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[sidewayseeing]

They sent him home.
Not home. Not home.
homeasaromanticizedconceptwhereeveryonelovesyou
Not home.

No.
They sent him back.
i wasn't
paying -
like a metronome, forward
paying attention
the news was far too loud
(They sent him back.)
his hands
they were cold
the man in the long black coat*
his kisses
(iamfaithfuliamyoursiam)
were metallic
i can't

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[bacchiclaureate]

What's wrong with you revenge baby?

[sidewayseeing]

Father,
am I faithful?
maybe i am wrong.

[bacchiclaureate]

999 out of 1000 kids say yes. The other one was sleeping so they abstained.

[sidewayseeing]

I don't know.
I want to know.
I do.

but just because you close your eyes
does not mean you're sleeping
if they shake you -
if they shake you do you move?

[bacchiclaureate]

Generally. Bodies are jiggly like that.

[sidewayseeing]

even small ones?

i could -
i could not do anything
and then i did not do anything
(that is not true
i said no
i said it
both times i said it)
Why does no one listen?

[bacchiclaureate]

Probably because you're normally talking to a wall, kitten.

[sidewayseeing]

No.

Not today.

[bacchiclaureate]

A tree then?

[sidewayseeing]

There is nothing to laugh about.
Not about me,
Not today.

I cannot -
I do not mind when it is me,
I am not
but small bodies move the same.

[bacchiclaureate]

I've got my serious fatherly face on over here. You can't see it, but it's pretty intense. Ariadne agrees. Or she would if she wasn't sleeping. She's sleeping though.

[sidewayseeing]

Does that change things?

What face you wear -
does it change things?
I feel as though I'm wearing the wrong one.

[bacchiclaureate]

Fatherly face if for fatherly things. It comes with a pipe.

It looks like the right one to me. Same one you've always had.

[sidewayseeing]

someone pressed the wrong fingerprints into it
and the whorls of them sat wrong
i feel too tight
and i feel cold & rusted

[bacchiclaureate]

Why are people fingerprinting your face buttercup?

[sidewayseeing]

I was distracted.
I'm sorry.