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[830pm]

my car is broken. awesome. and i won't have my license renewed for another 4-6 weeks. even better. as if i don't go to school,work or have a life. who needs a license or a car right? ugghhh. school sucks. i don't even do good anymore nor do i care. i wish i did. and i'm not fond of anyone in that school. i'm bored with it. i wake up angry in the morning bcuz it's early and i don't want to go anymore. i've got some hxc senioritis. i've been working like crazy lately, which is money, and no time or energy. which is frustrating especially since i can't even drive myself there or back, i have to hitch a ride like a fucking kid. things are awesome at home, as usual..yeah right. i can't depend on anyone. the only person who is there for me when i need them anymore is maia, no question or conditions, she's there. everyone else is to busy or whatever. even jovan is missing. i'm on the brink of a nervous breakdown. everything is going wrong at the moment and on top of that i feel unappreciated and unwanted by almost everyone i care about. i'm hurting so bad right now, it makes me sick. i know it's lame when people bitch and moan in their journals,and i know there are millions if not more people out there who have it much worse than i do, but i just needed to vent a little before i explode. something has to give. i wish you would stop being so stupid, you're killing me. i've given everything with nothing in return, but that still isn't good enough. so i give up. i'll just wait here. wait for you to figure yourself out or something.

i need a vacation. again.