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[77_]

its im in an akward mood, i cant really say for sure if its bad or good - i dont think its bad, no, not bad - akward, akward fits it correctly. i finally have something to write about aye? yeah. Steve saw me naked. or has now seen every inch of my body - i didnt have sex with him, but he has seen my body now. i guess thats incredibly akward because

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[divineroutine]

God, that has to be like a whoa feeling. I'm not sure I can do that right about now. I mean my guy friends have seen my boobs or whatever and that's because we always used to fool around, but to have someone you really care about look at your body as an artform has to be scary and amazing all at the same time. Do you know if you want to have sex with him? If I don't get a phonecall from you know who before I go to bed, I can't sleep. I don't know what it is about his voice; it's so soothing that it makes everything ten times better. Did you tell Steve you started to cry when he called later on? I love you.
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[77_]

i dunno how exactly i feel about sex in general, but if i were to be comfortable with haveing sex with anyone, and it actually happening - it would definitly be steve i picture myself haveing sex with. & we've talked about it alot. - i didnt tell him i cried, i dunno how to tell him that, id look like a freak, & he did end up calling, just late - he probably would feel really bad er something that i cried, but be confused too. it was incredibly scary, amazeing too - but scary mostly. ppl have seen my boobs too, but not all of me - it was akward.
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[divineroutine]

Yeah, I know what you mean. I probably sound like a complete idiot, but having sex is a scary thought. Have you talked to him at all today?

[77_]

oh yeah, its no big deal now - he came over today. thats how he saw me nakkkked - heh, i cant really say sex is a scary thing - i think if sex is thought about as being something thats scary, then it shouldnt be done. i dont think you should have sex, until you really really want it. thank jesus me and scott didnt have sex, the opportunity was never there - because for some odd reason i was on my period everytime {fate possibly} - but we talked about it, ALOT.

[divineroutine]

Did he surprise you and that's how you ended up naked? lol. It could have been fate, seeing as how you were on it everytime. See, maybe he wasn't the one you wanted to have sex with. hmm.