Getting closer
I don't know how I didn't realize, or why I didn't try harder. She was, apparently, little aware of how I felt about her. The biggest crush, caring and wishing there was at all a possibility for having the capacity to care more. Only a glimpse at someone can't give room for love. It's like a shot of whiskey, burning but then, of course it was the last of the whiskey your parents were saving for a special occasion. What good that one shot would do baffles, and so, drinking it seemed the only way to eliminate that confusion. Maybe this is a special occasion, alright!? She was always tied up, and in my foolishness, I didn't think to try to untie her. Unreasonable. Stop relinquishing friendships for the sake of petty desire. Of all these people in the world, there has to be the possibility that I've missed out on great friendships for faulty preconceptions. I wish I could forget hope, not because it's a horrible thing, just a distracting one. Hope always just tends to cancel itself out. You have to let it go before it will work for you, otherwise hope is just dressed up for halloween as obsession. Hope is buying vegetables at the supermarket when you've started living your life and someone bumps into you, you get married, but you never went in dressed up for the party, it just happened- here are the pomegranates and the misting gun.