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compared to my world of last year, i feel like my world of this year is barely recognizable. I changed my life around for a job, my whole life, practically. I don't mourn anymore, and I don't ruminate or pine like before. It's for suckers.
I hated myself quite a bit before. Less so now. Most of that improvement stems from the fact that I CAN do what I'm doing, that I'm doing it and have done it. I wake up at 5. I get home at 730...the next 730. I take the day's stresses...and I take them while smiling (MOST of the time) I feel like after whatever chapter this is is done, I'll be invincible, but none of it could be the way it is sans Alan.
I hated myself quite a bit before. Less so now. Most of that improvement stems from the fact that I CAN do what I'm doing, that I'm doing it and have done it. I wake up at 5. I get home at 730...the next 730. I take the day's stresses...and I take them while smiling (MOST of the time) I feel like after whatever chapter this is is done, I'll be invincible, but none of it could be the way it is sans Alan.