you know what sucks. sometimes when I listen to that acoustic music I love so much, I hate that those guys are going through what I put guys through. I dont do it intentionally. I'd like to write them and tell them that girl might be just like me. She might of loved you just as much as you loved her, but you're just better with expression and writing a song about her got the word out first...
I'm rackin my brain
trying to comprehend
how, for some unknown reason, our status will remain as friends
I'm destroying my mind
trying to understand how with little to no effort
you've got me eating out of the palms of your hands
There was not a single spark
when my lips landed on yours in the dark,
but regardless of what happens next
you're my beloved, you just don't know it yet
We're murdering our lives
trying to make it work,
but you and I both know that we are a lost cause
and nothing more than specks on this Earth
Yeah I know you listen to this all alone up in your room
I know you love how all this music's about you
I've found that, atleast in my case, having class as a senior feels so monotonous. There's no one older to meet. No one new to talk to. All my classes are stock full of seniors and those I dont know, i dont really like, and those that I do know, I talk to and love to pieces. So um, it kind of takes the fun out of showing up to class.
And there's something about the way his breath hit the dash board when I told him I was sorry for all the pain I'd caused that sent a chill through my spine. He wasn't ready for goodbye and neither was I. We spent a moment there just taking in our own breath dancing across the cold. I noticed that the sparkle was gone which made this nights darkness creep in like death on an aged 80 man clenching fists and screaming without a voice. We both knew it was coming. The silence broke with crashing and I knew those goodbye were final. In that glimpse he reached for my hand and screamed above the metal to his lungs "never forget this. I've seen death once before and its told me you were meant to live!" Suddenly I awoke with sweat across my cheeks and tears on my sheets. I knew I wanted that memory gone for that reason.
We said through chest battered with bullets and devilish grins, You Can't Kill Your Heroes
I miss the way I used to write. Without a trigger or a destination. When my words were like wind and my meanings meant nothing.
just curious faces on the other side of computer screens waiting for me to answer this machine. Leave a message on my buddy window, i'll answer you when my soul arrives home.
Its gone out for lunch with swedish fish and bitter moments. leaving me here to fend for life all alone.
~Mini