2:30 am... not a good sign...
I think I've lost it. The thought of nursery tomorrow is so overwhelming. I keep asking people if they think 18 months is a long time in there. Some say 6 months is what their ward does, others say years. I was sick this afternoon and thought of getting a substitute, but hesitated because I want to take the Sacrament so bad. I missed it last week. I am feeling better, my stomach has settled, but my nerves are shot.
I cleaned my house all day. My back is hurting, as it usually does after such a day, but it will be fine. The laundry is all done and put away including Wesley's sheets and his bed is remade. The boys room is spotless. The living room vacuumed.
Sleep is the most important thing and it's 2:30 am. I just watched a tear jerker of a movie and cried, which is very dangerous. So I took anti-inflammatories and half a tranquilizer to get myself to sleep.
Herr J. said something about setting priorities. You can't do it all, something has to give. Is it going to be your family? No. Maybe if they paid more, but you have to put in your hours, do the very best you can and know that it gets better after that first year of teaching. I honestly thought that my career choice would never allow me to not take work home. I've even said that teachers should be paid more specifically because they teach all day and then grade all night. I honestly thought that's how it was to be.
I've always feared teaching high school because of the long classes and 4 of them one day and three the other with a prep. Then I found out that you only teach 6 classes total in high school. You have an hour and a half prep every day!! Maybe I could actually have a clean house and an occasional dinner if I teach high school!?!?!
Medicine should be kicking in very soon, so I am off to bed.
I cleaned my house all day. My back is hurting, as it usually does after such a day, but it will be fine. The laundry is all done and put away including Wesley's sheets and his bed is remade. The boys room is spotless. The living room vacuumed.
Sleep is the most important thing and it's 2:30 am. I just watched a tear jerker of a movie and cried, which is very dangerous. So I took anti-inflammatories and half a tranquilizer to get myself to sleep.
Herr J. said something about setting priorities. You can't do it all, something has to give. Is it going to be your family? No. Maybe if they paid more, but you have to put in your hours, do the very best you can and know that it gets better after that first year of teaching. I honestly thought that my career choice would never allow me to not take work home. I've even said that teachers should be paid more specifically because they teach all day and then grade all night. I honestly thought that's how it was to be.
I've always feared teaching high school because of the long classes and 4 of them one day and three the other with a prep. Then I found out that you only teach 6 classes total in high school. You have an hour and a half prep every day!! Maybe I could actually have a clean house and an occasional dinner if I teach high school!?!?!
Medicine should be kicking in very soon, so I am off to bed.