if nothing else, read the last line
ive been doing a lot of deep thinking lately, and drawing. i know i said this before, but it has really become evident to me of who i can really trust. i was so oblivious during the summer, and before then, that i could not see the clear picture. i am a very trusting person, and that is one of my major downfalls indefinetly. however, once that trust is lost, don't ever expect it to be regained.
its extremely ironic, really. with the loss of such a great friend, my life actually feels whole now. its almost as if in the back of my mind, i knew that i was being deceived, betrayed. i feel so happy right now. everything feels right for once.
i will always love dustin. its impossible to just erase 2 years of dating. i know im only 16, but what we had was real. i dont care how sappy im sounding right now, because its the truth. when he left, it felt like i had been split down the middle, and torn to shreds, but now i realize that that part of my life is over now, and i have been given a fresh start. i know we will always be close, and for that i am extremely thankful.
im contradicting what i said earlier. i did not lose a great friend. i lost a fake-great friend. i feel nothing for them now. i was enraged at first, so much that i went home and went destruct-o on some useless boxes. (lol) yet now, i feel nothing. part of me misses the friend that i knew, but i cannot miss something that never existed in the first place. u wear a very convincing mask, so much that i trusted it with all i had, however all lies must come to an end, and this lie just veared its ugly (emphasis on ugly) head. u say u hate ppl that only care for themselves, and have no regard for other's feelings. well then i guess its fair to say that you've become everything u hated. i dont know whether to feel sorry for you or laugh at your patheticness. part of me wants to confront u, tell u everything that i think of u, and the other part knows u arent worth the energy. u disgust me.
excutse my spelling/grammar. im not a big reader-backer.
on a lighter note, (this is probably the most important part of my entry) DOES ANYONE WANT TO PLAY CAPTURE THE FLAG??????? OR DODGEBALL?????????????????????????????
its extremely ironic, really. with the loss of such a great friend, my life actually feels whole now. its almost as if in the back of my mind, i knew that i was being deceived, betrayed. i feel so happy right now. everything feels right for once.
i will always love dustin. its impossible to just erase 2 years of dating. i know im only 16, but what we had was real. i dont care how sappy im sounding right now, because its the truth. when he left, it felt like i had been split down the middle, and torn to shreds, but now i realize that that part of my life is over now, and i have been given a fresh start. i know we will always be close, and for that i am extremely thankful.
im contradicting what i said earlier. i did not lose a great friend. i lost a fake-great friend. i feel nothing for them now. i was enraged at first, so much that i went home and went destruct-o on some useless boxes. (lol) yet now, i feel nothing. part of me misses the friend that i knew, but i cannot miss something that never existed in the first place. u wear a very convincing mask, so much that i trusted it with all i had, however all lies must come to an end, and this lie just veared its ugly (emphasis on ugly) head. u say u hate ppl that only care for themselves, and have no regard for other's feelings. well then i guess its fair to say that you've become everything u hated. i dont know whether to feel sorry for you or laugh at your patheticness. part of me wants to confront u, tell u everything that i think of u, and the other part knows u arent worth the energy. u disgust me.
excutse my spelling/grammar. im not a big reader-backer.
on a lighter note, (this is probably the most important part of my entry) DOES ANYONE WANT TO PLAY CAPTURE THE FLAG??????? OR DODGEBALL?????????????????????????????