alone in this universe? That only things exist what they can see and touch? That there is nothing beyond human mind and what seems illogical for it's system is equal to wrong or non existent? Maybe there is much more out there, around them what they can handle and understand.
'Because angels are always on the side of good people. Ever thought about you might be guarded from above?'
The sentences of the kind old man echoed in the head of the singer as he made his way out of the building and looked up at the cloudy sky.
"Thank you."
*****
To be continued
Next (final) chapter
AN: Sorry again for the loooong wait >___< I hope I didn't cause disappointment with this chapter and hoped you like it and it wasn't too corny, sappy, fluffy ^^;
The story is not over yet, so please look forward for the next chapter. :)
Songs used: KAT-TUN - Two, Akanishi Jin - Seasons
The translations belong to me.
Author: tanakakoki_fan
Pairing: Akame
Rating: PG
Genre: Angst, romance
Disclaimer: I don’t own them!
Warning: still unbetaed!
Summary: Kame is closed in his own world… he can feel he can hear, but can’t respond. Will Jin’s love give him the light to live on?
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Jin didn't know why he felt so hopeful, he was angry at himself. In the break he was rushing to the dressing room but nothing. Of course no Kazuya, learn finally. LIFE IS NOT A FAIRYTALE. He felt desperate, he didn't know how longer he could take it. He felt Kazuya so strongly, he imagined he woke up. Now nothing. He can't feel him like he did, as if the spirit of the young man was no longer present as it was before. He tried to call Yamapi if something had happened but the other didn't pick the phone up. It was hell to Jin. The worry was eating him up and made his inside shiver. Why is this feeling? Kazuya didn't...die right?
[The spring flower which bloomed beautifully
For my eyes it doesn't reflect like that
If you are not here
There is nothing in this world I see
nothing matters]
Jin couldn't suppress a sigh.
Already more than a year had passed without Kame by his side, without him in the band. The everyday life was frozen, for Jin time slowed down in a negative meaning, so for him, it was more than the actual time. It felt more passed.
[So now I'm sitting in the dark
Missing the light that you brought to my life
and it just ain't fair
To reach you I swear]
He was sitting in the dressingroom still, the lights were off as no one else was there. The break was soon over, he knew it but he couldn't care less. He heard the raindrops tap the window lightly and imagined how good it would be if he could cuddle Kame up to him, watching it together. Damn he was so tired. Really tired. How much longer did he have to endure this?
[I’ rather have a rainy day with you
than see the sunshine alone
Or have a hundred days of winter with you here in my arms
I'll be your shelter from the storm
just to have you by my side
If we could meet now
if we could meet now]
"What are you doing here in the dark?" It was Ueda's soft voice but worried voice. He could totally understand the other man. Everyday the situation got even worse. First Kame's accident, then the nurses, then the media and now even the fans...He rested his hand on the shoulder of his friend, conveying him without words yet again how he was not alone.
"Your fight is our fight Jin."
Akanishi looked up and his eyes already adjusted enough to the dark to see Ueda's expression. It again clenched his heart how selfish he behaves all the time. Making others worry, making others feel sorry for him. It was so phatethic. He had to show strongness, he couldn't allow himself to bring even his precious friend's mood down, so he just smiled pulling Ueda into a brief hug.
"Thank you Tacchan."
When he leant away he grabbed the arm of his bandmate, pulling him towards the door, pretending he was cheerful again, though he couldn't mislead Ueda he knew very well.
"the stage is waiting for us~!"
**
"Kame-chan..." Yamapi whispered softly, his voice was wavering a little. They were waiting for Kame to wake up so much, but he had never thought it will happen when he is there alone. How glad Jin would be if he was here now!
The room was silent for a while as both were fighting down their emotions. Kazuya was still acknowledging he was not unable to respond anymore and Pi was trying to recover from the shock fully. If he listened to his heart he would hug his friend so tightly that maybe it would hurt. But he was just so damn happy that the miracle really happened. Just, one thing made him wonder. Was the guy okay? He surely can't go out of the hospital yet, he just woke up. He must be weak still, maybe he couldn't even walk properly but he was dying to grant the boy's wish.
Kazuya looked around, his smile was beautiful, his eyes were shining. He couldn't believe it, he was alive again. Fully. He broke free from the narrow box, from his prison and was able to communicate with the world again. He looked at his hands and started to move his fingers. It's not a dream! The shocked expression on Yamapi's face told it too: he was really back. There were so many things he wanted to tell, how grateful he was, how thankful and happy he was because he and Jin had such true friends. The support they got was incredible and each were a step for him to open his eyes to the world. As if he was climbing a stair, every happening meant a step and now he was on the top of it, waiting for another stair to begin.
Words could have flood out of him, like unstoppable water, but he just repeated one thing. "Please...let's go. I want to see him." The anticipation of soon meeting Jin, it was as if he was meeting someone he was adoring for the first time. He felt like an enthusiastic child. Excited, full of life. How true the saying was. If your mind is healthy and mood is happy, you can face the obstacles of body much more. You don't even notice if something is not totally right. Because his body still remembered the long time he spent in bed motionless and was not in its top form.
It was still a little shock to Yamapi how Kame raised to his feet as if he was just waking up from a night sleep in the morning. However this was not the case and the man was sure the doctors won't just smile and say Kame "Okay you can go right away" so Yamapi knew he has a task to fulfill. A quite hard one. How can he steal out one of the most famous singer in Japan from the hospital unnoticed, this he had to think out in a minute. And even if he managed to do it, if Kame's absence will be noticed the hospital might even call the police. He was torn apart on what to do, but his mind was still numb from the sudden happenings around him.
"What about the doctors...?" He asked as he saw the determination in Kazuya's eyes which were searching for something in the room, his steps unsteady and sometimes he had to catch something to grab a hold on, but he straightened himself quickly. This was Kamenashi Kazuya, never wanted to be seen weak.
"I will take care of it if I can use your phone." The younger smiled and his eyes landed on Pi with a nod, making his decision. "Pi... I would like to... wear your hoodie and cap to cover me a little while going out. I don't want anyone to recognize me." His heart was pounding in his chest and looked at the other man with pleading eyes. He loved it. The fact he can express himself, can make gestures and faces as he likes. He will treasure this ability which every healthy person takes for granted. Now he is richer with the experience how it is when the thing you take for granted disappears in one second. It taught him a lesson. Treasure everything, even little ones, don't take anything for granted because you don't know how fragile world can be.
Pi looked at Kame and the stumbling of the young boy was the only sign of the weakness. He saw how Kazuya was pretending that he is not aware of it. The scene was cute, the cinderella boy preparing like a little child which is waiting for the best happening in his life. The NewS member just smiled and didn't say a word about it either just offered his arm.
"I can walk alone." Kazuya pouted, but when he took another unsure step he peeked at Pi and cleared his throath a little blushed.
"Ehmm... I mean... thank you." He took the offered arm, now dressed in hoodie which was at least one size bigger than the thin singer.
"We have to be careful Kame-chan. I am sure you know if doctors notice you we can't go out." The older noted it and Kazuya just nodded, pulling the hoodie even more into his face. He was aware at the same time that he can't hide that much either because it would be suspicious too. He let his hair which grew past his shoulder already be seen from below the hoodie to pretend he was just some random girl and snuggled to Pi to create the fiasco more.
Pi stiffened a little and was thinking if Jin was here he would win himself a long holiday and occupy Kame's hospital room, but then just smiled. It was part of the play and he knew pretty well what Kame was up to. Not that it wasn't attention drawing, but he hoped everything will be alright.
Yamapi tried to behave natural, even saying hi to some nurses on the way who didn't even suspect "his girlfriend" so clinging on him was Kamenashi Kazuya in reality. As he looked down at the young man he noted himself, Kame really could look like a girl if he wanted to.
They reached the exit and were on the fresh air which made Kame's mood bloom even more. He took a deep breath and looked around, hoodie still protecting him, letting him hide his face. His eyes were shining. The weather was good, though the sun was not shining shining and the wind was somewhat chilly. The young man was thankful to it, the sunshine would surely hurt his eyes still. Otherwise he felt alive again, and as if he was walking out of a prison. How could he endure it? He was surprised at himself. But well, people always endure much more than they can imagine. If they are in the situation what they thought they wouldn't endure, because of some miracle they always stand their grounds. And only in difficulties can they see who the true friend is by their side.
Pi was glad they made it this far, but he slapped himself mentally. Now what? If they catch a taxi he was sure they can't keep Kame's identity in secret. He should have just called Takahashi and as he took a hold on his phone, a car nearby them honked. For a fleeting second the singer thought they are caught, but as he looked into the direction of the sound he saw the kind old man Takahashi smiling at them from the window of his yellow taxi, waving. A stone fell from Pi's heart and urged Kame to get into the car as soon as he could.
As they got in, Pi took a deep breath. "Huh, it is a good coincidence thank you Takahashi-san, you again saved me." How could the old man be always on the right time on the right place? If it wasn't happening with him maybe Yamapi wouldn't even believe this can be possible.
"You know, angels are always on the side of good people. Ever thought about you might be guarded from above?" The soft smile of the wrinkled face made Pi's eyes widen a little, but as he felt Kame fidgeting in his seat excitedly the thread of thoughts got lost and his attention was fully on the younger again. It was a little awkward for Pi. He was actually sitting next to Kame who was lively and fresh again.
"You look at me as if you are seeing a ghost." The younger looked at Pi and chuckled, his eyes still shining. It really was such a good thing he was able to communicate with the world. Takahashi looked into the mirror at the young man and smiled.
"I am glad you are alright Kamenashi-san. I always knew you will be back, you are strong enough."
The K of KAT-TUN smiled back onto the man and looked into the mirror to catch his eyes.
"Thank you very much." He said politely and he was so glad he can talk freely he started to have a little conversation with the man.
"You know, I was hearing everything people saying, feeling everything they were doing, it was as if I was just paralyzed. It really was awful, but at the same time taught me a lot of things too." He sighed, thinking back on the events and it made him want to meet Jin even more.
Words got stuck in Pi as he was listening to the young man. He was always wondering if Kazuya was able to hear them or knew about his surroundings while being in coma. And even when he was playing with the thoughts maybe that was the case, he wouldn't have thought that the younger really heard everything and lived through the happenings as if he was with them. It must have been pretty hard and sometimes maybe scary as well. He got lost in his thoughts and ended up looking at the driver. It didn't even once accrued to him he should warn the old man not to tell Kame was awake or not to run to the media telling everything the idol told him. The man proved himself to be reliable a lot of times already and Pi started to think of a present he will give. Coincidence or not, if he didn't meet the driver the happenings would have taken a dramatic turn and wouldn't end up in a good way.
"Oh!" Kame turned to the NewS leader which got the man out of his thoughts, blinking at Kazuya questioningly.
"Can you give me your phone and tell me the number of the hospital?" The pleading look again made Pi to smile and oblige to the request.
After Kame apologized hundred times in the phone to his doctor and promised he will go back as soon as he settled things he wanted to, the young man handed the phone back to Pi. Of course he was scolded, but his doctor was an understanding person. Kazuya convinced him that if he still felt very bad he wouldn't have been able to get out of the bed. Maybe the shock that the young singer was actually able to accomplish this task made the doctor allow him to go where he wanted. But he made the idol promise he takes special care and really comes back as soon as he could.
Kame's heart was beating in a hectic pace, increasing the pace with every step he was nearer the concert hall. He still was supported with Pi sometimes, but he was stubborn enough to try to walk alone for a while. His body was actually weak, he had to admit, but he didn't care for it even a little. Pi was slightly amused about how persisting Kazuya can be and he imagined how Jin will be totally tamed. This made him smile and he even had to suppress a chuckle. What a picture!
Kazuya was dying to see Jin sing, so he set a plan which made Pi's eyes almost flow out.
"You want what??"
"Please Pi, pretty please!" The pleading puppy eye tactic was on again and it was damn hard to resist. Pi understood Kazuya was energetic and happy, but he came up with plans the NewS leader couldn't really keep up. The reason he once again let out a sigh but nodded his head was because he understood the young man. After such a long time of longing for something it was natural that Kame was impatient. He was not annoying nor bitchy, still composed, but the passion towards what he wanted was flaming inside of him and it was obvious for his surrounding too.
"But please at least make it the way he won't notice you, he would go ballistic and no one can predict what could happen... or better to say... I can, so please..." Pi scratched the back of his head explaining and Kazuya just smiled. He couldn't help it, he wanted to see Jin sing.
The surrounding of the dome was quiet empty, the fans were all inside enjoying the concert which they could hear slightly form outside too. As they approached the gate, Kame still hidden, Yamapi once again questioned himself if it was a good idea or not. Allowing Kame into the audience alone to watch the concert, even just a little of it was so unlike what Kame would ask, but yet again... it was understandable under the circumstances.
"I am sorry but..." The staff at the door started, but her voice died away. There were times when some crazy fans who couldn't get ticket go and make a hysteria to get in during concert and for a fleeting second she didn't recognized the people in front of her. Yamapi she kind of did, though she thought it is just a good cosplay, but when Kame took his hoodie off, the girl gasped. They were real.
"We can enter, can't we?" Kazuya asked with a smile and the girl could just nod, still staring at him with wide eyes. She surely won't get scolded, since it was Kamenashi Kazuya she let enter. Without ticket, but well... he was part of the band and she was shocked so she stepped away from the door.
"Please don't post onto twitter or online this, okay?" Yamapi said warningly and the girl could again just nod. As they stepped in, the rest of the staff members who saw them had the same reaction and of course didn't try to stop them at all. When Kame stood next to the staff member of the arena near the edge of the stage, still covered in hoodie and already had Pi's long coat which looked like cape the boy almost got a heart attack. Kazuya showed him a "shhh" sign and the guy immediately looked away. Was he seeing a ghost or was the real Kamenashi Kazuya standing next to him?
It was the last song, it was obvious. Kazuya was lost in the sensation of warmness watching Jin and his band sing. For such a long time he was not able to see these faces, not able to talk to them, to hang out with them...Now he knew, he will appreciate every little talk with those guys who were so precious to him. His heart beat fast and his eyes watered a little from happiness while looking at Jin, he started to tremble a little from the emotions that was piled inside of him. As if he saw Jin sing the first time, as if he was watching his idol, as if his dream came true. He was here, and as soon as the song ended he can make his way backstage, he can get lost in those deep brown eyes and held by those strong arms he longed for an eternity. Jin looked so handsome, but so tired at the same time it hurt Kazuya's heart. The man was through so much and the young singer hoped he can heal that heart, he can give Jin his happiness back.
The song was about to end when Jin opened his eyes and looked directly at him. Their eyes met and Kame saw how Jin almost stopped singing. Uhh, this was what Yamapi asked him to be careful about. Not to be noticed. How come Jin knew exactly where to look? The bond between them, right? Kame turned away and as much as his unstable legs allowed he hurried back to the corridor where Pi was waiting for him, catching him, preventing him from tripping.
"Is everything alright Kame-chan?" The NewS leader asked worried and Kame just nodded.
"Yes. And now... really take me to him."
***
Jin couldn't take the image out of his head. He swore he saw Kazuya, but of course, coming back to the dressingroom, nothing. The second time that day and it started to irritate him madly. He really just went crazy right? Imagining Kame everywhere. He was grateful it was the last song because he was sure he wouldn't be able to perform more. He needed to get calm. Crazy life with crazy things,waiting for an uncertain thing, only just hoping everyday. Where will this lead? To the mental hospital? But everytime he said okay, nomore, he always could face the next obstacles and not break. He won't break now either. He won't stop and give up hope no matter how hard the road was. He.just.won't.
He was storming backstage and passed everyone by without a word. Not greeting, not nodding nor bowing, he was just going as if no one was there. With a little angry expression. Who was he angry with? Himself. When he walked past Koki the rapper wanted to stop him, but Ueda caught his arm, preventing him from doing so. As soon as their eyes met he shook his head and looked after Jin sadly who was disappearing into the dressingroom.
Soon Maru and Junno reached where they were standing and the oldest sighed. Everyone was more and more desperate day by day and no matter how they tried to deny it, they started to feel exhausted. They were worried for Jin so much, but also for Kazuya. Though they had the faith, they really wanted the day to be there as soon as possible for everyone's sake.
"Everything's gonna be alright." They heard a voice from behind them and Koki sighed. How many times he had heard that phase and he was sure the youngest member was thinking it...if he at least knew what was happening around him.
"Yes, this is what Kame-chan would say if he was here." The rapper said out loud and was looking at the direction of the dressingroom still, deep in thoughts, not realizing the others already turned back in shock. At the chuckle he heard next was his head shot into the direction too all of a sudden, not believing his ears and eyes. He got a little numb, his hand shaky. The others shared the same surprise and feelings as they could just stand there, staring with jaw slightly dropped. Was this reality?
The bandmate, friend they have missed so much, Kamenashi Kazuya was standing at the end of the corridor not so far from them, being as elegant and beautiful as always. His calming aura filled the hearts and the four guys fought with their tears. There was always an unexplainable feeling of care when Kame was around.
As their eyes met God knows how long time passed, memories flooded them, all the happenings what they had been through, all the times they could just see that young man sleeping, caged into his own dreams and mind. Kame's eyes shone happily, with a lot of grateful feelings. It was visible the man was shivering a little from the suppressed emotions. He wanted to burst out in tears of relivement. He can see them again. He will tell them everything, how he heard every little teasing, every word they told him, every encouragement.
"Hey, I brought you a present." Yamapi turned to the corridor too and winked, his heart filled with warmth as he saw the reunion. At last, KAT-TUN was complete again. He was sure this incident, no matter how terrible it was will have good affect to their songs as well. But if Akanishi started to produce one cheesy lovesong after the other he would beat him, he smiled in himself.
Taguchi was the first to recover from shock and he started to run towards Kame with wider smile than ever. "Kazuyaaa~~~!" But he was pulled back and kicked by Koki who smirked. At the same time his eyes were shining with unshed tears. "Me first."
Kame started to giggle. His band never changes. They were back to the teasers in good mood they had been before his accident. But in deep down he knew, this band was always something special with strong bonds towards the other and helping in need. You only know who your friends are in need. And these guys were people he could always count on.
Before anyone would reach him, Yamapi stood in front of him as a guard and smirked. "No, first Jin."
Koki smirked back and signaled the others to run and make Pi out of the way, but of course in a friendly way. "If we let him to Akanishi we won't have a chance ever again to hug him."
"That's true." Pi pretended to ponder on the fact, but then stepped away and let Kame jump into the awaiting arms of his bandmates. He was smiling and held everyone close, laughing when Yamapi stated: "group hug."
When they calmed down somewhat and were able to let go of each other, Kame's heart skipped a beat. The moment has come... he finally meets Jin. All of a sudden he started to be a little nervous and his heart was pounding so fast he thought it will jump out. How should he approach the dressing room? What should he say first?
Koki noticed it and patted his shoulder, smiling then winking. "Let me, I will take the MC part." He cleared his throat and opened the door a little without a knock, seeing the gloomy Akanishi just standing in front of the door.
"Akanishi, there is a fan who wants to see you." Jin heard from the door and it didn't help his mood to get better. He was kind of baffled how his bandmate could even say something like this. Was it a bad joke?
Seeing no reaction Koki opened the door a little wider, but still just peeking in, seeing Jin still staring out of the window, not in the best mood to say the least.
"Akanishi, but there really is a fan who wants to meet you." His voice was serious but pleading and a little hint of teasing. He felt himself evil, but well, he was sure Jin will forget everything else once he sees this "fan".
"Fuck off Koki." Jin pouted a little, sighing in annoyance. What happened with KAT-TUN? They were always respecting his mood lately. No lame jokes, no things which could make him down even more. He knew he was awful with handling humor lately, but he couldn't help it. And this was just... so not funny at all.
"But Akanishi..."
“I said FUCK OFF. I don't care of any fa-„ Jin started but his voice died in his throat as he heard the voice which cut him off. His eyes widened, he was still facing the window and as he was looking onto the glass, it reflected a young man whose beauty even shone like that. He didn't dare to turn around, seconds felt as if they were years, decades.
„Oh, so you say you are not interested in meeting me?” was the sentence of a so familiar voice that rendered him speechless. Kame found his courage and fought down his nervousness. Jin slowly, very slowly turned his head over his shoulder. He knew if this was all an illusion or a dream again, he cant live anymore, he is dead, he couldn't take it.
He gasped as he turned around abruptly, his hands trembling, his heart racing fastly in his chest and throat. His eyes watered up and he thought he even was unconscious for a few seconds because of the overwhelming emotion, happiness.
Finally, there he was, Kazuya who stood in front of him, near the door, his hair was long, pulled back but some strands escaped and framed his face...his beautiful face. Jin was mesmerized, he couldn't move, he opened his mouth to speak but nothing came out, his mind was in a mess, he still couldn't acknowledge the fact of what was happening. Can it be real? He had dreamt so many times about this, isn't this just a feverish illusion of his mind again?
He saw Kazuya smiling at him tenderly, with tender emotions in his deep brown orbs which were shining, dancing happily, glistening because of a the layer of wetness....tears? Jin knew his answers at that second, knew all the things he could never be certain of before. He knew his eyes reflect the same.
How much time passed as they stood there, they didn't know. They didn't care. Everything else faded away, just the two of them existed.
Jin was trembling and he saw the other was having a hard time to control his emotions too.
Then with a sudden move Kazuya broke out of the spell and Jin felt his own body reaching out to welcome the already running Kazuya into his arms.
He held the younger man tight to him and felt the hug is returned. The love of his life who he thought he lost for forever, the man who he fought for so long, but it was worth to keep the faith, it was worth to wait, to not give up.
The nice smell of Kazuya filled his nose and he buried his head into the hair of the other, sobbing, his tears mixing with Kazuya’s soft strands of velvet hair.
„Kazuya...Kazuya...” Jin cried and repeated the name over and over again, embracing the boy so tight that it might be uncomfortable for the younger but he couldn't control himself.
And Kazuya didn't feel uncomfortable. He hugged Jin back as close as he could, letting the warmness filling his everything, making him alive again. This warmness... how he had longed for it. Maybe life is hard, it bring many obstacles you have to face, but it is definitely worth living. And sometimes hardships are needed for opening the eyes of people. For making them realize things, of telling them ’hey, happiness is closer than you think, just look around. Hey isn't it next to you already?’ People walk, live life with their eyes open...but is it really open?
„Jin...”
Kazuya buried his head into Jin’s neck, drinking in the man’s comforting scent, pressing against the chest and he immediately felt how the protective arms tighten around him basking him with safeness. His tears slipped out of his eyes silently, hugging Jin as tight as he could, but didn't say anything for a while. They didn't need words, they felt connected. The feeling of being only a half person, to live your everyday aimlessly even through you have goals, to live a life when you feel something is terribly missing ...it disappeared.
It took some time until they calmed down, until they could loosen the hold, but never letting go. Jin pulled his face away from Kazuya’s hair at the same time Kazuya raised his face. Their eyes met again and danced in a shining dance of undeniable affection and warmness.
„I see... you didn't change, you stayed the crybaby you had always been, Bakanishi.” Kazuya whispered teasingly and heard how Jin gave out a soft laugh more of a chuckle, which didn't sound fake. Jin almost forgot how not faking smile was.
„You haven't changed either... you are still as beautiful as you were, tho your hair is longer.” Well yes, in the hospital it never got cut. Jin brought his palm to Kazuya’s cheek wiping the tears away softly as the other still held Kazuya strongly around the waist. He saw Kazuya leans into the touch, closing his eyes giving out a soft sigh as his lips turned into a smile. Jin tried to memorize every scene. He burned it in his heart. His Kazuya woke up, he is here with him...holding him..and apparently loving him as much as he loves Kazuya.
Those perfect lips...Jin leaned closer. He had been dreaming of this for so long. Can he really close the distance without having the fear of losing Kazuya because of it? Yes... there are no fears anymore...there is no worry anymore... that part of life ended and he can close it, flip the page and start from a new one...a purely new one which will be only written with love and happiness.
„I know I should have told it earlier...much earlier...forgive me...but now I wont hold back anymore... I wont be in denial anymore...it is the thing I am the most certain of...” Jin whispered, touching his forehead onto Kazuya’s one.
„I love you Kazuya. I love you more than anything in the world, more than my own life.” Jin said with a choking voice, he wanted to be determined but the happiness he felt made his voice waver.
„I know Jin....I know everything... I was with you all this time. I love you too.” Kazuya answered, his voice was soft and full with love.
It was the moment neither of them could hold back anymore. There was no reason to.
Kazuya closed his eyes and seconds later soft lips descended on his own, trembling warm lips, touching his with so much emotion it blinded his senses. This was the happiest moment in his life, Kazuya thought. Now he can respond to it, now he can talk, he can express his feelings, he can...show Jin how much he feels the same. Their kiss was tender and slow with the flavour of love and none of them wanted to break it. Kazuya opened his mouth and welcomed Jin's strong wet tongue to battle with his in a loving dance. His hands circled around Jin’s neck, while he felt Jin tightens his arms around his waist.
No need to worry Jin... no one will take me away, no one will break us apart anymore, you did great. You fought your fight proudly and won.
"Wooo~" They heard Yamapi's voice from the door as soon as their kiss ended. It sounded teasing, but none of them minded. Jin felt he is not able to let Kame go out of his embrace, so he just raised his head and looked at Pi. Kame was on the same thread of thoughts, he didn't pull away from Jin's arms, he just rested his head on Jin's chest, looking at the NewS member from that position, arms still holding Jin tightly.
Pi could have cried from happiness. At last, things were as they were supposed to be. Finally after so much struggle, Jin's life got into the right way, the suffering of the man ended.
"I think a new era of KAT-TUN begins, but hey, from now on we have to get used to this?" Koki teased, pointing on the hugging pair. "I surely will be rich with all those paparazzi Akame photos. Priceless." He pushed his joke further and winked.
He was ignored by the pair and grabbed by the hem of his shirt by Nakamaru who pulled him out of the room. Pi was the only one who stayed with them, and as much as he wanted to give them time alone, he knew they had to head back to the hospital soon. Everything just felt so right, seeing Kazuya burying his face into Jin's neck while that was holding him tightly that he felt guilty for breaking the mood, but he had to. Unwillingly he stepped closer and drew the attention to him by speaking.
"Kame-chan, you have to go back to the hospital as you promised." He said lightly, seeing Kame only nod against Jin's skin, still snuggling as if it was the last day on Earth he could do so. As if being scared of separation again. This was a touching scene to Yamapi and a really heartwarming one. He won't need to watch the heartbreaking struggling of his best friend anymore and he was grateful to God for that.
Pi's words sank into Kame and he knew he must fulfill his promise, he can't act childish anymore. Being out of the bed after so long made him feel good but he had to admit, he felt a little tired. But at the same time so good he had never felt in his whole life. So warm, so secure so loved.
Jin looked at Pi, his arms still holding Kame tightly, but he loosened the grip hearing the words. His best friend was right. The most important thing now was to let Kazuya have proper medical care and rest. They will have plenty of time to enjoy each other's closeness from now on and Jin swore himself that he will protect the young man so precious to him for forever. He smiled down at his boyfriend with warm eyes, speaking in a reassuring voice. "I will go with you."
Kame looked up with shining eyes, nodding. It was still so incredibly unbelievable to him that he can respond to Jin.
"I will go after you, I have something to settle first." Yamapi said and signaled to the direction of the door. "Okay lovebirds, time to fly out of this cage."
After Jin and Kame was secure in a minibus of KAT-TUN, windows black, unable to look through and the car left next to row of fans in front of the parking lot who had no idea who was in the car, Yamapi used the backstage exit to go out. Fans were already on the way to the station, not many of them stayed near the dome, so he had a quite easy task to slip out unnoticed and of course in a hoodie. He went to the open parking lot, searching for Takahashi's taxi. He told the man that in case of emergency he should stay there until he comes back, of course he will pay for his service. No matter how hard he searched, the yellow car with the kind old man was nowhere to be seen. The real reason Pi wanted him to stay there was to thank, but it seemed he had to search for a different way. Takahashi surely had a good reason not to wait and Pi accepted it. Everything was settled and alright so there was no need for his service at the moment.
"Hey" Pi heard a voice from behind him. He turned around and saw T-TUN smiling at him.
"It was not fair you wanted to go alone to the hospital after Kame-chan and Jin." Koki smirked and grabbed the arm of the NewS leader, pulling him with the group to the other parking lot where a minibus was already waiting for them.
At the hospital the doctor examined Kame and recommended him to stay a week more, but Kazuya promised he will take care of himself and tried to persuade him to let him go home. First the doctor was hardheaded, he didn't want to allow it, but after Kazuya said he takes all the responsibility and reasoned that the checks made showed he was perfectly healthy he managed to press out a "yes" from the doctor. Jin assured the man that he is going to take care of Kazuya himself and of course there was also his parents. The only condition of the doctor was, if Kame didn't feel well, he comes back and stays for a while.
"And now you want to leave us alone again?" Koki faked a pout as the pair was about to go home from the hospital and T-TUN just arrived with Pi.
"I promise you can spend as much time as you want with Kazu-chan after we are back." Jin tried to get out as soon as possible, he couldn't wait to give Kame's family back their son. His heart raced just thinking about it.
"Watch out, I will take it as a promise Bakanishi." Koki smirked and winked at Kame, who just chuckled at his friend. "As much time as I want." The teasing in his voice was obvious and challenging, but Jin had his head full with the reunion to take it.
***
Kame's heart was beating fast in his chest as they were standing in front of the door of his house. For how long he waited for this, to meet his family with his lover on his side, to have full acceptance and understanding. Will his father really be kind even now that he actually sees them together?
"Ready?" Jin smiled at him and took his hand for a fleeting second, squeezing it.
The doorbell rang in the Kamenashi household and Kazuya was slightly trembling outside, holding Jin's hand tightly, waiting for the door to open. His heartbeat was fast and he knew as soon as he will see his family maybe he won't be able to suppress a few tears. He loved them so much and he caused them so much pain. They heard footsteps which were louder and louder, and the click of the door as they watched it open, holding their breaths.
Yuuya made the door fully open and the baseball ball he was holding in his hand fell onto the ground. The child looked wide eyed on his brother, his trembling lips were unable to speak. The two brothers were looking into each other's eyes for a while, both not able to form words from the happiness. The younger was who broke the spell and jumped into Kazuya's arms crying, holding the man as tightly as he could. Jin felt his heart soar in sky, it was so touching, how much he always wanted to give the family back their lost member. He knew he was not the cause of the accident but deep inside he always felt guilty and responsible of what had happened. Seeing everything in the right way was the best thing in the world.
He stepped into the house and saw Nao approaching them. The way he was standing he was blocking Kazuya and his brother, so the mother saw only him.
"Oh, Jin-kun, what happened?" She asked a little worried and that was when the singer realized the mother haven't noticed Kazuya yet. With a kind smile and eyes slightly wet he stepped away slowly to reveal the hugging brothers behind him.
Nao put her hand in front of her mouth surprised and the pleasant shock made her release her stress all at once, making her crystal clear tears flow down her face. Her son was finally home. She was hoping so much, she was praying so often for this to happen,and finally it became reality, or was this just an illusion? A dream? A hallucination because she wanted to see it that much?
"Kazu...ya..." She said, shaking as a leaf and Jin stepped to her to support her, smiling at her warmly, his heart jumping with joy. Kame let his brother go and run into his mother's arms, caressing her back as she cried. Kazuya was able to suppress his tears and was basking in the warmth of his mother's clinging embrace. They didn't say anything for a while, there was no need for words. The young man remembered the last time they hugged like this. It was so many years ago. He promised himself he will spend more time with his family from now on.
"Tadaima...mother." the singer whispered, still holding the woman he got his life from close and secure, trying to convey every gratefulness he felt and one stubborn teardrop escaped his eyes.
"Welcome home...Kazuya." Nao breathed back, still too shocked to speak normally.
Yuuya stood next to Jin and flung one of his arms around the man, patting his back friendly. Thinking about how much he hated Jin back then... He wouldn't ever imagine that he will be the most grateful to this same man. But it was all a misunderstanding and Yuuya was glad it was cleared and very satisfied with the outcome. His big brother, his star, deserves a caring man as Akanishi, not less.
Jin welcomed the gesture and looked down on the floor at the baseball. He was sure it belonged to Kazuya and that Yuuya was treasuring it as if it was made of gold.
"You know Yuuya, I am still grateful for your help. Thank you." Jin said, bending down to take the ball and gave it to the boy who accepted it with a smile.
"And I have to thank you for keeping your promise bringing big brother back." The youngest Kamenashi smiled, his eyes reflected the feeling he just declared.
"Nao, I can't find my keys." They heard Akihiko's voice from outside along with Kouji's and Yuuichirou's.
"Dad, I am sure it must be in the bag somewhere." the oldest of the brother stated with an impatient tone.
"I am cold, hurry up!" the whining was heard and Kazuya giggled. From inside the key was in the lock so even if they found theirs they couldn't enter.
"Let me." the young singer said with a huge smile and ran to the door, opening it to a scene where his brothers and father were almost buried in the shopping bag, already in competition who will find it first, none of them realizing the door was already opened.
"Opened already~" Kazuya singsonged, waiting for the reaction with racing heartbeat. Opened...Yes, another door opened. First, the door to life, now the door to a loving family.
All three man shot their heads up and Akihiko had to have a good grip on the bag not to let it fall. The world stopped turning as son and father were looking into each other's eyes. Thousands of words in their minds which they wanted to say, but none of them left their mouth. Instead a strong hug, shopping bag long forgotten on the floor as the father held his precious son tightly, trying to acknowledge the situation.
"You...strangle me..." Kazuya said fighting with tears again and chuckled a little.
The two older brothers were watching the scene with jaw dropped, but when they recovered from the surprise with a scream of "Bro!!!" soon Kame was enveloped in a group hug, standing in the middle and trying to breath laughing. So much love he received he felt in heaven. He felt as if fate wanted to compensate for all the time he have lost.
Soon they were already sitting around the dining table eating dinner. There was no need to worry, Kazuya realized as his father welcomed Jin and already treated him as a family member. It was so nice and so hard to believe. The situation which people say: too good to be true. But it was all reality, after all the cruel things they had been through it seemed the ending will be pleasant. Being in coma and having lived through so much pain and concern taught Kame to enjoy life more, the little things, let it be just a talk or a dinner. He enjoyed being free.
"It was a long day, are you okay? Aren't you too tired?" Jin asked worriedly as they headed to Kame's room and the younger tripped, almost falling.
"I am okay Jin." Kazuya reassured his lover, leaning on him, walking while Jin's supporting arms was around his waist from one side. He didn't feel sick, just his body was still very weak. Actually he was sure it was kind of a miracle he could actually get out of the bed, let alone walk this much, but they were surrounded with so many surreal things he didn't really think about it further. The way of God's can't be explained by a plain human and who was he to argue? His trail of thoughts were cut by Jin lifting him up and he shrieked surprised, but then he just circled his arms around Jin's neck, holding him tightly, nuzzling into his shoulder.
"Hey hey, if you will act this cute I am not sure I will be able to just sleep." Jin warned him with a devilish smirk and he pecked the top of Kame's head.
"Ooh~~ I am in danger!" The younger said with naughty eyes, though he was feeling how the tiredness steals his energy more and more.
Jin was not stupid and didn't plan anything adult for the night of course. Kame had to win his strength back first, resting a lot, sleeping a lot and relax. He put the young man down carefully onto the bed and almost melted as Kazuya smiled at him sweetly. He still couldn't really believe this was happening, but who was he to argue, so he crept under the blanket, taking his lover into his arms, enjoying how Kazuya snuggled as close as he could, resting his face in the crook of his neck.
"Do you remember the first time we slept in this bed?" He heard Kame asked chuckling and his breath was tickling Jin.
"Oh yes, you were so cute, snuggling to me in your sleep even that time." the older remembered back. It was so many years ago, when they were still children. Innocent little children, not knowing how cruel the world can be.
"It was you snuggling up to me." Kame looked up smirking, and their eyes met. Yes, this was how things were supposed to be. The affection that reflected in their eyes, the care for each other, the love...was a bond very few people could share in this world.
"Will you promise me, if I close my eyes the darkness won't take me away again?" Kazuya whispered into Jin's ears as he leaned closer, holding the man tighter.
"No matter what darkness awaits I will fight it all. I promise you Kazuya. It can't take you away. And never could." Jin caressed the soft cheek of the young boy with his finger, making Kame relaxed more and a soft sigh left the younger's lips. "I feel so good. Thank you Jin." With closed eyes he smiled, feeling as if he was lying on a cloud enveloped in soft warmness.
"Welcome back Kazuya." the older leant down, giving a long and loving kiss which the younger returned, caressing into Jin's hair, being as happy as never before.
Both of them knew soon they had to face Johnny and the world, but right now nothing else mattered just each other as they fell asleep in the warm embrace, wishing time to stop.
["I wish the same day could go on for forever
let's synchronize our days
the us yesterday who were soaked by rain
will open the door that connects with tomorrow
Always by your side, wherever, deeply
strongly, I felt our hands, holding each other tightly becoming one
I always want to tell you "Thank you"]
*****
A few days later Yamapi dialed the number of the driver. He owned the old man a lot and he knew that this present won't make up for all the good Takahashi did to them, but at least he hoped the man will enjoy the 1 week ticket to the most luxurious spa in Tokyo. With a smile, Pi reached for his phone and dialed the number.
"There is no user on the dialed number." He heard the automate reply and his eyes widened. Maybe he made some mistake, so he tried again getting the same result. Maybe something bad happened to the man? He started to feel worried. No matter who it was, who got that much involved to media often had little "accidents" and Pi totally didn't want the old man to be the next victim of those. He was not the type to just shrug something like this off and leave the matter without any further effort to try. He didn't have to think much on the next step: going to the taxi company and search for the man there.
At his only free day he got he went to the headquarter of the taxi company and went to the information desk at the reception.
"Good afternoon sir, in what can I help you?" A man in his mid forties asked, looking up and Pi was glad it was not a fangirl working there. As he thought the man didn't care who he was, just looked at him waiting for the answer.
"Good afternoon, I am searching for one of your company member. His name is Takahashi Nobuo."
The receptionist looked at him with furrowed eyebrows and then asked back.
"Are you sure in the name?"
Pi blinked and checked the name of the company. Maybe he was at the wrong place? But no, the name was the same so he kept on. "Yes. I am sure. He helped me a lot in these days and I am here to thank him. Please tell me where he is."
"Young man, please use your spare time to make jokes somewhere else, goodbye." The receptionist shook his head and his voice sounded really annoyed. Pi started to lose his patience.
"Look, if you don't tell me where he is, I will go and search him myself." The tone was wavering from irritation. Maybe it would be better if it was a fangirl...or at least a girl.
"You said Takahashi Nobuo? I can tell you where he is. He was my best friend, and is in the cemetery. He died two years ago in a car accident on a rainy day, there is no way you met him, now goodbye."
For a few moment Yamapi was just standing there, unable to move. Was this some kind of a joke? Not a very good one for sure, so he tried to call Takahashi again, with the same result. He decided to get to the end of this and looked the name up in google on his phone. A few links which didn't help much, then his eyes suddenly stopped at one of them which said "fatal taxi accident" and clicked onto it. He was stunned and was just standing there with wide eyes. The man on the photo was the same taxi driver who he was searching for to say thank you.
It was true. The man died in a car crash on a rainy day and he was not the fault. The reports said another car slipped on the road and the taxi driver turned his car the way to sacrifice himself for a man who was with him in the taxi, his grandson.
This was like a lightning struck to the young man and made him open his eyes. What makes people actually think they are alone in this universe? That only things exist what they can see and touch? That there is nothing beyond human mind and what seems illogical for it's system is equal to wrong or non existent? Maybe there is much more out there, around them what they can handle and understand.
'Because angels are always on the side of good people. Ever thought about you might be guarded from above?'
The sentences of the kind old man echoed in the head of the singer as he made his way out of the building and looked up at the cloudy sky.
"Thank you."
*****
To be continued
Next (final) chapter
AN: Sorry again for the loooong wait >___< I hope I didn't cause disappointment with this chapter and hoped you like it and it wasn't too corny, sappy, fluffy ^^;
The story is not over yet, so please look forward for the next chapter. :)
Songs used: KAT-TUN - Two, Akanishi Jin - Seasons
The translations belong to me.