u r bleak
todays a very boring day. ive been tryin to think of some yard work i can do for the past 15 min, but the lawns already mowed, weeds pulled, bricks dont have anywhere to go, so ug. i like doing yard work. i want to go jogging, but i think ill save that for when it gets dark. i feel like a retard when i jog during the day. i really dont know y, but i do. haha. yea, i took a walk with shea and becca last night at like midnight. it was really fun. this old lady was power walking and i didnt see her, so when she came up from behind me, all i saw was this sudden dark figure rushing up, so i yelled like a pussy and jumped 2 ft in the air. omg, i havent laughed that hard in weeks. i talked to nick last night, im supposed to ask devin if he wants to........hang out sometime. o geez, this is gunna b hard. ive had a crush on this kid since 9th grade, and i finally started talking to him this summer online. haha, this should b funny. i think i might work on moving the bricks from the former sand box somewhere else. gunna have to do it sooner or later. lately ive just been helping my mom clean my dad's shit downstairs. we have to b very sneaky about it tho, cuz he throws a fit. i think its funny tho. a few days ago he "couldnt do anything but lay down" cuz he had a sunburn on his face. he had to "heal". hahahahahahahahaha. that guy is so ridiculous. but then again i think most parents are. now im just waiting around like a dumbass to see if mary and alicia will call. im pondering whether to call them or not, but honestly i think itd b more interesting to see if they call me for once. if they dont feel the need to hang out with me, or even call, then screw it. ive been doing things alone alot this summer, so it really doesnt matter to me that much anymore. i think alot of ppl feel alone. its no big deal. i realize taht i never cease to stop talking about being alone in my entries. it must b getting pretty old by now for those who read. speaking of reading, i have to get my summer reading done, or atleast start it b4 school starts. damn. i hope it storms today. thatd b fun to run in it. im spose to have movie night with eric soon. that'll b some fun. i might hang out with some guy named karl soon to. just tryin to fill up the days till school. cant wait to paint taht school. bla bla bla bla bla. k im gunna stop boring u guys. im out.