distraction
im not supposed to be distracted today because you're not here and i have things to accomplish... so why do i keep staring off into space, at the phone, down the hall. what's my excuse now? i always blame it on you but i can't do that today. maybe i smoke too much pot, maybe i need to smoke some now. will i ever be able to succeed being creative the way i am? totally disorganized and a total mess, yeh it comes out good but is it worth all the stress? well for starters i need to quit writing in this thing... itz already 12:10 and i've done nothing but sit here and listen to my ears ring. made a worse mess of what i already had. i need to borrow a nice clear head for days like this :/