Sitting on Babies..
I really dont like watching kids. It makes me really sad to see how they are so evil sometimes. I just know that I am pretty positive I dont want kids.. I think...
My niece is very smart though. You dont need to talk to her like a kid, she understands everything, I mean, when she listens. There are just those times when I get scared of the effect I might have on her future. If I might somehow make her the person she will be. I really am the only mother/sister figure she has right now, on a daily basis, and her father isnt helping to keep me around. I mean, I know they are family, but I need to be paid for my work and time.
I am completely exhausted. If Im not watching Sabrina, I am working at my job. Sabrina's dad doesnt get home until past 12am every night. I work early, and then, when I have that split second, I have to do all the things that have been building up. Sleep is my only escape. But for now, I am o.k with this. I should be going to school in January, and that means another move, one I am again extremely excited for!
I hope that sometime very soon I will have more time to paint. I really need to get all of this out.
You know that feeling? The one when right after you paint (or do something relaxing), you just feel a release. Kind of like writing in your journal, or telling someone a secret of yours that you have been keeping to yourself for a long time, and you just needed to breathe.. I dont know..
well, its pretty late, and Im very tired.
Goodnight:)
<3
p.s. Im going to stay happy.
My niece is very smart though. You dont need to talk to her like a kid, she understands everything, I mean, when she listens. There are just those times when I get scared of the effect I might have on her future. If I might somehow make her the person she will be. I really am the only mother/sister figure she has right now, on a daily basis, and her father isnt helping to keep me around. I mean, I know they are family, but I need to be paid for my work and time.
I am completely exhausted. If Im not watching Sabrina, I am working at my job. Sabrina's dad doesnt get home until past 12am every night. I work early, and then, when I have that split second, I have to do all the things that have been building up. Sleep is my only escape. But for now, I am o.k with this. I should be going to school in January, and that means another move, one I am again extremely excited for!
I hope that sometime very soon I will have more time to paint. I really need to get all of this out.
You know that feeling? The one when right after you paint (or do something relaxing), you just feel a release. Kind of like writing in your journal, or telling someone a secret of yours that you have been keeping to yourself for a long time, and you just needed to breathe.. I dont know..
well, its pretty late, and Im very tired.
Goodnight:)
<3
p.s. Im going to stay happy.