Was it Worth it?
So, I deleted him from my phone, twice. Now that doesn't mean that I didn't write down his notebook, but I suppose it's a step after this weekend. I really thought he was going to murder me. I thought things were going well, but in the end they are always so hot and cold - I can't put up with that! I suppose it'll keep me from making those dumb phone calls and that is what I am going for. I'm not sure if I feel bad that I supposedly called 43 times (probably not possible), although I know I called a lot and left too many messages only through my call log. I apologized to him, but he didn't seem to want to listen to me. I guess I'm sick of trying or listening to him pretend to care. He says he cares but it's not truly what I am looking for. It's been a flipping year and we don't have the type of friendship that I would even call worth it. I guess one person can only push so far and at one point they may push too far for the other person to respond in a positive way.
Maybe one day it'll all make sense, but not now. I decided to take the hint and peace out of it as fast as I could. I may be wrong in what I am doing, but I don't know what else to do. This is where I thought reconnecting with all my boys from whenever would be best. I did it. They are responding and I love it. I have to admit, it's a huge ego boost, which is what I need and exactly what I was looking for.
Lately one thing has been getting me through life and it's emails from Michaelfahey. He makes me smile so much and I'm incredibly thankful to have such a wonderful friend like him, really, I am. He realizes how important emails from him are so he makes an effort to pretty much send two a week! How amazing is that? I know. I'm really lucky. He makes them entertaining too. I wish he wasn't so far away and I could actually see him sometime. I haven't seen him in years, real years. He promises me that I'll see him this summer. I really hope that comes true. It'll mean the world to me if I can see him again.
Maybe one day it'll all make sense, but not now. I decided to take the hint and peace out of it as fast as I could. I may be wrong in what I am doing, but I don't know what else to do. This is where I thought reconnecting with all my boys from whenever would be best. I did it. They are responding and I love it. I have to admit, it's a huge ego boost, which is what I need and exactly what I was looking for.
Lately one thing has been getting me through life and it's emails from Michaelfahey. He makes me smile so much and I'm incredibly thankful to have such a wonderful friend like him, really, I am. He realizes how important emails from him are so he makes an effort to pretty much send two a week! How amazing is that? I know. I'm really lucky. He makes them entertaining too. I wish he wasn't so far away and I could actually see him sometime. I haven't seen him in years, real years. He promises me that I'll see him this summer. I really hope that comes true. It'll mean the world to me if I can see him again.