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Starting today I'm making a new resolution. No more getting involved with guys who have girlfriends. No more meaningless sex that becomes meaningful. As much I don't want to close my heart to love and romance, its the only way to stop the bleeding and carry on. I need to remake myself if I'm going to get what I want from this world. I won't allow myself to stay stuck in this recursive loop. Today I take my heart off the table because I won't gamble with it. I need to be someone who doesn't need right now. Someone tore down my walls and now block by block I must rebuild them. When the time is right, when the person is right, I will remember how to love selflessly. But until that day comes I'm guarding myself and ending the open book policy. No distractions. Just unbroken focus. I get what I want. I may not be able to stop my heart from feeling, but I can silence it. So I will fight the feeling, and leave it alone until love is in the right place. Keep your distance Paul, and stay away Saxon.