sleepless only in my head

Mar 22, 2005 06:24

why i cant go to sleep i cant seem to explain myself why. thoughts and crazy imaginations cross my mind like i've never seen before, maybe i should stop thinking about things so much. i feel as if im here, but im not. i dunno its kinda weird in a way. today i worked and i came home and then we ate at the ale house, that was all fine. then suddenly back at my house, i find myself typing away laughing with, bianca, mike, and matinolish at some stupid shit......and then, "im leaving suray, i see you are having to much fun down there talking to ryan on the computer" wtf? the kid wasnt even online. you know sometimes when people asumme shit i want to just break their face in. questions every 5 seconds right in my ear can get a bit irratating, after a while they become like a strange annoying sound i really dont find amuzing in any way, shape, or form. i wish he would just, "let it be" as they say and STOP bothering me with such annoying questions like, "are you sure you like me, are you sure you are over him, iam paranoid, im paranoid...." then it all becomes that annoying noise i spoke about: blah blah blab;kzsbfl;iawuefg;iwurfeb;aiefbg;zrefb......rubish all of it, iam tired. i miss being lonelly again. i think thats what i need and thats what ill do, nothing can change the way i feel right now, or the way i feel for that one person, i think if anyone tries to make me forget it'll just get worse for them. i choose to let that go for now, you know what they say, "if you let it go and it comes back someday but only if its meant to be, if that specific love comes back to me, then it is ours to keep forever" and hopefully in my case, i hope that is what happends in my story. right now i am super confident and happy and sleepy very sleepy, so sleepy that i feel like a zombie uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh scary haha.....whatever man iam going to keep doing what i do. i cant wait to star miami dade baby, i still dont know what iam going to do yet, hopefully something that keeps me off trouble and in school. all i want to do right now is read books and go to school and learn, i feel like ive awaken from this deep and awfull sleep/dream thingy "someone let me out kinda thing" w.e peace and happyness thats what i always should have said from the begining.....CHEERS to my new beautiful life.
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