LUST: i'm alive but barely, it's true
>>access to the internet has been getting harder and harder to obtain. Not to mention the fact that i loathe and despise typing on this damned laptop. i wish i could write more in here, but it seems like we've all been drifting apart this summer. i try to keep in touch with everyone, but as per usual, i find myself picking favorites.
>>my birthday is this monday. i was trying to think of something we could all do that would be fun, then stef kind of took charge and now we're having the underpants party at bitch's. it sounds like fun, but i can't really see everyone getting into it. afterwards i'm having a camp on the tramp with three or four people, and we'll watch My Own Private Idaho and play DDR (not that we won't do that at bitch's, of course.)
>>i haven't been very lustful lately. it's kind of weird. in order for me to lust after someone, i can't really know them. hard to explain, really. like, once i started really talking to keith, it wasn't the same.
>>i miss jason and matt and walking around scranton with nothing to do. i miss the cafe. i miss that state of mind where i was unsure of myself but still happy, trying to discover more about myself and about other people. i don't want anything more than a couple of friends who i can joke around with and be completely serious at the same time. i want some of that intensity back.
>>i tried to paint stef last night. it came out alright, but i don't really think it looks like her.
>>i still don't know whether i'm going to purple door or not next weekend. argh.
>>i'll bet you anything that hubbell will call within the hour. he's fun to talk to most of the time, but i really don't feel like it today.
>>we've got plenty of time / or maybe we don't / but i'd like to think so / so let me pretend.
>>lust<<
>>my birthday is this monday. i was trying to think of something we could all do that would be fun, then stef kind of took charge and now we're having the underpants party at bitch's. it sounds like fun, but i can't really see everyone getting into it. afterwards i'm having a camp on the tramp with three or four people, and we'll watch My Own Private Idaho and play DDR (not that we won't do that at bitch's, of course.)
>>i haven't been very lustful lately. it's kind of weird. in order for me to lust after someone, i can't really know them. hard to explain, really. like, once i started really talking to keith, it wasn't the same.
>>i miss jason and matt and walking around scranton with nothing to do. i miss the cafe. i miss that state of mind where i was unsure of myself but still happy, trying to discover more about myself and about other people. i don't want anything more than a couple of friends who i can joke around with and be completely serious at the same time. i want some of that intensity back.
>>i tried to paint stef last night. it came out alright, but i don't really think it looks like her.
>>i still don't know whether i'm going to purple door or not next weekend. argh.
>>i'll bet you anything that hubbell will call within the hour. he's fun to talk to most of the time, but i really don't feel like it today.
>>we've got plenty of time / or maybe we don't / but i'd like to think so / so let me pretend.
>>lust<<