You must be the change you want to see in the world
It's hard to express how amazingly happy I am.
Sometimes I wonder if I was ever this happy when I was with the ex. I remember being extremely happy, and I often miss it, but I don't think I was as happy as I am now. I think it was a different kind of happy, and a real happy nonetheless, but I think it was marred a little by expectations & all that which comes along with interdependence.
There are things that make me sad still, mostly family things, and not being able to do what I want to with life right now. But those are small because 1) I can't control my family/others, and 2) the future is exactly that, and surprises of the least expected kind are around every corner, so I don't worry too much but instead go with the flow.
Even being able to admit these limitations is a feat of growth and strength.
And I listen to beautiful music, and I look at the sun outside at 7:30pm, and I think about everytying coming up, and I think about how well my job is going right now, and how the day I will get to leave it and do something I love comes closer and closer, but how I'm totally ok with waiting for that for now, and how right now I could keep laying here watching a movie, or I could go out for a hike, or I could go to bed, or I could read my book, and tomorrow I'll get to see some of my best friends, and in two weeks I'll live with one of my best friends, and i have best friends, and between now and then I'll get to make a bunch of new friends, and after I move I'll get to spend an amazing summer doing amazing things and next year I'll do more of them. And maybe I'll even do some amazing things in the winter. Cause well, I can do whatever the hell I want. I am me, I owe nothing to anyone, and I have an entire world at my disposal.
How lovely is life?
Be happy, friends.
dont take it for granted
instead take a look around
quit complaing and build somthing on that ground
plant somthing on that ground
dance and sleep on that ground
get on your hands and knees and watch the ants walk around the ground
Sometimes I wonder if I was ever this happy when I was with the ex. I remember being extremely happy, and I often miss it, but I don't think I was as happy as I am now. I think it was a different kind of happy, and a real happy nonetheless, but I think it was marred a little by expectations & all that which comes along with interdependence.
There are things that make me sad still, mostly family things, and not being able to do what I want to with life right now. But those are small because 1) I can't control my family/others, and 2) the future is exactly that, and surprises of the least expected kind are around every corner, so I don't worry too much but instead go with the flow.
Even being able to admit these limitations is a feat of growth and strength.
And I listen to beautiful music, and I look at the sun outside at 7:30pm, and I think about everytying coming up, and I think about how well my job is going right now, and how the day I will get to leave it and do something I love comes closer and closer, but how I'm totally ok with waiting for that for now, and how right now I could keep laying here watching a movie, or I could go out for a hike, or I could go to bed, or I could read my book, and tomorrow I'll get to see some of my best friends, and in two weeks I'll live with one of my best friends, and i have best friends, and between now and then I'll get to make a bunch of new friends, and after I move I'll get to spend an amazing summer doing amazing things and next year I'll do more of them. And maybe I'll even do some amazing things in the winter. Cause well, I can do whatever the hell I want. I am me, I owe nothing to anyone, and I have an entire world at my disposal.
How lovely is life?
Be happy, friends.
dont take it for granted
instead take a look around
quit complaing and build somthing on that ground
plant somthing on that ground
dance and sleep on that ground
get on your hands and knees and watch the ants walk around the ground