Safe place to be frustrated without causing unwanted drama
I hate being the bottom of the pole. I hate that there are people who want me to put them and their feelings first, my attention is supposed to be on them above anyone other than my own kids -but when the tables are turned? Oh then it's different, I am ignored, ditched, and shoved on the back burner. My feelings don't matter, they don't give a rat's backside whether I was hurt in the situation or not. No, they just care that I didn't divulge my private life because it involved their best friend. Guess what! Best friend or not, it's not the business of a FIFTEEN year old who consenting adults choose to bed! Sure, I talk about my sex life, in the past tense though. I don't sit there and dish out my sex life while it's happening, and even then I don't really get into a discussion about it beyond things I did or learned from my ex husband. Sorry that I didn't feel it was the business of a fifteen year old who I was sleeping with. It only became the twenty year old's business because it turned out the guy was lying and was sleeping with both of us at the same time! If it were not for that little fact, no one would have known. I swear, people need to realize I don't divulge the majority of my life to everyone, and I don't for a very good reason. I don't need my personal life broadcasted through every person they know and most of which I don't. I don't need everyone's two cents put into my personal business. This whole dramatic overkill is exactly why my personal life is just that. The only time I like it to be known if I am sleeping with someone or not is A if it turns out someone I know is also sleeping with the person, or if there's a relationship involved that might lead to something permanent, but even then it's more speculation that I am sleeping with the person, not me blurting out "hey! guess who I'm sleeping with!" I mean seriously, this isn't high school. Seriously, being yelled at by a fifteen year old who is butt hurt because she got lied to by her "bestie" and because he slept with people she doesn't want him to? Honestly? She's fifteen! She needs to wake up and realize now, or even when she is an adult, she can't control who adults choose to sleep with or date or see. The only possible exception is whoever she is sleeping with when the time comes, then sure she can have a say in who they sleep with. Though, honestly, the reaction, and other little things, honestly make an intelligent person begin to wonder if she isn't sleeping with the guy or at the very least talking about doing just that as soon as she's legal..... But, if I say that, I'm just trying to cause trouble. So... I vent here, where I can't get in trouble, because if someone goes looking harder enough to find this old thing and don't like what they read.... Then it's their own damn fault. It's called a journal for a reason. It's also not public knowledge, for a reason.