#Fic# Call me anytime //Chapter 7//
Title: Call me anytime //Chapter 7//
Author: theblackheat & tanakakoki_fan
Pairing: Akame
Genre: Romance, Angst
Rating: NC-17
Warning: BETAed version later
Summary: Jin is a famous solo artist, working on his new album. Kame is a young man working in more part time jobs gaining money for his poor family. They don't know each other, but their life crosses by a lucky chance.
Banner by theblackheat
Previous Chapters:
Chapter 1 // Chapter 2 // Chapter 3// Chapter 4//Chapter 5//Chapter 6 part1 part2//
Update
Everything was a mess in Kame's head, his heart was still beating crazily as he tried to digest all the happenings. It was too much, he felt he will lose his mind. He was ashamed because of himself, of the letter, was it a good idea? Oh God... Oh my dear God. Why was Fernandez Akanishi Jin? It was just....a dream right? Kame couldn't decide if it was a nightmare or a sweet one. He would have never thought. He always wanted to meet Akanishi, but... he wanted to get ready for a meeting. And now... not only just a meeting but... he made love with the singer! His first lovemaking. No, no. It was just sex. For the other just sex, that was sure. The fear that grabbed Kazuya's heart and didn't let go was the realization which got stronger with each passing second: he was in love. Tho he shouldn't be.
What will he do from now on? He had to forget it, they will never ever speak again.
He was glad it was still early and his brothers were sleeping by the time he got home, because he didn't want them to see him in this state. They would be worried totally and well, now even he couldn't pretend poker face. He just ran up to his room, closed the door and collapsed onto his bed.
He didn't really feel sane anymore. His heartbeat was still unable to be calmed. How will he manage to be okay? Now, listening to Jin's CD was out of the question. He closed his eyes and took deep breaths. 'Calm down Kazuya, calm down' he repeated in himself. As time passed he managed to slow his racing heartbeat but he was sure, he was not able to go to work.
When the brothers woke up, he was already down, making breakfast. Even tho his heartbeat was back to normal, the many thoughts in his head mixing together made him a little oblivious to the surrounding.
Yuuya watched him with raised eyebrows from where he was sitting at the table and then looked at his brothers who returned the same questioning look. It was weird to see how Kazuya was pouring milk onto the cereals, but won't stop even it was dangerously full. Before Yuuya could warn his big brother, Kame already felt the wetness on his hand and it snapped him out of his world.
"Uhhh ohh" he looked down, seeing the bowl was full of milk which was already flowing down onto the floor. "Shit, huh." Kame grabbed a kitchen paper to wipe it up. The three students were looking at him with surprised faces, Yuuya slightly gaping.
"Kazu, are you okay?" Kouji asked when the young man finally managed to do it right, and started walking with the bowls in his hand towards the table.
"Ah, of course. I am fine." He tried to smile, but it was not very convincing.
"But you are limping." Yuuichirou pointed out and this caused Kame to blush and an image of the night before popped into his head making him more than embarrassed.
"Uhh ohh..ah this is nothing, I just tripped when coming home. But I am fine." Jeez... if it were not still children who he was speaking with, he would be seen through. Since when was he this terrible in lying? "By the way" he tried desperately to change the topic. "You will be late from school! Hurry!"
"Today is Saturday. We don't have school." Yuuya blinked.
Attempt: failed. "Ahh..really, then what about going to the zoo?"
To this, all three children gaped. Their older brother always had work, what happened today? He really seemed weird and the boys started to be curious and worried.
"You don't have to go to work?" the oldest of the three asked, getting suspicious.
"No, today I have holiday." Kame lied. Actually, he called in sick. He was not able to handle work in this state. And he couldn't concentrate on anything either, so it was impossible to go in. And the call center job... he won't go. No way he could. Not today.
After they ate their breakfast they started to get ready for the trip to the zoo. The children were so happy. It was really a rare occasion they could be together with their adored older brother, he was always so busy with work. Not that they didn't understand the work was necessary to live, so they supported Kazuya in everything.
On the way to the zoo they were smiling all the way, their eyes shining. Yuuya took Kame's hand and didn't let it go all the way, tho he was not that little anymore.
Arriving there, it was even more high-tension. They had never been in the zoo before. There was no money for ticket. Today was special day, they could enter for free so they finally could go in. What a coincidence that their brother had the day off today!
Watching the animals was also very fun, but they again got a little worried. Kame seemed enveloped in his thoughts, seeming to have some trouble and daydreaming the whole day. The children were positive something was off and they were dying to find the reason out. Who hurt their brother? It was the date, right?
They decided to ask him directly.
"Did your date go well?" This question caught Kazuya surprised, he didn't expect it and maybe he answered a little too quickly, before he really thought it over.
"Ah, he didn't come. There was no date at all." He tried to brush the subject off.
"HE?!" All three children shot their heads towards him immediately, shocked.
DAMN. "Ah...did I say...he? I meant heh, there was none." Kame was really in trouble what to say. He couldn't tell even his brothers. Even if they believed it... no, he must keep it in secret. He promised Jin and well, he didn't want to bother his family with his troubles. It was over anyway. There was nothing to talk about. He had to clear his mind and try hard to forget it. No one could help him.
"Kazu, you can trust us. We will help you in everything." Kouji said, looking into Kame's eyes with his innocent ones. This made the adult feel guilty. 'I am sorry, I can't tell this to you.'
"Thank you, but I am really fine." He smiled, trying to press the guiltiness away.
"Are you sure no one hurt you? If someone hurt you I will kick him and call every superhero to help me!" Yuuya said determined.
"Maybe we are still children, but we will protect you Kazu!!" Yuuichirou grabbed his hand to make his point more clear.
Kame looked from one brother to the other. They were so cute. He loved his family so much and was grateful to them. He had to gather himself together, for them too. Yes, he will be strong. He will be able to get through what happened. He will forget Fernandez. He can't just fall in love, being this irresponsible.
"Thank you my heros~" the young man chuckled, ruffling the hair of the kids. He decided he will do everything to just enjoy the time with his brothers, thinking about nothing else. Tho, he was afraid he will fail at forgetting the man who gave him such a new experience and feeling he still felt in his whole body.
***
Kame was looking at his watch. The zoo was about to close and they were already walking outside, heading home. Now not only Yuuya, but Kouji held his hand too, they were walking slowly, there was no need to rush. The day was fun, they were laughing a lot and it was good to see how the children were overly excited to see something new for the first time... but as he thought, it was impossible not to think about Jin. Just the fact that now he was giving something to his brothers which was first experience made him think about the different world he stepped into for a short while. He hated this situation. None of the kids were convinced about the fact he was alright and he could see the worry in their eyes sometimes. What should he do?...What could he do?
The more he tried to just relax and not to think about Akanishi, the more he popped into Kazuya's head. Love was really a cruel thing and sad at the same time. How did it feel when it was returned? If sex felt that good how did lovemaking feel? Or they were the same even without love?
"...right?" He looked at Yuuichirou who was walking in front of them and saw the raised eyebrows of the child. He must have asked something, but Kame didn't even hear it, he was so much in his thoughts.
"Uh..oh...what?"
The three kids looked at each other and were helpless of what to do. Maybe teasing their brother would be better? He would split something out? But the state the young man was in told the oldest of the three that teasing was too early yet.
"I asked you don't have to go to the night job either right?" This question made Kame look at his watch. It was not even 7 o'clock. He didn't call in yet he was sick, because he knew before 8 noone was there, but going in didn't even once crossed his mind.
Going in for what? Playing sex with unknown men? Now that he...actually lived it through and...no. He was not able to. At least not today. Tho he was afraid he won't be able to do that job ever again. Too many memories, too much stress and... maybe he couldn't play his part even for money anymore.
The time he spent with Jin...Fernandez...was not so long but changed everything in him. He felt lost and it was the feeling he hated the most. He was always living for one goal. Now it came true...better than he expected and worst at the same time. The shock was still big and he knew he needed rest. Needed to be out of it for a while.
Jin won't call him ever again, so what's the point in going in? It was obvious Jin didn't want anything from him, else he would have asked his phone number. And of course he wouldn't want anything. No matter he was not the playboy as his image showed and was not a bad man at all, but he was still Akanishi Jin. Living in a different world than Kazuya did.
Sometimes Kame just wished the playboy, fucker, heartbreaker image of Akanishi would be true, if it was, now he wouldn't be this desperate and longing. How coward he is thinking like that. Kame shook his head and realized he still hadn't replied the question.
"No, I don't have to. I have holiday." He smiled sweetly and nodded his head, acting as if really everything was alright. What actually saved him from further questions was the snow that started to fall, making the kids excited. They were not that little, but they loved snow. They started to run around, trying to catch the fragile crystal in their hands, exclaiming happily when they succeded. Tho it melted right away.
Kame sighed. The snow crystal was just the same as he was. Getting caught by Jin's warm hand, but just to reach his doom, to melt away completely.
***
Because the snow was falling hard, as they reached home in 30 minutes, there was enough on the ground to make a few snowballs. The kids were enthusiastically throwing them at each other, trying hard to collect all they could tho it was still not that much. For a little while Kame was outside, watching them with a faint smile, but then he remembered he had a phonecall to make.
He tried to be careful, sneaking back into the house not to get noticed. He didn't want either of his brothers to hear the phonecall, he would be found out then.
However Yuuichirou caught a glimpse of his oldest brother enter the house and decided he will follow quietly. Maybe Kame just went to toilet, but who knows? The kids did everything to find out what can be the problem. The child signaled the others to keep playing, he didn't want Kazuya to notice he was following him.
"Yes, I am sorry, I feel really sick, I can't go in today. Yes.....okay...thank you." was what Yuuichirou heard and this made him sure, there really was some problem. Kame never lied to them, but did now. There was something he didn't want to tell even them and if it was the case, the problem must be really big. How could he find out what it was? Asking it won't bring any result, he was sure in that. He had to set a plan up.
***
„It will fall down I tell you.” Ben burst out in laughter on the umpteenth time that day at his friend’s expense.
“Fuck the HELL of and lemme hung!” Jin was more than angry by now after he got home and his best buddy joined him to torture his nerves.
After Kazu-chan left the hotel room he was sitting on the bed for more than twenty minutes and replayed the happenings in his head. Not that he was shorter if it went to smartness, but waking up suddenly of the younger being ready to sneaking out only leaving a note to him on the bedside table was not what he expected. Though he decided to call the boy as soon as possible he had plenty of time left until that. More time for Ben to tease him and his sore wounds. He didn’t need time to notice the aftereffects of their little wild night when he got up and headed to the bathroom. His groin was in pain and used up. Well his love stick was in charge last night and completed its mission after all.
When Jin arrived home he was thankful that he didn’t have to go anywhere, and when Ben called him to meet he lied being busy and staying home. When it goes for Ben, who is wealthier then Jin when we talk about smartness, than it didn’t take much time to see through the lie and he showed up soon in Akanishi’s front-door. For the singer's misfortune he was found home by his buddy while lying on one of his fancy couch with a big pack of ice on his groin. Since then his friend was busy with making fun of his miserable state and questioning the details.
Ben on the other side was having his fun and just couldn’t handle it like a serious conversation. When he got his breathing back and his brain started to work again on the topic, he turned to Jin with almost regretting look and patted his friend’s shoulder. But instead of the words of encouragement he started to sing Jay Sean’s and Lil’ Wayne’s hit-song.
“So baby don’t worry,
You are my only,
You won’t be lonely,
Even if your dinky is falling down,
You’ll be my only,
No need to worry,
Baby are you down, down, down, down, down…”
That was more than there should be for Jin in that moment and he threw his ice bag into the singing man’s face without thinking.
“FUCK YAAA BEEEEN! You are not helpful at all. Get me a beer, dude.” the singer shouted after his buddy who escaped into the direction of the kitchen.
Ben headed back with two cans and a new pack of ice from the freezer and took place next to the grumpy man still grinning.
“Here are your cubes and the beer. You are sure you don’t want an ice stick too? I’m your fucking best buddy and won’t tell anyone if your lil’ boy-hole was racked as well.”
“Shutup! I don’t need fucking stick. I told you already we went too wild that’s all.” Jin huffed at the grinning man and gulped a long from his drink.
“Wild? That guy must have bitten your cock! At least, that was the first thing I could think about when I saw you after I stepped in.”
“No, he didn’t bite me.”
“… and what about the guy? Is he still in alive? I mean if your dick is almost falling down….”
“IT’S NOT FALLING DOWN Why can’t you get it?”
“Okay, I’m not deaf, man!” Ben pulled away from his whining friend and continued “ I mean if you are in this miserable state now how is the guy? Dead?”
“When he hurried out from the room he didn’t seemed to be like that.” Jin pondered about that question, but he couldn’t notice any kind of sign that would mean Kazuya is in bad state. He was enough worried because he had to wait for calling the younger and ask him, but Ben’s idiotic questions made him even more. “I hope there was nothing… hmm… maybe he is limping but… I hope he is okay. Anyway I will call him as soon as he is in shift.”
“Why haven’t you called already? It’s a rule you can call him only at the call center?”
“No. I would have called… I… already , but I forgot to ask that FUCKING PHONENUMBER!!!” Jin shouted again with anger and his can flew against the opposite wall with a loud clash. For the luck of the clean staff it was almost empty and didn’t splash all over on the wallpaper.
In a flat opposite to Ben’s beer which spurted out of his mouth like a geyser leaving marks at the luxurious bright carpet.
“Y-you… for…forgot to …a-ask? Whatta?” the poor man almost drowned in his drink and coughed for his life while forming the words.
“I was busy okay? First he behaved strange, then almost run away but we ended in bed mixed up and early in the morning he rode out like a rocket.”
“You’re a dope, man!”
“Get to fuck Ben! Give over.”
“You’re lame! Though I want to know how your fairytale is going on. When do you call the hotline? Do you have any plan?”
“At 10PM. His shift is starting then. Hm… well I didn’t put any plan on just want to talk to him and check if he is okay, and if he wants to meet me again… soon.”
“And if he doesn’t want to? If he thinks ‘oh, that bastard cracked my virgin ass like a tin-opener’?”
Akanishi narrowed his eyes looking at Ben while that disguised his voice acting like a hysterical transy. As far as he could remember he was more than carefully with Kazuya’s virgin hole. Not to mention the younger was who rode him eagerly. On that hot image, that burned into his head for eternity, his member answered with a painfully twitch. “I don’t think so.”
“OK. Than version B: he goes out with you again and maybe you can hump him again, if your cock won’t break down… again.”
“It won’t. It’s still not… just a little sensitive that’s all. Anyway If I can meet him again I won’t stay away from him for sure and if he will be just half as eager as last time I will have my ticket into his pants, yeah!” The two of them slapped their thumbs together in reunion while Ben was repeating ‘Yeah’ as well.
“Do you have any longer plan with that guy?” the question just popped out from Ben after a while and he watched at the singer’s expression. “You seem to be fallen (?) for him already.”
Akanishi was staring at his new can of beer that his friend handed him not long ago. Well, it sounded not totally incredible. He wanted to spend more time with Kazuya, that’s sure and later… they will see what will be later. He doesn’t have to rush or something. Not like on his first date, oh no. He won’t lose his head again. That must have been his suppressed sexual urge. The case of his behave or … Kazuya’s alluring body and blood boiling moans, not to mentions the guy’s dominating side which showed up for a little when Kazu-chan climbed over Jin and rode him like a wild cat.
The loud noise of the bell dragged him back to reality and he turned to Ben with wide eyes. Who the hell is that? He haven’t waited guests and they were already one more than enough. When he opened the door, Daiki stood there with two pack of pepperoni pizza and box of beer grinning at Jin like an idiot. Well maybe that guy was his other best friend if you can call him like that, but mostly when they clubbed around. The big mouth of Daiki was more dangerous than Ben’s and if they team up … great shit, he is better to step off before that moment, but it was more than late. The black haired man was ready to open his mouth again.
“Yo man! I’ve heard your yellow anaconda is broken, here is some cold beer for your buddy.”
“Fine, just fine.” He turned back to the sitting man who acted totally innocently. “Did you post it onto the Facebook or twitter?”
“Why do you ask ME?” Ben huffed back shocked.
“’Sup Benny boy?” Daiki wasn’t paying attention to the pained expression of Akanishi just stepped into the fancy flat and placed the food and the drink onto the kitchen counter. “You might need some bright shoulder to cry on, dude. Here is mine.” he patted his right side offering to Jin.
“I won’t cry on your shoulder, jegga.”
“It’s okay, it will stay between us.” The black haired pulled the singer closer for a friendly hug by his shoulder and changed his voice like a real actor. “If my cock broke down, I would cry like a baby. The bitch kicked your precious one?”
“No, it was bitten.” Ben cut in.
“BITTEN? WHATTA? That slut!" Daiki gaped turning his head back and forth between the two men.
“It was a turtle. I think it will fall down in the end.”
“It won’t fall down and was not bitten. Face it up!” Jin huffed angrily and curled up to the other side of the couch grumpily placing his ice-pack back onto its former place.
The last two hours were spent like that with pepperoni pizza, beer and two-bit jokes at Jin’s cost and of course more beer until they were wasted. Even Jin couldn’t resist laughing with the guys mostly because he was more than tipsy. Just after 10PM he jumped up and searched for his iPhone.
“I have a… c-call… dudes. My turtle is waiting for me!”
“Wohoo!” the two men howled in union.
“Yes, have a safe sex. On phone… haha.” Daiki burst out laughing. “You won’t lose your cock like that.”
“Yeah! Phone-sex!” Ben cheered and lifted his can to clink.
“I’m gonna have… p-phone-sex… alone. I mean… with Kazu-chan.”
“Hey! The screw, I was to try something new.” Daiki whined to Jin “You could share your wild turtle for a bit. I’m so fucking curious how a phone sex is goin’.”
“The HELL I will share. Call another hotline, jackhole!”
“Ben, tell him something! I was okay with our treesome, we have fun ne? Your freshly found ex-virgin ass would be the cherry on the cake. Yey for cherry-ass!”
The two wasted man huddled up to Akanishi to listen to the conversation and stood pat until Jin gave up and called the well-known number impatiently. After some rings a strange voice greeted him. It was not Kazuya’s and after Jin was told Kazuya was not in he hung the phone up annoyed.
“Noooooo, no cherry ass for tonight! What a shit.” Daiki sang bitterly.
Maybe he was still on holiday Jin thought swapping away the worried thoughts. Anyway tomorrow he will have another chance and another call. And if Kazu-chan won’t show up he’s going to turn off the whole words for his cherry ass that’s sure.
***
The next day Kame managed to gather himself together. He chose to bury himself into work. If he did so, he didn't have so much time to think about Akanishi which was a good thing. Tho luck was not always on his side. Whenever he went to convenient store to buy himself something to drink or buy his lunch, Jin's song was played in radio.
"Why is fate so cruel to me?" He sighed as he left the little shop. That singing voice...those eyes and arms...hugging him... He shook his head and shut his eyes. He was again thinking about Jin!! No no no! Why was it so painful and so hard to forget? What could he do? If he had to go on like this for long he was certain he will go crazy.
The daytime work passed slowly, sometimes he caught himself daydreaming and his the weird stare of his colleagues told him his behavior was not as it used to be.
He knew his brothers were still worried too. They must have noticed the drastic change in him too and as they looked at him sometimes it tore his heart apart. But he couldn't possibly just tell them what had happened. They are still young and anyway, it wouldn't be the right choice. Kazuya promised himself he will cope with this alone. He had to be strong.
When he finished work it was already 7 in the evening. He was more exhausted than other times. Maybe because now not only his physical strength but his thinking nonstop and worrying over things caused more energy waste.
He was again so deep in his thoughts he didn't even realized he automatically turned at the corner and walking on the road to his nightshift work. Only when he looked at his watch his heart skipped a beat. Evening... soon night and then...
His steps became more and more unsure as he realized where he was heading to. Was he ready already? Can he handle it? He didn't really know. His stubbornness made him take little steps forward, but his mind and heart told him to just stop and run home.
But...What was he? A coward? No!
He continued with more determined steps, but as he was really near he hesitated again. What would be the best decision? He looked up at the building and sighed. For long minutes he was just watching it, trying to clear his mind but then looked down.
It has nothing to do with being coward, it was the most natural thing to do not to tear the scar up before it could heal. What good would it bring if he went in? He was sure he couldn't concentrate. It meant no good service, it meant scolding and maybe it would even have consequences for later and his future. He couldn't let that happen.
He didn't run, but he turned away and started to walk. Slowly...trying to calm himself it was the best he could do.
"Hello" He said into the phone. "I am very sorry but my doctor said I should stay at home one more day."
***
Next day exactly at 10 o’ clock Akanishi pulled his iPhone out of his pocket and called the certain number which he so eagerly waited for all day long. The line was broken by a familiar voice, but not Kazuya’s.
"Hello there my dear, here is Hide, where should I start?"
"Helo, it's Ji... Fernandez. I wanted to talk to Kazuya, is he in now?"
Ji...? Hide narrowed his eyes. Again the same boy and what's this ‘JI’? He seemed to be in a very intimate relationship with Kazuya, because of how he called him. Everyone here called the hotline boys as they introduce themselves and Kazuya had the Kazu-chan nickname.
"Oh, he is not here Ji, play with me instead prettyboy."
“He won’t be in tonight again? Is he sick?”
"Oh worrying much?" Hide chuckled "Maybe he will, maybe he won't~ why am I not good?"
Jin sighed irritated. He wanted to get some news about Kazuya instead of chatting with this Hide-guy. Especially not with him.
“If you are that good you could tell me when he is on shift again.”
"Hey hey prettyboy. There is no relationship with us in line, you have no right to ask for Kazu-chan. Maybe he is very sick, who knows? But why would it interest you?" He asked in a playful, amused voice.
“Yes, I know… not be personal” he murmured to himself and tried to calm down a bit. “So Hide-kun what is that you are so good in? Huh?”
"Well my dear, I could satisfy all of your needs more than Kazu-chan ever could." He gave a kissing sound.
“Oh, really? Why do you know he doesn’t?” Jin pointed at the teasing man.
"A virgin? C’mon!" Hide laughed. "So, what's your real name Ji?" His voice was low.
Not that Akanishi really wanted to know what the guy could give him. Only the other man’s voice made the opposite effect on him compare to Kazu-chan’s. Imagining this guy moan his name into the line made him disgusted and irritated, but Hide-kun seemed to be very clever as well.
“Virgin? Haha… don’t fuck with me. For you Fernandez.”
"For me? And for the world dear... Ji?" He got suspicious; he heard this voice before "Maybe I know you prettyboy?" He liked to provoke people; it was always fun for him.
"Maybe, maybe not. But I'm busy so Hide-kun it was nice to hear of you."
"Hey, don't you want to know which hospital Kazu-chan is in?" He giggled.
"H-hospital???" his heart left out a beat and voice became high repeating the word. This fucker just playing with him, isn't it?
As Hide thought. This man, whoever he is was really close to Kazuya, he could tell from the reaction. How interesting.
"I am sorry I can only give further information to his boyfriend."
Jin’s fingers tightened around his mobile in anger and he was ready to beat out of the shit from Hide-kun. He mustn’t fell out of his role. You are better actor then this Akanishi!
“B-boyfriend? Haha… It’s not my business.”
"Oh, you didn't know he has a boyfriend? But oh maybe he hasn't. I see you love him very much. Hmmm" He was really playing with the other now.
“… and his boyfriend allows him to work in a hotline?”
"Do you allow him?" He enjoyed playing with this Fernandez guy.
“NO! I mean… I’m not his boyfriend. What’s that shit anyway?”
"You sound like one hahahahah" Hide changed his voice to more seductive. "Or can I have him?"
This conversation definitely wasn’t going in the way Jin wanted to be. What this little bitch wanted from him? If pissing him, he was the best way to that. He sighed again and lowered his voice.
“Look Hide-kun. I wanted to ask something from Kazu-chan that’s it. I don’t know what is with you and what do you want from me at all. I don’t understand your misty blabbing. Would you tell me what the fuck you want from me?”
"Oh, why are you so angry? I want nothing from you. You want something from me."
“Kazu-chan’s whereabouts. Do you know or you have no clues?”
"I have no clues dear, I am sorry." He laughed.
“Oh, shit!” Jin growled at into the line. “Than what was the whole shitting about it? You are really mean to your customers, don’t you?”
"We work for money dear, I am sure you have a workplace too~ You know, this hotline cost a lot and as longer you stay in the line as much the guy who you call gets as pocket money." He explained.
“I’m not that dumb. If you wanted to raise your salary with my call you should have told me at first. A little exchange for your information.” the world works like that, he knew it pretty well. “… and now after you told me what you know, I thank you for your little chat and go.”
"Oh, are you disappointed you couldn't talk to your only one, Casanova? Will wait for your call again~ Byebye!" Hide singsonged.
Akanishi cut the line and threw his poor phone into the next corner of the room. His anger boiled in his veins just as the worry towards Kazuya ate him inside. This brat was the top of everything making fun of him and pissing him. If he wouldn’t be the famous singer he would go there and drown Hide-kun with his bare hands. But in his case the only thing he could do suppress this feeling with strong alcohol.
***
The meeting in the recording studio checking new tracks was a somewhat refreshing for Jin on the next day. Though he had a little hangover he was able to throw himself into the work and took his mind off Kazuya and his worry for the guy. It was evening when he realized that he didn’t take a break even for eating. If it went for the music he was a workaholic bastard he couldn’t deny. When they decided to call it a day and continue on next one his collages asked if he wanted to join for a dinner with them, Akanishi agreed to.
They settled in the nearest small restaurant and ordered a bunch of food from ramen to yakiniku. After the tiring day they were still high and chatted around while more and more beer landed on their table with delicious meal. The atmosphere was lazy as always. It was not the first time they spent some hours away from studio. Jin felt if they weren’t just colleges but close friends as well. He liked to stay with them time to time and listen to the conversations about one’s family stories or other’s new girlfriend.
This time he caught himself again and again, that he was checking his watch impatiently. The last two hours seemed to drag itself nerve-rackingly slowly along. He couldn’t follow the others anymore and when he was asked something and realized that he didn’t even hear the question. Only the mentioning of his name drove him back to the reality, Jin decided to excuse himself and headed home to his fancy apartment.
After he closed his door he mixed a big bottle from his favorite cocktails and settled with that into his home studio. Playing on his guitar would do to kill time until he can make the call to the hotline. Yes, he was still there and didn’t give up so easily. The first thought was to find the call center and demand for Kazu-chan, just after he broke Hide-kun’s neck of course.
Instead of that he sipped his drink and started to play a familiar song he remembered while thinking of the younger man. If Kazuya is just avoiding him and offended with him the last he can do is to sing a cheesy song for him. He was not that good in talking especially not in apologies. He was living for music and if it makes him calm down then it would help get Kazuya back.
Akanishi made the instrument sound under his fingers and hummed the melody, then the words slowly showing their way through his lips as he started to sing softly.
“You're better than the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler than the flip side of my pillow,
that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where You send me,
let’s me know that it's okay
Yeah, it's okay
And the moments where my good times start to fade
You make me smile like the sun,
fall out of bed, sing like bird,
dizzy in my head, spin like a record,
crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile
Even when you're gone,
Somehow you come along just like
A flower pokin' through the sidewalk crack
And just like that
You steal away the rain, and just like that
You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed
Sing like bird, dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile… ”
Just when he finished he felt totally relaxed and a wide smile appeared on his face recalling all of the memories which they shared with Kazuya until now. His heart was filled with hope and knew for sure he can talk to the younger man again. Just as he called the hotline at the first time and when they met, was fate. It won’t end up like this. It can’t end like this.
Jin kept playing some random melodies until the pointer showed ten. He took his phone and whispered a ‘please’ before dialing the number.
***
Kame decided he can’t be so coward and face reality. He needed the money and anyway, the saying says “What makes your fear disappear is to look it into the eye, to face it.” He was positive he could do it. Thinking about his family made him stronger and he was a man after all. Meetings and partings come in a set and the memories are to be cherished. Life is too short to worry for every little thing. What happened, happened. The future is the future what everyone has to face. So he decided to beat his coward self, go to the hotline and trying to do everything like he did before the first call from Fernandez. It was work after all and he wanted to be professional.
He was sitting at his desk, waiting for the first call with a firm face. He WILL manage it! The phone started to ring and he took a deep breath, answered it but before he could say even an introduction the caller spoke first.
"Hi, is Kazu-chan there?"
Kame almost dropped the phone hearing the familiar voice and his eyes widened, body went numb from shock. As if he was not even conscious for a few seconds. The voice he thought he won't ever hear directed towards him, he heard the first time that day in work. His heart skipped a few beats then started to throb in his throat, he was unable to form words and it seemed time stopped. Why? What can he say?
The walls he again put around himself and the effort to keep the strongness collapsed miserably and he was just sitting there, phone in hand, unable to respond.
***************
To be continued
Next: Chapter 8
Author: theblackheat & tanakakoki_fan
Pairing: Akame
Genre: Romance, Angst
Rating: NC-17
Warning: BETAed version later
Summary: Jin is a famous solo artist, working on his new album. Kame is a young man working in more part time jobs gaining money for his poor family. They don't know each other, but their life crosses by a lucky chance.
Banner by theblackheat
Previous Chapters:
Chapter 1 // Chapter 2 // Chapter 3// Chapter 4//Chapter 5//Chapter 6 part1 part2//
Update
Everything was a mess in Kame's head, his heart was still beating crazily as he tried to digest all the happenings. It was too much, he felt he will lose his mind. He was ashamed because of himself, of the letter, was it a good idea? Oh God... Oh my dear God. Why was Fernandez Akanishi Jin? It was just....a dream right? Kame couldn't decide if it was a nightmare or a sweet one. He would have never thought. He always wanted to meet Akanishi, but... he wanted to get ready for a meeting. And now... not only just a meeting but... he made love with the singer! His first lovemaking. No, no. It was just sex. For the other just sex, that was sure. The fear that grabbed Kazuya's heart and didn't let go was the realization which got stronger with each passing second: he was in love. Tho he shouldn't be.
What will he do from now on? He had to forget it, they will never ever speak again.
He was glad it was still early and his brothers were sleeping by the time he got home, because he didn't want them to see him in this state. They would be worried totally and well, now even he couldn't pretend poker face. He just ran up to his room, closed the door and collapsed onto his bed.
He didn't really feel sane anymore. His heartbeat was still unable to be calmed. How will he manage to be okay? Now, listening to Jin's CD was out of the question. He closed his eyes and took deep breaths. 'Calm down Kazuya, calm down' he repeated in himself. As time passed he managed to slow his racing heartbeat but he was sure, he was not able to go to work.
When the brothers woke up, he was already down, making breakfast. Even tho his heartbeat was back to normal, the many thoughts in his head mixing together made him a little oblivious to the surrounding.
Yuuya watched him with raised eyebrows from where he was sitting at the table and then looked at his brothers who returned the same questioning look. It was weird to see how Kazuya was pouring milk onto the cereals, but won't stop even it was dangerously full. Before Yuuya could warn his big brother, Kame already felt the wetness on his hand and it snapped him out of his world.
"Uhhh ohh" he looked down, seeing the bowl was full of milk which was already flowing down onto the floor. "Shit, huh." Kame grabbed a kitchen paper to wipe it up. The three students were looking at him with surprised faces, Yuuya slightly gaping.
"Kazu, are you okay?" Kouji asked when the young man finally managed to do it right, and started walking with the bowls in his hand towards the table.
"Ah, of course. I am fine." He tried to smile, but it was not very convincing.
"But you are limping." Yuuichirou pointed out and this caused Kame to blush and an image of the night before popped into his head making him more than embarrassed.
"Uhh ohh..ah this is nothing, I just tripped when coming home. But I am fine." Jeez... if it were not still children who he was speaking with, he would be seen through. Since when was he this terrible in lying? "By the way" he tried desperately to change the topic. "You will be late from school! Hurry!"
"Today is Saturday. We don't have school." Yuuya blinked.
Attempt: failed. "Ahh..really, then what about going to the zoo?"
To this, all three children gaped. Their older brother always had work, what happened today? He really seemed weird and the boys started to be curious and worried.
"You don't have to go to work?" the oldest of the three asked, getting suspicious.
"No, today I have holiday." Kame lied. Actually, he called in sick. He was not able to handle work in this state. And he couldn't concentrate on anything either, so it was impossible to go in. And the call center job... he won't go. No way he could. Not today.
After they ate their breakfast they started to get ready for the trip to the zoo. The children were so happy. It was really a rare occasion they could be together with their adored older brother, he was always so busy with work. Not that they didn't understand the work was necessary to live, so they supported Kazuya in everything.
On the way to the zoo they were smiling all the way, their eyes shining. Yuuya took Kame's hand and didn't let it go all the way, tho he was not that little anymore.
Arriving there, it was even more high-tension. They had never been in the zoo before. There was no money for ticket. Today was special day, they could enter for free so they finally could go in. What a coincidence that their brother had the day off today!
Watching the animals was also very fun, but they again got a little worried. Kame seemed enveloped in his thoughts, seeming to have some trouble and daydreaming the whole day. The children were positive something was off and they were dying to find the reason out. Who hurt their brother? It was the date, right?
They decided to ask him directly.
"Did your date go well?" This question caught Kazuya surprised, he didn't expect it and maybe he answered a little too quickly, before he really thought it over.
"Ah, he didn't come. There was no date at all." He tried to brush the subject off.
"HE?!" All three children shot their heads towards him immediately, shocked.
DAMN. "Ah...did I say...he? I meant heh, there was none." Kame was really in trouble what to say. He couldn't tell even his brothers. Even if they believed it... no, he must keep it in secret. He promised Jin and well, he didn't want to bother his family with his troubles. It was over anyway. There was nothing to talk about. He had to clear his mind and try hard to forget it. No one could help him.
"Kazu, you can trust us. We will help you in everything." Kouji said, looking into Kame's eyes with his innocent ones. This made the adult feel guilty. 'I am sorry, I can't tell this to you.'
"Thank you, but I am really fine." He smiled, trying to press the guiltiness away.
"Are you sure no one hurt you? If someone hurt you I will kick him and call every superhero to help me!" Yuuya said determined.
"Maybe we are still children, but we will protect you Kazu!!" Yuuichirou grabbed his hand to make his point more clear.
Kame looked from one brother to the other. They were so cute. He loved his family so much and was grateful to them. He had to gather himself together, for them too. Yes, he will be strong. He will be able to get through what happened. He will forget Fernandez. He can't just fall in love, being this irresponsible.
"Thank you my heros~" the young man chuckled, ruffling the hair of the kids. He decided he will do everything to just enjoy the time with his brothers, thinking about nothing else. Tho, he was afraid he will fail at forgetting the man who gave him such a new experience and feeling he still felt in his whole body.
***
Kame was looking at his watch. The zoo was about to close and they were already walking outside, heading home. Now not only Yuuya, but Kouji held his hand too, they were walking slowly, there was no need to rush. The day was fun, they were laughing a lot and it was good to see how the children were overly excited to see something new for the first time... but as he thought, it was impossible not to think about Jin. Just the fact that now he was giving something to his brothers which was first experience made him think about the different world he stepped into for a short while. He hated this situation. None of the kids were convinced about the fact he was alright and he could see the worry in their eyes sometimes. What should he do?...What could he do?
The more he tried to just relax and not to think about Akanishi, the more he popped into Kazuya's head. Love was really a cruel thing and sad at the same time. How did it feel when it was returned? If sex felt that good how did lovemaking feel? Or they were the same even without love?
"...right?" He looked at Yuuichirou who was walking in front of them and saw the raised eyebrows of the child. He must have asked something, but Kame didn't even hear it, he was so much in his thoughts.
"Uh..oh...what?"
The three kids looked at each other and were helpless of what to do. Maybe teasing their brother would be better? He would split something out? But the state the young man was in told the oldest of the three that teasing was too early yet.
"I asked you don't have to go to the night job either right?" This question made Kame look at his watch. It was not even 7 o'clock. He didn't call in yet he was sick, because he knew before 8 noone was there, but going in didn't even once crossed his mind.
Going in for what? Playing sex with unknown men? Now that he...actually lived it through and...no. He was not able to. At least not today. Tho he was afraid he won't be able to do that job ever again. Too many memories, too much stress and... maybe he couldn't play his part even for money anymore.
The time he spent with Jin...Fernandez...was not so long but changed everything in him. He felt lost and it was the feeling he hated the most. He was always living for one goal. Now it came true...better than he expected and worst at the same time. The shock was still big and he knew he needed rest. Needed to be out of it for a while.
Jin won't call him ever again, so what's the point in going in? It was obvious Jin didn't want anything from him, else he would have asked his phone number. And of course he wouldn't want anything. No matter he was not the playboy as his image showed and was not a bad man at all, but he was still Akanishi Jin. Living in a different world than Kazuya did.
Sometimes Kame just wished the playboy, fucker, heartbreaker image of Akanishi would be true, if it was, now he wouldn't be this desperate and longing. How coward he is thinking like that. Kame shook his head and realized he still hadn't replied the question.
"No, I don't have to. I have holiday." He smiled sweetly and nodded his head, acting as if really everything was alright. What actually saved him from further questions was the snow that started to fall, making the kids excited. They were not that little, but they loved snow. They started to run around, trying to catch the fragile crystal in their hands, exclaiming happily when they succeded. Tho it melted right away.
Kame sighed. The snow crystal was just the same as he was. Getting caught by Jin's warm hand, but just to reach his doom, to melt away completely.
***
Because the snow was falling hard, as they reached home in 30 minutes, there was enough on the ground to make a few snowballs. The kids were enthusiastically throwing them at each other, trying hard to collect all they could tho it was still not that much. For a little while Kame was outside, watching them with a faint smile, but then he remembered he had a phonecall to make.
He tried to be careful, sneaking back into the house not to get noticed. He didn't want either of his brothers to hear the phonecall, he would be found out then.
However Yuuichirou caught a glimpse of his oldest brother enter the house and decided he will follow quietly. Maybe Kame just went to toilet, but who knows? The kids did everything to find out what can be the problem. The child signaled the others to keep playing, he didn't want Kazuya to notice he was following him.
"Yes, I am sorry, I feel really sick, I can't go in today. Yes.....okay...thank you." was what Yuuichirou heard and this made him sure, there really was some problem. Kame never lied to them, but did now. There was something he didn't want to tell even them and if it was the case, the problem must be really big. How could he find out what it was? Asking it won't bring any result, he was sure in that. He had to set a plan up.
***
„It will fall down I tell you.” Ben burst out in laughter on the umpteenth time that day at his friend’s expense.
“Fuck the HELL of and lemme hung!” Jin was more than angry by now after he got home and his best buddy joined him to torture his nerves.
After Kazu-chan left the hotel room he was sitting on the bed for more than twenty minutes and replayed the happenings in his head. Not that he was shorter if it went to smartness, but waking up suddenly of the younger being ready to sneaking out only leaving a note to him on the bedside table was not what he expected. Though he decided to call the boy as soon as possible he had plenty of time left until that. More time for Ben to tease him and his sore wounds. He didn’t need time to notice the aftereffects of their little wild night when he got up and headed to the bathroom. His groin was in pain and used up. Well his love stick was in charge last night and completed its mission after all.
When Jin arrived home he was thankful that he didn’t have to go anywhere, and when Ben called him to meet he lied being busy and staying home. When it goes for Ben, who is wealthier then Jin when we talk about smartness, than it didn’t take much time to see through the lie and he showed up soon in Akanishi’s front-door. For the singer's misfortune he was found home by his buddy while lying on one of his fancy couch with a big pack of ice on his groin. Since then his friend was busy with making fun of his miserable state and questioning the details.
Ben on the other side was having his fun and just couldn’t handle it like a serious conversation. When he got his breathing back and his brain started to work again on the topic, he turned to Jin with almost regretting look and patted his friend’s shoulder. But instead of the words of encouragement he started to sing Jay Sean’s and Lil’ Wayne’s hit-song.
“So baby don’t worry,
You are my only,
You won’t be lonely,
Even if your dinky is falling down,
You’ll be my only,
No need to worry,
Baby are you down, down, down, down, down…”
That was more than there should be for Jin in that moment and he threw his ice bag into the singing man’s face without thinking.
“FUCK YAAA BEEEEN! You are not helpful at all. Get me a beer, dude.” the singer shouted after his buddy who escaped into the direction of the kitchen.
Ben headed back with two cans and a new pack of ice from the freezer and took place next to the grumpy man still grinning.
“Here are your cubes and the beer. You are sure you don’t want an ice stick too? I’m your fucking best buddy and won’t tell anyone if your lil’ boy-hole was racked as well.”
“Shutup! I don’t need fucking stick. I told you already we went too wild that’s all.” Jin huffed at the grinning man and gulped a long from his drink.
“Wild? That guy must have bitten your cock! At least, that was the first thing I could think about when I saw you after I stepped in.”
“No, he didn’t bite me.”
“… and what about the guy? Is he still in alive? I mean if your dick is almost falling down….”
“IT’S NOT FALLING DOWN Why can’t you get it?”
“Okay, I’m not deaf, man!” Ben pulled away from his whining friend and continued “ I mean if you are in this miserable state now how is the guy? Dead?”
“When he hurried out from the room he didn’t seemed to be like that.” Jin pondered about that question, but he couldn’t notice any kind of sign that would mean Kazuya is in bad state. He was enough worried because he had to wait for calling the younger and ask him, but Ben’s idiotic questions made him even more. “I hope there was nothing… hmm… maybe he is limping but… I hope he is okay. Anyway I will call him as soon as he is in shift.”
“Why haven’t you called already? It’s a rule you can call him only at the call center?”
“No. I would have called… I… already , but I forgot to ask that FUCKING PHONENUMBER!!!” Jin shouted again with anger and his can flew against the opposite wall with a loud clash. For the luck of the clean staff it was almost empty and didn’t splash all over on the wallpaper.
In a flat opposite to Ben’s beer which spurted out of his mouth like a geyser leaving marks at the luxurious bright carpet.
“Y-you… for…forgot to …a-ask? Whatta?” the poor man almost drowned in his drink and coughed for his life while forming the words.
“I was busy okay? First he behaved strange, then almost run away but we ended in bed mixed up and early in the morning he rode out like a rocket.”
“You’re a dope, man!”
“Get to fuck Ben! Give over.”
“You’re lame! Though I want to know how your fairytale is going on. When do you call the hotline? Do you have any plan?”
“At 10PM. His shift is starting then. Hm… well I didn’t put any plan on just want to talk to him and check if he is okay, and if he wants to meet me again… soon.”
“And if he doesn’t want to? If he thinks ‘oh, that bastard cracked my virgin ass like a tin-opener’?”
Akanishi narrowed his eyes looking at Ben while that disguised his voice acting like a hysterical transy. As far as he could remember he was more than carefully with Kazuya’s virgin hole. Not to mention the younger was who rode him eagerly. On that hot image, that burned into his head for eternity, his member answered with a painfully twitch. “I don’t think so.”
“OK. Than version B: he goes out with you again and maybe you can hump him again, if your cock won’t break down… again.”
“It won’t. It’s still not… just a little sensitive that’s all. Anyway If I can meet him again I won’t stay away from him for sure and if he will be just half as eager as last time I will have my ticket into his pants, yeah!” The two of them slapped their thumbs together in reunion while Ben was repeating ‘Yeah’ as well.
“Do you have any longer plan with that guy?” the question just popped out from Ben after a while and he watched at the singer’s expression. “You seem to be fallen (?) for him already.”
Akanishi was staring at his new can of beer that his friend handed him not long ago. Well, it sounded not totally incredible. He wanted to spend more time with Kazuya, that’s sure and later… they will see what will be later. He doesn’t have to rush or something. Not like on his first date, oh no. He won’t lose his head again. That must have been his suppressed sexual urge. The case of his behave or … Kazuya’s alluring body and blood boiling moans, not to mentions the guy’s dominating side which showed up for a little when Kazu-chan climbed over Jin and rode him like a wild cat.
The loud noise of the bell dragged him back to reality and he turned to Ben with wide eyes. Who the hell is that? He haven’t waited guests and they were already one more than enough. When he opened the door, Daiki stood there with two pack of pepperoni pizza and box of beer grinning at Jin like an idiot. Well maybe that guy was his other best friend if you can call him like that, but mostly when they clubbed around. The big mouth of Daiki was more dangerous than Ben’s and if they team up … great shit, he is better to step off before that moment, but it was more than late. The black haired man was ready to open his mouth again.
“Yo man! I’ve heard your yellow anaconda is broken, here is some cold beer for your buddy.”
“Fine, just fine.” He turned back to the sitting man who acted totally innocently. “Did you post it onto the Facebook or twitter?”
“Why do you ask ME?” Ben huffed back shocked.
“’Sup Benny boy?” Daiki wasn’t paying attention to the pained expression of Akanishi just stepped into the fancy flat and placed the food and the drink onto the kitchen counter. “You might need some bright shoulder to cry on, dude. Here is mine.” he patted his right side offering to Jin.
“I won’t cry on your shoulder, jegga.”
“It’s okay, it will stay between us.” The black haired pulled the singer closer for a friendly hug by his shoulder and changed his voice like a real actor. “If my cock broke down, I would cry like a baby. The bitch kicked your precious one?”
“No, it was bitten.” Ben cut in.
“BITTEN? WHATTA? That slut!" Daiki gaped turning his head back and forth between the two men.
“It was a turtle. I think it will fall down in the end.”
“It won’t fall down and was not bitten. Face it up!” Jin huffed angrily and curled up to the other side of the couch grumpily placing his ice-pack back onto its former place.
The last two hours were spent like that with pepperoni pizza, beer and two-bit jokes at Jin’s cost and of course more beer until they were wasted. Even Jin couldn’t resist laughing with the guys mostly because he was more than tipsy. Just after 10PM he jumped up and searched for his iPhone.
“I have a… c-call… dudes. My turtle is waiting for me!”
“Wohoo!” the two men howled in union.
“Yes, have a safe sex. On phone… haha.” Daiki burst out laughing. “You won’t lose your cock like that.”
“Yeah! Phone-sex!” Ben cheered and lifted his can to clink.
“I’m gonna have… p-phone-sex… alone. I mean… with Kazu-chan.”
“Hey! The screw, I was to try something new.” Daiki whined to Jin “You could share your wild turtle for a bit. I’m so fucking curious how a phone sex is goin’.”
“The HELL I will share. Call another hotline, jackhole!”
“Ben, tell him something! I was okay with our treesome, we have fun ne? Your freshly found ex-virgin ass would be the cherry on the cake. Yey for cherry-ass!”
The two wasted man huddled up to Akanishi to listen to the conversation and stood pat until Jin gave up and called the well-known number impatiently. After some rings a strange voice greeted him. It was not Kazuya’s and after Jin was told Kazuya was not in he hung the phone up annoyed.
“Noooooo, no cherry ass for tonight! What a shit.” Daiki sang bitterly.
Maybe he was still on holiday Jin thought swapping away the worried thoughts. Anyway tomorrow he will have another chance and another call. And if Kazu-chan won’t show up he’s going to turn off the whole words for his cherry ass that’s sure.
***
The next day Kame managed to gather himself together. He chose to bury himself into work. If he did so, he didn't have so much time to think about Akanishi which was a good thing. Tho luck was not always on his side. Whenever he went to convenient store to buy himself something to drink or buy his lunch, Jin's song was played in radio.
"Why is fate so cruel to me?" He sighed as he left the little shop. That singing voice...those eyes and arms...hugging him... He shook his head and shut his eyes. He was again thinking about Jin!! No no no! Why was it so painful and so hard to forget? What could he do? If he had to go on like this for long he was certain he will go crazy.
The daytime work passed slowly, sometimes he caught himself daydreaming and his the weird stare of his colleagues told him his behavior was not as it used to be.
He knew his brothers were still worried too. They must have noticed the drastic change in him too and as they looked at him sometimes it tore his heart apart. But he couldn't possibly just tell them what had happened. They are still young and anyway, it wouldn't be the right choice. Kazuya promised himself he will cope with this alone. He had to be strong.
When he finished work it was already 7 in the evening. He was more exhausted than other times. Maybe because now not only his physical strength but his thinking nonstop and worrying over things caused more energy waste.
He was again so deep in his thoughts he didn't even realized he automatically turned at the corner and walking on the road to his nightshift work. Only when he looked at his watch his heart skipped a beat. Evening... soon night and then...
His steps became more and more unsure as he realized where he was heading to. Was he ready already? Can he handle it? He didn't really know. His stubbornness made him take little steps forward, but his mind and heart told him to just stop and run home.
But...What was he? A coward? No!
He continued with more determined steps, but as he was really near he hesitated again. What would be the best decision? He looked up at the building and sighed. For long minutes he was just watching it, trying to clear his mind but then looked down.
It has nothing to do with being coward, it was the most natural thing to do not to tear the scar up before it could heal. What good would it bring if he went in? He was sure he couldn't concentrate. It meant no good service, it meant scolding and maybe it would even have consequences for later and his future. He couldn't let that happen.
He didn't run, but he turned away and started to walk. Slowly...trying to calm himself it was the best he could do.
"Hello" He said into the phone. "I am very sorry but my doctor said I should stay at home one more day."
***
Next day exactly at 10 o’ clock Akanishi pulled his iPhone out of his pocket and called the certain number which he so eagerly waited for all day long. The line was broken by a familiar voice, but not Kazuya’s.
"Hello there my dear, here is Hide, where should I start?"
"Helo, it's Ji... Fernandez. I wanted to talk to Kazuya, is he in now?"
Ji...? Hide narrowed his eyes. Again the same boy and what's this ‘JI’? He seemed to be in a very intimate relationship with Kazuya, because of how he called him. Everyone here called the hotline boys as they introduce themselves and Kazuya had the Kazu-chan nickname.
"Oh, he is not here Ji, play with me instead prettyboy."
“He won’t be in tonight again? Is he sick?”
"Oh worrying much?" Hide chuckled "Maybe he will, maybe he won't~ why am I not good?"
Jin sighed irritated. He wanted to get some news about Kazuya instead of chatting with this Hide-guy. Especially not with him.
“If you are that good you could tell me when he is on shift again.”
"Hey hey prettyboy. There is no relationship with us in line, you have no right to ask for Kazu-chan. Maybe he is very sick, who knows? But why would it interest you?" He asked in a playful, amused voice.
“Yes, I know… not be personal” he murmured to himself and tried to calm down a bit. “So Hide-kun what is that you are so good in? Huh?”
"Well my dear, I could satisfy all of your needs more than Kazu-chan ever could." He gave a kissing sound.
“Oh, really? Why do you know he doesn’t?” Jin pointed at the teasing man.
"A virgin? C’mon!" Hide laughed. "So, what's your real name Ji?" His voice was low.
Not that Akanishi really wanted to know what the guy could give him. Only the other man’s voice made the opposite effect on him compare to Kazu-chan’s. Imagining this guy moan his name into the line made him disgusted and irritated, but Hide-kun seemed to be very clever as well.
“Virgin? Haha… don’t fuck with me. For you Fernandez.”
"For me? And for the world dear... Ji?" He got suspicious; he heard this voice before "Maybe I know you prettyboy?" He liked to provoke people; it was always fun for him.
"Maybe, maybe not. But I'm busy so Hide-kun it was nice to hear of you."
"Hey, don't you want to know which hospital Kazu-chan is in?" He giggled.
"H-hospital???" his heart left out a beat and voice became high repeating the word. This fucker just playing with him, isn't it?
As Hide thought. This man, whoever he is was really close to Kazuya, he could tell from the reaction. How interesting.
"I am sorry I can only give further information to his boyfriend."
Jin’s fingers tightened around his mobile in anger and he was ready to beat out of the shit from Hide-kun. He mustn’t fell out of his role. You are better actor then this Akanishi!
“B-boyfriend? Haha… It’s not my business.”
"Oh, you didn't know he has a boyfriend? But oh maybe he hasn't. I see you love him very much. Hmmm" He was really playing with the other now.
“… and his boyfriend allows him to work in a hotline?”
"Do you allow him?" He enjoyed playing with this Fernandez guy.
“NO! I mean… I’m not his boyfriend. What’s that shit anyway?”
"You sound like one hahahahah" Hide changed his voice to more seductive. "Or can I have him?"
This conversation definitely wasn’t going in the way Jin wanted to be. What this little bitch wanted from him? If pissing him, he was the best way to that. He sighed again and lowered his voice.
“Look Hide-kun. I wanted to ask something from Kazu-chan that’s it. I don’t know what is with you and what do you want from me at all. I don’t understand your misty blabbing. Would you tell me what the fuck you want from me?”
"Oh, why are you so angry? I want nothing from you. You want something from me."
“Kazu-chan’s whereabouts. Do you know or you have no clues?”
"I have no clues dear, I am sorry." He laughed.
“Oh, shit!” Jin growled at into the line. “Than what was the whole shitting about it? You are really mean to your customers, don’t you?”
"We work for money dear, I am sure you have a workplace too~ You know, this hotline cost a lot and as longer you stay in the line as much the guy who you call gets as pocket money." He explained.
“I’m not that dumb. If you wanted to raise your salary with my call you should have told me at first. A little exchange for your information.” the world works like that, he knew it pretty well. “… and now after you told me what you know, I thank you for your little chat and go.”
"Oh, are you disappointed you couldn't talk to your only one, Casanova? Will wait for your call again~ Byebye!" Hide singsonged.
Akanishi cut the line and threw his poor phone into the next corner of the room. His anger boiled in his veins just as the worry towards Kazuya ate him inside. This brat was the top of everything making fun of him and pissing him. If he wouldn’t be the famous singer he would go there and drown Hide-kun with his bare hands. But in his case the only thing he could do suppress this feeling with strong alcohol.
***
The meeting in the recording studio checking new tracks was a somewhat refreshing for Jin on the next day. Though he had a little hangover he was able to throw himself into the work and took his mind off Kazuya and his worry for the guy. It was evening when he realized that he didn’t take a break even for eating. If it went for the music he was a workaholic bastard he couldn’t deny. When they decided to call it a day and continue on next one his collages asked if he wanted to join for a dinner with them, Akanishi agreed to.
They settled in the nearest small restaurant and ordered a bunch of food from ramen to yakiniku. After the tiring day they were still high and chatted around while more and more beer landed on their table with delicious meal. The atmosphere was lazy as always. It was not the first time they spent some hours away from studio. Jin felt if they weren’t just colleges but close friends as well. He liked to stay with them time to time and listen to the conversations about one’s family stories or other’s new girlfriend.
This time he caught himself again and again, that he was checking his watch impatiently. The last two hours seemed to drag itself nerve-rackingly slowly along. He couldn’t follow the others anymore and when he was asked something and realized that he didn’t even hear the question. Only the mentioning of his name drove him back to the reality, Jin decided to excuse himself and headed home to his fancy apartment.
After he closed his door he mixed a big bottle from his favorite cocktails and settled with that into his home studio. Playing on his guitar would do to kill time until he can make the call to the hotline. Yes, he was still there and didn’t give up so easily. The first thought was to find the call center and demand for Kazu-chan, just after he broke Hide-kun’s neck of course.
Instead of that he sipped his drink and started to play a familiar song he remembered while thinking of the younger man. If Kazuya is just avoiding him and offended with him the last he can do is to sing a cheesy song for him. He was not that good in talking especially not in apologies. He was living for music and if it makes him calm down then it would help get Kazuya back.
Akanishi made the instrument sound under his fingers and hummed the melody, then the words slowly showing their way through his lips as he started to sing softly.
“You're better than the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler than the flip side of my pillow,
that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where You send me,
let’s me know that it's okay
Yeah, it's okay
And the moments where my good times start to fade
You make me smile like the sun,
fall out of bed, sing like bird,
dizzy in my head, spin like a record,
crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile
Even when you're gone,
Somehow you come along just like
A flower pokin' through the sidewalk crack
And just like that
You steal away the rain, and just like that
You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed
Sing like bird, dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile… ”
Just when he finished he felt totally relaxed and a wide smile appeared on his face recalling all of the memories which they shared with Kazuya until now. His heart was filled with hope and knew for sure he can talk to the younger man again. Just as he called the hotline at the first time and when they met, was fate. It won’t end up like this. It can’t end like this.
Jin kept playing some random melodies until the pointer showed ten. He took his phone and whispered a ‘please’ before dialing the number.
***
Kame decided he can’t be so coward and face reality. He needed the money and anyway, the saying says “What makes your fear disappear is to look it into the eye, to face it.” He was positive he could do it. Thinking about his family made him stronger and he was a man after all. Meetings and partings come in a set and the memories are to be cherished. Life is too short to worry for every little thing. What happened, happened. The future is the future what everyone has to face. So he decided to beat his coward self, go to the hotline and trying to do everything like he did before the first call from Fernandez. It was work after all and he wanted to be professional.
He was sitting at his desk, waiting for the first call with a firm face. He WILL manage it! The phone started to ring and he took a deep breath, answered it but before he could say even an introduction the caller spoke first.
"Hi, is Kazu-chan there?"
Kame almost dropped the phone hearing the familiar voice and his eyes widened, body went numb from shock. As if he was not even conscious for a few seconds. The voice he thought he won't ever hear directed towards him, he heard the first time that day in work. His heart skipped a few beats then started to throb in his throat, he was unable to form words and it seemed time stopped. Why? What can he say?
The walls he again put around himself and the effort to keep the strongness collapsed miserably and he was just sitting there, phone in hand, unable to respond.
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To be continued
Next: Chapter 8