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i just made the most wonderful veggie dish with my grandmother for the last hour or so. its times like these that i realize how much of my happiness lies with my family. they are my rock.
i miss me.
ive realized that growing into myself and finding out what im all about is much more difficult then i imagined. at one moment i am defined by these things and then a minute more and i am throwing that shit out the window and defining myself by other things.
i just wish that no one was looking and no one was judging and all i had to answer to is myself and no one else.
fuck the jury i am the only one that matters.
we sure are a selfish bunch don't you think?
i can't help that these are my thoughts and these are my feelings. why bother to hold them in.
sometimes i just wish for the past to catch up with the present so a whole me can move on into the future. i feel in pieces and fragments to far away from each other to even see. it makes me feel so flat and one demensional.
i beg for certain memeories that really need not to be relived... whats done is done.
i miss me.
ive realized that growing into myself and finding out what im all about is much more difficult then i imagined. at one moment i am defined by these things and then a minute more and i am throwing that shit out the window and defining myself by other things.
i just wish that no one was looking and no one was judging and all i had to answer to is myself and no one else.
fuck the jury i am the only one that matters.
we sure are a selfish bunch don't you think?
i can't help that these are my thoughts and these are my feelings. why bother to hold them in.
sometimes i just wish for the past to catch up with the present so a whole me can move on into the future. i feel in pieces and fragments to far away from each other to even see. it makes me feel so flat and one demensional.
i beg for certain memeories that really need not to be relived... whats done is done.