The Next couple of monthes summarized in an entry
Until the date of August 10 I have no plans. Many people have talked to me about doing something. Id say there is the possiblility of about 4-5 diff incounters with diff people.
From August 10- September 15 I will have a blast in life, I have family ii haven't seen in years and also an assortment of old friends to hit it off with, also many diff places to see, Im driving back, so cross country for like the 4th time, and every time i do i see different interesting stuff, this time will be no exception. The best part is, that its not at my parents pace, no pulling over to change a diaper, or pulling over because my brother is hungery, or that my parents are tired. I recomend never doing a road trip with a child, it sucks, esspecially three.
Ater this brief hiatus my life will enter a spiral of nothing. All my friends will be gone off to some far away college, and i will be here all alone, nothing but a (hopefully) full time job to keep me company. You see after my trip I have absolutly no plans for life, no direction in which to travel, no certain path i should say, sure there are numerious possiblities but, im afraid to look down any of those pathes. I feel very desperate. Although I could look at the brightside and say that im free from any and all oblogations. But for how long? People look at me and say "That that doesn't seem too bad, I'm so busy with School/work all the time. I wish i had your life." The problem is they have never experianced what i am experiancing, they were always the busy type. I have experianced both and when you are busy you do long for free time, but when you have the amount of it that i do you realize that you have nothing to do and you end up wasting that time.
I just don't want to get involved with something and then realize that what ever it is, that it really sucks and that ill want to get out, but i wont be able too.
..........................What ever
From August 10- September 15 I will have a blast in life, I have family ii haven't seen in years and also an assortment of old friends to hit it off with, also many diff places to see, Im driving back, so cross country for like the 4th time, and every time i do i see different interesting stuff, this time will be no exception. The best part is, that its not at my parents pace, no pulling over to change a diaper, or pulling over because my brother is hungery, or that my parents are tired. I recomend never doing a road trip with a child, it sucks, esspecially three.
Ater this brief hiatus my life will enter a spiral of nothing. All my friends will be gone off to some far away college, and i will be here all alone, nothing but a (hopefully) full time job to keep me company. You see after my trip I have absolutly no plans for life, no direction in which to travel, no certain path i should say, sure there are numerious possiblities but, im afraid to look down any of those pathes. I feel very desperate. Although I could look at the brightside and say that im free from any and all oblogations. But for how long? People look at me and say "That that doesn't seem too bad, I'm so busy with School/work all the time. I wish i had your life." The problem is they have never experianced what i am experiancing, they were always the busy type. I have experianced both and when you are busy you do long for free time, but when you have the amount of it that i do you realize that you have nothing to do and you end up wasting that time.
I just don't want to get involved with something and then realize that what ever it is, that it really sucks and that ill want to get out, but i wont be able too.
..........................What ever