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The feeling of an empty heart mixed with frustration/sadness/confusion and just a tad bit of self hate, Makes me feel liek total shit. It sucks i dopnt kwnow hat i'm afraid of but i am. and i cant see msyelf ever finding that happiness that so many people have or have had. i dontw ant to be close i need distance and it always means that it's for the worse, with me.... i knwo what i want but it doesnt seem toc ome my way and i know that i probably cant have it. I'[m not gonna settle for whatever, becaus eif i never find it then i guess i'll be teh same as i am ow.. Just Me....i'd like to feel that thing but my heart .. doesnt make space for those things it seems like..my mind travels and my heart stays in teh same place...i just hope that things get better a slife passes on. if not i;ll just settle for nothing if i cant have everything..