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I do not know what I should do. Am I helpful or cold? I dont want to feel panic and fear of a pain that makes me go to the dark egresses of my mind. I am all emotion bundled up into one and it makes me numb. I am happy in a world that seems to be falling apart around me and I am terrified that it will all happen again...alone...will I open my eyes and find that no one was ever really there and all hopes and dreams were for naught. I find two sides of myself fighting and it has to go somewhere. On this page it spills forth and there is so much anger and pain but Im still foolish enough to hope for people to be happy, to find their way. For now, I try to make at least one person happy in this world. What is left of me I cannot say...
and if anyone finds this too dark they can go to the happier more plucky side of me on any of the other modes of communication.
and if anyone finds this too dark they can go to the happier more plucky side of me on any of the other modes of communication.