i did it
so today i broke up with jason. it was bi far the hardest thing i have had to do in a VERY long time. i have such deep feelings for him, but i just couldnt drag him along with my horribal rollercoaster of ammotions any more. im so horribal. i take my meds i dont take my meds. im happy im un happy. is all seems that no matter what i am doing these last few weeks just havent made me happy. i feel horribal . this is like really bad timeing, but i had to do it. i have been crying all day long. tonight i went to elliots and got a bit happier then i went to c meet the fockers with my sister and my brother, but now i am home and alone in my room with my thoughts. all i can think about is how i hopw i didnt just make a HUGE mistake. jason was the best boifriend i have vere had and it just sux. i dont kno y i feel this way, but i do and its not fair. he deservers better than me and i kno that some day he will find it. i love him i really do, but not in that way any more. i hope he ends up finding true happiess some day very soon. i hope i do too.