i dont understand
I cant do anything right. i cant live up to anyones standards. i cant be what my parents want me to be they say they support me in what i want to do but i know they wish i would do everything that they wanted me to and not what i want. the only time i feel free is with my music. playing drums makes me feel soo much better or if i just lay in my room listening to music or playing my guitar and bass anything it just takes me away.
ive been so confused lately i dont even know whats going on im not sure of anything anymore. i dont know what triggered this but i just want this chapter in my life to be closed. i hate being home all the time with my family yeah there here but im soo alone even surrounded by people im alone. i hate people.
im going back into that stage of life where i dont see why i should go on i dont really want a future. i just get angry over the stupidest shit i end up breaking things and hurting people. i lash out try for something i dont know what but im sure that im changing my life now. i dont like who i am i dont like what i am. ive had to much time to think thats obvious and thats never a good thing because i dont know what ill do next.
ive been so confused lately i dont even know whats going on im not sure of anything anymore. i dont know what triggered this but i just want this chapter in my life to be closed. i hate being home all the time with my family yeah there here but im soo alone even surrounded by people im alone. i hate people.
im going back into that stage of life where i dont see why i should go on i dont really want a future. i just get angry over the stupidest shit i end up breaking things and hurting people. i lash out try for something i dont know what but im sure that im changing my life now. i dont like who i am i dont like what i am. ive had to much time to think thats obvious and thats never a good thing because i dont know what ill do next.